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    “I have to go. Unlike you, I take this job seriously,” Shane says stiffly: “But this doesn’t end here, Rozanov.”

    The smirk on Rozanov’s face makes him want to crawl out of his skin: “Oh, wait, before you leave—one last thing.”

    Shane is already facing the doors, ready to leave, but he turns around one last time.

    “What?”

    The man looks amused: “Do you want to grab a drink after work?”

    “Oh, fuck off.”

    “Then back to my place, maybe?”

    Shane slams the office doors behind him as he exits. The entire floor stares at him as he angrily walks towards the elevators.

    Or the one where Shane Hollander is very good at his job.

    He’s less good at ignoring his CFO, the most insufferable man he’s ever met.

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    09 Sep 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov wakes up in a future where he is openly bisexual and married. This would be great news, except for the part where moments ago he was in 2014 where he was many things: recent Stanley Cup champion, star of the Raiders, the sluttiest man in Boston, a Russian citizen with a father who is alive, and also absolutely, definitely, 100% not in love with Shane Hollander.

    And why the hell is he wearing a Centaurs jersey?

    Ilya Hollander-Rozanov wakes up in the past, and he really, really would like to go home to his husband.

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    03 Sep 2026

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    Ilya let out a quiet laugh, shaking his head. “I want to be perfect for you, Shane. To make up for all the time we lost.”

    “I don’t want perfect,” Shane said quietly, stroking Ilya’s cheek. “I want something real. Something that we fight to make work, because we want it so much. Because being together is so much fucking better than being without each other.”

    ***

    Ten years ago, Shane and Ilya loved each other in secret and let each other go anyway.

    Now Shane, captain of the Ottawa Centaurs, is a single dad to four-year-old Ollie, and good at pretending he doesn’t think about the man he lost when they were younger and terrified of the fallout of being caught. Then one chance meeting turns into drinks, lingering looks, old feelings, and suddenly Ilya Rozanov is everywhere again.

    Some things, it turns out, never really leave you.

    As Shane and Ilya fall back into each other’s lives - and into something softer, steadier, and openly theirs this time — they realise maybe they’re finally ready for the life they used to dream about.

    Or: two hockey players who were each other’s first love reconnect ten years later and slowly build the family they always wanted.

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    02 Sep 2026

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    Shane was twelve when hockey scouts started showing up to his games. He was barely fifteen when a check went horribly wrong, fucked his knee to hell and gave him a grade III concussion. During rehab he found swimming, and he was seventeen when he went to the Olympics as a relay-only swimmer who only swam the prelims.

    He’s 24 and working for his mom’s sports PR company when he meets Ilya Fucking Rozanov.

    May contain: Shane Hollander navigating what it means to be mostly normal when your whole childhood was about preparing you for greatness. Shane Hollander attempting to flirt. Possibly less than 100% accurate descriptions of what a sports PR agent does.

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    07 Aug 2026

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    A collection of my anonymous Heated Rivalry fics.

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    25 Jun 2026