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    "You're leavin'?" Shane's voice is slightly slurred, and he can't bring his arms and legs to do what he wants. He wants to get up. Get up. But he's slipping on the sheets, falling back down into the softness of the mattress.
    "We both got what we wanted, yes? You even more than me." Rozanov already has his pants on, slipping his shirt over his head. And Shane isn't floating anymore, he is crashing harshly back to earth.
    "No," he tries to say, but it comes out as a hoarse whisper. "No, 'm not, I-I—"
    Rozanov is moving towards the door, barely looking at Shane. It's the indifference that makes Shane break.
    "I had long day," Rozanov says, "we should both sleep. You have water in the fridge, and you have your alarm for morning, yes? Will be fine."
    No. No, nothing will ever be fine again.

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    After Boston loses against Montreal 3-4, Rozanov wants to edge Shane once for every goal Montreal scored. It’s fucking hot, until he wants to leave right after, missing all the signs that Shane needs more than an orgasm to be taken care of.
    He almost repeats Vegas.
    He doesn’t, though.

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    13 Jul 2026

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    "Almost a year of stolen moments, of hooking up every time they get the chance, of Shane yielding more and more of himself, of Ilya being more and more free and greedy with his touches. Always pushing a little further, always desperate for each other, always indescribably better than anything else ever has been, ever could be. And then the aftermath, holding Shane while the clock ticks down in his head, how many more seconds can Ilya allow himself to stay before he has to creep out into the night like the thief that he is.

    For tonight, the clock has run out. He’s stolen enough seconds of Shane’s warmth and sweetness. If Ilya stays any longer his secret will bleed out of him, Shane will realize that Ilya shouldn’t still be here or the words Ilya is always thinking in these stolen moments will pour out of him and then Shane will know and things will probably be over between them. And Ilya can’t give up what he has of Shane, even though he wants so much more. "

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    In the first year that they're hooking up, Shane goes into subdrop as Ilya is leaving. Somehow, this is the best thing that ever happened for their relationship.

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    12 Jul 2026

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    Maybe if the video ended there, Shane thought, it would be okay. Okayish. Still incriminating. Still a fucking disaster. Still embarrassing, to have his breakup with this beautiful actress filmed and disseminated on Reddit of all fucking places, but not a nail in his coffin, burying him alive. But the video didn’t end there.

    “Can I ask if you’ve ever been with another guy?” she had to ask.

    And he, tears visible in his eyes, had to nod.

    Just once. Just a single nod.

    Why did he have to nod?

    “Have you ever told anyone that before?” He shook his head. “Was it different? With a guy?”

    “Of course.”

    Of course.

    “Was it better?”

    “Yes.”

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    Shane’s conversation with Rose is secretly recorded. Months later, after the All-Star game and Ilya’s confession in Russian, the video gets leaked online. Shane is outed to the world while Ilya is in Russia, and must now finish the 2016-2017 season with the entire world in on his secret.

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    08 Jul 2026

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    “Shane…”
    “Please. Please, please.”
    He’s begging now. Begging Ilya to take him back. To forget everything that happened in Tampa. It would be hard, but he would do it. He would do anything to keep Ilya.
    “I’ll do anything,” he tells him. “I’ll do anything you want, just please don’t… Please don’t do this. I mean it - I can pretend I don’t feel anything. Please, just… just take me back. Let me come back to you, I’ll be so good for you. Please. ”
    Ilya doesn’t answer. He’s so quiet on the other end of the phone, that Shane has to check his screen if the call is still going. It is.
    “Ilya?” he whispers.
    “Shane,” Ilya whispers back. “Please hang up the phone.”

     

    - or, shane's accident never happens and ilya follows through with his promise to break things off with shane, only to regret it immediately, especially when shane calls him drunk and upset

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    03 Jul 2026

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    “Who are you talking to?” Sveta is looking with a raised eyebrow, at Ilya’s delighted face.

    “Ah, I am talking to my catfish.”

    “What do you mean, your catfish?” Ilya angles the phone so Sveta can see the shirtless picture on the screen.

    “This guy is pretending to be Shane Hollander on Grindr. It’s pretty funny. He’s cropped the face out, but he’s using pictures from the billboard next to my apartment.”

    Or: Ilya Rozanov is sure he's being catfished- why would the real Shane Hollander be on Grindr, talking to random university of Ottawa students? But the more he talks to Wayne, the more he starts to like him, and the more he wishes Wayne would just come clean so they can finally be together.

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    26 Jun 2026