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1. I Was ALWAYS Him by vividaway

   Fandoms: Phandom/The Fantastic Foursome (Video Blogging RPF)  

   • Mature
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • M/M
   • Work in Progress

   16 Mar 2026

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Dan Howell/Phil Lester
   • Danielle "Dan" Howell
   • Dan Howell
   • Phil Lester
   • FTM
   • female to male
   • Trans
   • Trans!Dan Howell
   • Transphobia
   • Homophobia
   • Accepting Phil Lester
   • Phil Lester Means Well
   • Dan Howell - Freeform
   • Phil Lester - Freeform
   • Domestic Dan Howell/Phil Lester
   • Angst with a Happy Ending
   • Angst
   • Mature For Language And Slurs
   • Slurs
   • Body Dysphoria
   • Confessions
   • Crying
   • Mild Hurt/Comfort
   • Emotional Hurt
   • Alternate Universe - Gender Changes
   • alternative universe
   • Friendship
   • I'm Sorry
   • Idiots in Love
   • Mental Health Issues
   • Depression
   • LGBTQ Themes
   • POV Male Character
   • triggering topics
   • trigger warning
   • Not Beta Read

   Summary

   Dani Howell has spent twenty four years almost fitting. She is close enough to be seen,
   but never close enough to be real. There is a version of her the internet loves, and there is a version of herself that can't stand her own reflection. His own reflection.

   It started quietly, and now, it's a life that begins to feel stolen.

   Language:

   English

   Words:

   5,203

   Chapters:

   4/37

   Comments:

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