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    Rozanov pins Shane down, fucks into him like he almost hates him, gets a hand around his cock, rough and deliberate, and says it low against his ear—go ahead, try it. Say her name one more time, I fucking dare you—and Shane opens his mouth and sobs into the pillow and nothing else comes out. Just tears and the blood under his nails from Rozanov's back. Then he finds the angle he's been finding since Nashville, and the name is gone entirely.

    That's also, more or less, the point.

    Shane hates him for that. He hates him the way you hate something that keeps being right about you.

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    Or: Shane spends nine years building a structure so airtight it functions as a personality, and Ilya Rozanov spends nine years being the single thing that doesn't fit inside it.

    Featuring crazy situationship sex, the complications of sometimes being a terrible person, and one unhinged fixation on Svetlana Vetrova, 31 photos deep, that was never about Svetlana Vetrova.

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    01 Jul 2026

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    Canadian Prime Minister Stephen Harper called it an international emergency in his address to the Canadian public. Russian Prime Minister Vladimir Putin claimed Russia was devoting every resource to it. The endless loops of crawling chyrons titled it Hockey Held Hostage. Eventually, Wikipedia settled on ‘The Sochi Affair’:

    The Sochi Affair (Russian: Сочинское дело; French: affaire Sotchi) was a multinational hostage and extortion crisis that began on Thursday, February 20, 2014, when Olympic ice hockey players, Shane Hollander of Canada and Ilya Rozanov of Russia, were abducted from the Iceberg Skating Palace during the Sochi Winter Olympics and held hostage in southwestern Kazakhstan for 3 months, 19 days.

    The world was captivated when Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander went missing, but no one will ever know what they found in the face of survival.

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    30 Jun 2026

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    When Public Health Canada approaches Shane about being the face of a sexual health campaign targeted at queer men, Shane’s old fears bubble to the surface. He never wanted to be known as a gay activist but he is sick of feeling like he is letting his new-found community down as he tries to focus on his first season as an Ottawa Centaur. A new friendship with a PWHL star and the unswerving adoration of his husband Ilya help him navigate questions of guilt, identity and what we owe each other, all while he tries to win another damn cup.

    Part of a series but can be read alone.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander learns there are both pros and cons to accidentally adopting a kitten with your situationship.

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    29 Jun 2026

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    The nights were already cold and Berlin's streets were poorly lit, but Shane didn't mind. Berlin wasn't a pretty city; apartment blocks repeated themselves in washed-out mustard tones, aseptic blues and greens, off-putting reds. The windows of the newer buildings were so small he wondered if those rooms even got any light.

    Now that he thought about it, he could barely remember Hannover's architecture. He'd never paid attention. Hannover simply was.

    How many things in his life simply 'were'? When was the last time something had demanded his full attention?

    Or: Shane and Ilya meet in an erotic massage parlor in Berlin in 2012. They're both sex workers.

    Or: an exploration of desire as a world-building force.

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    29 Jun 2026