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    "Okay." Ilya takes a deep breath, letting it out. He lays down, resting his head on a pillow, and lays the phone on his diaphragm after he puts it on speaker. He hums, thinking. "Do you like chai actually? Or your, uh— friend, he decides for you?"

    There's a long, long silence after that. Ilya swallows, hoping he hadn't asked the wrong thing. He went on a limb, in a way, because that's what Ilya always does. He assumes things, and butts in where he probably shouldn't and gives boys who look like they're emotionally one foot in the grave notes with his number on it. For some reason.

    "No, he doesn’t." Shane says, eventually, and all Ilya's muscles un-tense. "I do really like chai. Caramel chai, mostly, if wherever I go has it."

    "This can be arranged." Ilya says, his hands behind his head. "I am very good barista."

    Shane snorts, then. Ilya makes it his goal to get him to laugh, and he'd say he's making pretty good progress so far.

     

    Or, Shane is in a severely abusive relationship with his boyfriend, Ash. When they visit a nearby café one day, their server, Ilya, realizes something isn’t quite right between them.

    Ilya can’t help but try and do something about it.

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    21 Jul 2026

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    It seems silly to ever, ever be sad when this is his life.

    Yet, the brilliant sunlight today seems to be tinged with a gray tone he can’t blink away. A filter over his eyes, over his heart, making his limbs feel like lead. Fear, palpable and boiling in his stomach. He has everything he ever wanted, and what if- god what if he lost it?

    Thoughts of his mother, too. The beautiful, funny, brilliant woman who used to comb his messy curls and call him her little angel whenever she spoke to him. The woman who soothed his aches when he was hurt, who brushed the harsh words of his father right out of his ears with her own gentle ones.

    He gets why she left. He doesn’t blame her, not really. Sometimes, he thinks he might really understand it. Days like today, he thinks, which is a bit scary.

     

    -ilya has a bad mental health day on a babymoon trip to the cottage with shane and their daughter. his family is there for him-

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    19 Jul 2026

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    "Hi, solnyshko.”
    The Russian pet name set a firework off inside Shane's mind as he heard it cooed from behind him. The intonation was just as he remembered, but the voice was much deeper.

    He turned and felt himself short circuit. It took every ounce of willpower to not let his jaw drop cartoonishly to the floor. Shane would recognize his individual features anywhere, even after 5 years. But it was as if someone had snapped their fingers and the smug, silly Russian boy who had been attached to Shane's hip for 3 summers was transformed into some sort of fucking Adonis right before his eyes.

    “Ilya-” was all Shane managed before strong arms were wrapped around his waist and lifting him off the ground in a greeting all too familiar from years ago.

     

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    When Shane Hollander & Ilya Rozanov spent their summers as teens in an elite hockey camp, they quickly became inseparable friends. But they lose touch when Shane moves on as a prospect for the NHL and Ilya for the KHL.

    Years later, Montreal makes a bold move to take the hottest player in the KHL. After hearing of the Russian's reputation, the Montreal Captain is tasked with keeping his old best friend and new teammate out of trouble.

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    19 Jul 2026

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    What starts as a post-loss ritual spirals into an all-consuming sickness that Shane was sure he had buried with his 17 year old self. Shane nonetheless believes that he can hide his ugly secret from the world- until Ilya uncovers all of the instabilities that even Shane himself would rather run from.

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    Shane's anorexia relapses during his fifth season with the Metros, and Ilya is determined to help him (and not only because he's maybe in love with him).

    TW: Eating Disorders and explicit mentions of calories, weight, restrictive eating, relapses, and more. Please do not read this if you are not in a stable enough state to do so. Recovery is possible and necessary. Stay safe <3

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    18 Jul 2026

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    Freshly retired, Shane Hollander thinks the hard part is over. No more roaring crowds. No more ice. Just real life, and the one thing he’s wanted for years: a family. He and his husband are past “someday.” It’s supposed to be now. Shane does everything right. Vitamins. Timing. Patience. Hope. And still the tests come back negative, each one taking a little more out of him. So Shane finds the best fertility doctor in Canada, the one who specializes in athletes, and shows up alone anyway.

    Paper gown. Bare knees. A heartbeat he can’t quite steady. He tells himself it’s just an appointment. Then the door opens, and he comes face to face with Doctor Rozanov.

    And Shane’s world tilts off its axis.

    If Doctor Rozanov can help give Shane the baby he’s been wanting, what happens when Ilya starts offering everything else Shane didn’t know he was starving for?

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    18 Jul 2026