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    Shane and Ilya once knew each other in what feels like another life. Years later, Shane has transitioned, buried his past and finally embraced his truest self. He comes to McGill to play on the men’s hockey team—only to find his roommate is Ilya Rozanov.

    “Sorry—um.” Shane swallowed. “I’m Shane.”

    Something passed across Ilya’s face, quick and unreadable. Shane’s pulse spiked, thudding loud in his ears. Did he know? If Ilya recognized him—if something clicked—what would stop him from telling the coaches? What would stop him from telling everyone?
    Then Ilya smoothed it away, the moment gone as if it had never existed.

    “Huh,” he said. “Funny. I used to know a Shane. Pretty girl. Good at hockey.”

    Shane’s eyes widened. His mouth went dry. Was Ilya fucking with him?

    “Oh—um. I—”

    “Relax,” Ilya cut in, lips curling into something almost amused, almost sharp. “You are very pretty, too.”

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    04 Mar 2026

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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    27 Feb 2026

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    Shane's first mistake was going to talk to Ilya Rozanov before their game. His second was immediately, stupidly, meeting the eyes of Rozanov’s very much dead mother hovering at his side.

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    27 Feb 2026

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    Hindsight often brought things into perspective. Shane believed that if he were ever handed the keys to a time machine, he wouldn’t change anything about his life. But now that he was metaphorically sitting in the driver’s seat, keys in the ignition, he realized that was a fucking lie.

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov find themselves back in 2017.

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    26 Feb 2026

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    “Papa?”

    “Yes, solnyshko?”

    “Can I tell you something and you promise not to tell Dad?”
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    or, ilya reminds their son that genetics don't make a family, love does. and his dads love him very much.

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    20 Feb 2026