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    “Hey,” Shane said quickly, breathless. “It’s me.”

    “...Hello, Hollander.” Rozanov’s voice was deep and solemn.

    “Are you okay?”

    A short laugh echoed down the phone. “What do you think?”

    Shane cringed at himself. “Right, sorry. Stupid question.”

    “Is fine.” Rozanov sighed. “I am okay, I suppose… I do not know.”

    “I’m… I’m sorry.”

    “Why? You are not the one who sold story.”

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    The coach's son from Ilya's youth sells his story, and Ilya is left to pick up the pieces. Hollander helps more than he could have ever expected.

     

    set early 2016, pre-tuna melt

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    18 Mar 2026

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    Stepping off of the plane, Ilya was still surprised that he made it here. His father was never fond of North American hockey leagues, but Ilya was determined to play junior hockey in Canada.

    He spotted his billet family - Yuna and David Hollander, who he would be living with for the next eight months, along with Shane Hollander, his new teammate.

    He knew of the famous active OHL players, and Shane Hollander was certainly one of them, but Ilya wasn’t prepared for freckles and beautiful eyes.

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    17 Mar 2026

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    This is the real, honest truth of it: Shane has spent years navigating his own personal rules about touch, putting up barriers out of necessity, only for Ilya Rozanov to knock them down with ease. No one has ever touched Shane like he has. Shane has never wanted anyone to. But Ilya Rozanov—Shane wants him, in a way that’s new and terrifying. They’ve been as close as two people can possibly be, and still Shane wants more.

     
    or, Shane Hollander has a carefully controlled relationship with touch. Ilya Rozanov changes that.

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    11 Mar 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov never goes to the cottage.

    He goes home to Russia instead—and disappears from Shane Hollander’s life without a word.

    Years later, the news reaches him anyway: the Hollander family is gone, Shane’s career is over, and the boy who once lived and breathed hockey is learning how to exist in a body that no longer moves the way it used to.

    Ilya returns for a funeral he was never invited to, carrying years of silence, regret, and a love he never stopped feeling.

    Some wounds don’t close.

    Some love arrives too late to save anything—but still refuses to die.

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    08 Mar 2026

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    Hollander narrowed his eyes. “Are you… jealous?” he asked suspiciously.

    Ilya scoffed. “You can fuck whoever you want, I don’t give a shit.”

    “...Right.” Hollander pulled on his boxers before he dropped the towel. “Because it’s not like you don’t fuck other people too, you know.”

    “I know.”

    “And it’s not that you- you aren’t enough, or whatever.” Hollander turned even more red, looking down. “But, like, we don’t get to see each other that often.”

    “I know.”

    “And, you know, it turns out you can have a lot of anonymous sex if you’re gay. People are surprisingly okay with it.” He said it earnestly, like he was the first person in the world to make this discovery.

    Ilya forced himself to swallow, keeping his face carefully blank. “Is that so?”

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    OR: Shane downloads Grindr. Ilya goes into a jealous spiral
    set pre-tuna melt, 2015ish

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    01 Mar 2026