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Love is miserable, Ilya thinks. It's dirty work. It fights worse than an MLH enforcer with a drinking problem and seven missing teeth. It'll toss you about and break your bones and leave you bleeding out on the ice.
He's been in love twice, and both times he fucked it.
The first time, he hadn't even known what it was until it was gone. He had learned its shape from the hole it left behind. Hollander had gone. Poof, whoosh, like a ghost. All that was left was the man on the ice, jaw tense and eyes dead, who played like Ilya was a bug to be crushed. Ilya tried to play so dirty Hollander would throw down his gloves and then they could at least touch each other again, fist to face, but all he got was decked by a series of troglodytes in Metros jerseys.
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- Part 2 of i know how to hurt myself on you
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On the way home from dropping Sveta off at the airport, Ilya thinks about killing himself.
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21 Jun 2026
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It is December, and Scott has been out for long enough to pretend to be used to it, and things are not perfect but they’re fucking good, and Ilya Rozanov is at his apartment for dinner—has been for over an hour—and he’s still waiting so stupidly hopefully to introduce a boyfriend who very, very clearly isn’t coming.
(Or: studies on coming out, learning patience, one-sided conversations, and other absurdist waiting games.)
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20 Jun 2026
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They dance, and Ilya spins her, like they are a couple in an old movie and not two overgrown kids dirty dancing in a trashy Boston club in a random neighborhood next to a shuttered SoulCycle. He spins her again and then kisses her knuckles like he used to outside of school when they were fourteen. He would always ask for a kiss— he was one of those boys who wanted to kiss, who wanted to charm the girls and make them smile before he fucked them, like it made him special. More evolved.
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Svetlana has had enough of this day. Her and Ilya blow off some steam. Takes place during episode 4:Rose, during Ilya and Svetlana's evening out before the tuna melt sequence.
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16 Jun 2026
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Shane bears it, because there’s no other alternative.
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15 Jun 2026