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    Heliotrope by

    Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga)  

    28 Nov 2025

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    “Sorry, Yoshiki,” Hikaru groans as tears come out of one eye and more of him comes out of the other. “Ughh, I don’t – ”

    Yoshiki can see how hard he’s trying to calm himself down, but it just isn’t working.

    “It’s ok,” Yoshiki says, quiet. “It’s ok. Instead of shovin’ it back inside completely, can you try just...lettin’ it out? Just a little bit?”

    He has no clue how any of this works, but maybe a half-measure is better than trying to force it all at once.

    “Okay,” Hikaru says, but it sounds like a sob. More of the unknowable, incomprehensible swirl leaks out into the dark room.

    “Yoshiki – shit – ‘m sorry but can I…” Hikaru’s face – what’s visible behind the bloom of him – twists in a small kind of agony. “Can I touch you? Not much. Just – ”

    It's been years since Hikaru first took the body of Yoshiki's dead best friend. Despite everything - every horror and hurt - they managed to find a home in each other. Not quite friends or family. More and not. What they have is complicated, but precious.

    But when Yoshiki escapes their small town – to college, to Tokyo – Hikaru follows. And things start to change for them both.

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    15 Jul 2026

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    The heliotrope flower symbolizes devotion, eternal love, and loyalty. Its name comes from the Greek helios (sun) and tropos (turn), honoring its natural habit of tracking the sun across the sky.

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    announcing your place in the family of things by

    Fandoms: Haikyuu!!  

    19 May 2022

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    For Atsumu, sadness always starts in the wrist.

    Or, the pitfalls of mistaking your teammate for terra incognita.

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    11 May 2026

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    love love love love love forever one billion kudos one billion re reads fic that wraps me in a warm hug during the horrifying ordeal of being in my 20s.