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    Ilya Rozanov is many things—a pain in Shane Hollander’s ass, hockey’s biggest playboy, a better chirper in his second language than most people are in their first, the only player who can challenge Shane for the title of “best of his generation.” But when Shane and Ilya get stuck next to each other on a long-delayed flight to the MLH Awards, Shane realizes something else about him: Ilya Rozanov is hot.

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    Shane and Ilya never hooked up at the CCM shoot. Seven years later, they end up on the same flight from New York City to Las Vegas.

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    06 Aug 2026

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    “Sometimes in Juniors, I’d think about my teammates in a circle and me on my knees in the center. They’d all be jerking off, and I wouldn’t be allowed to touch myself until every one of them came on me.”

    Shane Hollander has spent a lifetime swallowing down every single desire. Ilya Rozanov finds his pleasure in making him speak.

    featuring: couch conversations about gay awakenings, ex-girlfriends, and sexual fantasies (and now, nearly 10k of locker room roleplay with the meanest Ilya I’ve ever written)

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    03 Aug 2026

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    “The ache for home lives in all of us. The safe place where we can go as we are and not be questioned.”
    ― Maya Angelou

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    03 Aug 2026

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    Four months post Sochi, four months of being ghosted by Ilya Rozanov, the Metros are bought by Petrov 7, a multi-national corporation headed up by Mikhail Petrov, an openly out billionaire who has plans to transform the MLH, starting with the Metros.

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    31 Jul 2026

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    It’s like they’re in a fucked up game of relationship chicken now, increasingly doing things together that Shane can’t describe as anything other than domestic and romantic and boyfriend-like. They text constantly, detailing their days and sharing everything from complaints about teammates to jokes about other players in the league to the kind of quiet worries about family that don’t need to be responded to, just heard by another person.

    Or maybe it’s like Schroedinger’s cat. As long as Shane doesn’t ask, doesn’t speak out loud, he can have this. It can exist, and it cannot exist at the same time as long as Shane doesn’t press too hard. Doesn’t want too much.

    It feels increasingly like agony now that he’s realized that he loves Ilya.

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    Tunameltdown AU where Ilya makes him tuna melts and says his name and Shane doesn’t freak out and run away. Well, he does freak out, but he also stays. Or the one where Shane doesn’t realize that Ilya’s his boyfriend for a solid three months.

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    30 Jul 2026