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    Ilya doesn’t even realize when Arthur slips from his thoughts. There’s no sharp turn, no clear moment where the article stops being about a little boy who loves reptiles and starts being about the man lying beside him in bed. It just… happens. The way his mind always seems to find Shane eventually, like water finding its lowest point.

    a character study on shane’s undiagnosed autism

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    18 Mar 2026

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    Beautiful

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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    12 Mar 2026

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    "Oh, моя любовь," Ilya murmurs, putting his heart on the table, "I would have walked away from hockey years ago for you, if you had only let me."

    “and now they have the rest of their lives to make it to the summit.“

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    The mortal man was still frozen, his chest rising and falling too fast, his dark eyes flicking between the boy and Ilya like he couldn’t decide what to do first. The bond between them, father and son, was a taut, golden thread, fraying at the edges with panic.  

    Ilya tilted his head slightly, watching. Waiting.  

    The boy, oblivious to the tension, tugged at Ilya’s cloak again. “You’re tall,” he informed him, matter-of-fact. “Like a tree.”

    Ilya stared.  

    Then, against his will, he huffed; a soft, startled sound that might have been a laugh, if he remembered how to do such things properly.  

    Da,” he agreed, solemn. “Like tree.”

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    Shane Hollander loses track of his son. He finds him with a god, because of course he does.

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    09 Mar 2026

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    Ilya’s gaze softened as it settled on him. “Strength is not only good for fighting,” he said. “Sometimes is good for standing still.”

    A lineage not of blood, but of care.

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    After a mix-up leaves Hayden with the wrong phone for three days, he ends up learning more about Ilya Rozanov and his secret girlfriend, Jane.

    Another Hayden-Finds-Out, because we can't have too many.

    *now with the extra continuing Hayden-Rozanov friendship text threads*

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    21 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander disappears from the NHL at twenty with a career-ending “injury.”

    Four years later, he’s the new assistant coach for the Ottawa Centaurs when Ilya Rozanov signs with the team. His former rival. His secret hookup. The father of his daughter.
    Ilya doesn’t know Lily exists and Shane plans to keep it that way.

    But three-year-olds don’t keep secrets, and neither do pale blue eyes.

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    11 Feb 2026

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    This fic ruined me.