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  1. Public Bookmark 98

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    “You won’t try to kill yourself again. Even if your mind screams at you, you won’t be able to. Your body won’t cooperate. You won’t be able to hurt yourself or purposely let others hurt you. You won’t die as long as you desire death or unless I personally let you."

    Dazai’s breath hitched, and his eyes widened in disbelief. “No, you can’t—”

    Then he felt it—something like a subtle shift somewhere inside him. He couldn’t pinpoint where the sensation started or ended, but it was there. And just as quickly as it happened, it went away, as if it had already sealed itself in him, became a part of him.

    “What did you just do to me?” he asked, the words barely making it past his throat, more accusation than question.

    “Saved you. You’ll probably hate me for it, but that’s what it was.”

     

    or, Vampire!Chuuya finds Dazai on the verge of death, and uses mind compulsion to make him unable to try to end his life ever again. After that, he disappears, leaving Dazai alone for two years of nothing but hatred and resentment toward the vampire who violated his will and trapped him in the pathetic existence people call life. Until, when Chuuya’s the one in need of help, their paths cross again.

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    16 Mar 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 36

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    “So…” Dazai’s voice cut through his thoughts. “Tell me I didn’t throw two thousand yen in the trash.”

    Chuuya turned his head just enough to glare over his shoulder. “You could’ve, I don’t know, spent a little more and bought a proper binder? Wouldn’t that have made more sense?”

    “Wow. I go out of my way to help you, and this is the gratitude I get?” He dramatically pressed a hand to his chest. “Tragic. Unbelievable.”
    ...
    “They didn’t sell binders for dwarfs,” Dazai added with a smirk.

    Or a short fic about Chuuya dealing with transphobic people, coming out to his parents (not bad) and realizing he likes Dazai and Dazai likes him. 🌈Happy Pride Month.

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    20 Feb 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 25

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    Welcome to the chaos of Yokohama’s newest dating show. Ten contestants, three weeks, and zero chill. From awkward challenges to stolen glances, nothing is predictable, and everything is ridiculous. Let the games begin.

    A bsd dating show AU that no one asked for!

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    14 Feb 2026

  4. Public Bookmark *

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    “Four months from now will be the seven year anniversary of when you and Osamu Dazai released your hugely successful first and only album Double Black and its diamond single Corruption. After performing with Dazai earlier this year, are you planning anything special to celebrate?”

    “Corruption is insanely overrated, and I would prefer to never hear Dazai’s voice for the rest of my fucking life.”

    gorgeous art by @Letnia919 and liz

     

    [Russian Translation]
    [Vietnamese Translation-Facebook]
    [Vietnamese Translation-Wordpress]

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    03 Feb 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 6

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    “Today’s the day!” — “Today’s the day.”

     

    “I want to hold you and provide the warmth that you had lost that dreary day.”

    Chuuya has contracted a fatal illness; Dazai doesn’t have the guts to confess his feelings.

    Neither have time.

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    30 Jan 2026