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It happened accidentally.
Not with intention. Not with a conversation or an agreement or a redefinition of boundaries. If Dana had been asked, if anyone had bothered to ask, she would have said nothing had changed at all.
She was still careful. Still guarded. Still disciplined.
But she stopped bracing.
The difference was subtle enough that it slipped past her at first, registering only as absence. The absence of tension. The absence of that reflexive tightening between her shoulders, that small internal flinch she had trained herself not to acknowledge.
She still arrived early to class. Still chose the front row. Still aligned her notebook parallel to the desk edge, pen placed exactly where her hand would fall without looking. The ritual remained intact.
But when Fox slid into the seat beside her, on time now, consistently so, her body did not react the way it used to.
No tightening.
No silent recalculation.
No mental note to stay alert.
Her shoulders stayed where they were.
She noticed that.
The awareness landed a half-second late, like an echo.
She told herself it meant nothing.
Fox noticed everything.
“You’re not scowling today,” he murmured as he set his notebook down, voice pitched low enough to be private.
Dana didn’t look at him. Her eyes stayed on the board, on the familiar comfort of white chalk against green slate. “I don’t scowl.”
“You absolutely scowl.”
She glanced sideways, just enough to fix him with a look. “You’re projecting.”
Fox smiled, clearly delighted, not triumphant, not teasing. Just pleased. “See? Softer.”
She rolled her eyes, but there was no heat behind it. “You’re impossible.”
“And yet,” he said lightly, settling back in his chair, “here I am. Still alive.”
She snorted before she could stop herself.
The sound startled her more than it did him.
It cut through the quiet of the lecture hall, small and unmistakable. Dana froze, pen hovering above the page, irritation flaring too late to mask the fact that she had laughed.
Fox didn’t comment on it.
Didn’t widen his smile.
Didn’t look at her.
Didn’t file it away as leverage.
He simply leaned back, eyes forward, posture loose but attentive, as if the moment had happened exactly as it was meant to.
That unsettled her.
After class, he walked with her.
Not announced. Not assumed. There was no mind if I or do you mind if. He just matched her pace as she gathered her bag and headed for the exit, falling into step beside her with an ease that suggested coincidence rather than intent.
Dana noticed the rhythm of it. The way his stride adjusted to hers without effort. The way he didn’t crowd her, didn’t lag, didn’t force conversation.
“You’re going to the library,” he said as they reached the doors.
Dana stopped short.
The sudden halt sent a small ripple through the stream of students behind them, annoyed murmurs brushing past her awareness.
She turned. “How do you know that?”
“You do every Tuesday,” Fox replied, unbothered. “Unless it’s raining.”
She frowned. “It’s not raining.”
“Then the library.”
Something about the certainty in his tone irritated her more than if he’d been guessing. “You’re very observant.”
“Hazard of paying attention.”
They walked in silence until they arrived at the steps of the library. She should have peeled off then. Should have created distance, said something clipped and definitive, reminded him, reminded herself, that patterns were not invitations.
Instead, she adjusted the strap of her bag, fingers tightening unnecessarily. “This is where you stop following me.”
Fox blinked.
“Oh,” he said. “Okay.”
He didn’t sound offended.
Just disappointed.
The words lodged in her chest before she could dislodge it.
She felt something shift, subtle and unwelcome, like the floor tilting a fraction of a degree.
“I mean,” she added, too quickly, the correction escaping before she’d fully decided on it, “unless you were already going in.”
Fox studied her for half a second.
Not long enough to be uncomfortable. Long enough to register the recalculation behind his eyes.
Then he smiled. Not wide. Not smug. Just… warm.
“I could be persuaded.”
She sighed, a controlled release of breath that failed to conceal her irritation. “Fine. But you’re not talking.”
“Cruel,” he said mildly, and followed her inside.
The library was quiet and settled around them like a held breath.
The air was cooler here, faintly dusty, carrying the smell of old paper and polished wood. Dana felt her shoulders drop another fraction as she took her usual seat, the one near the window where the light was even and the traffic minimal.
Fox took the chair beside it without comment.
Close enough to be companionable.
Not close enough to provoke.
She noticed that too.
They worked in silence, the kind that didn’t itch or demand explanation. The soft scratch of pen on paper. The occasional rustle of pages. Somewhere in the stacks, a cart rattled faintly.
Dana lost track of time.
Fox lasted twenty minutes.
“You alphabetise your notes,” he whispered, voice barely disturbing the quiet.
She didn’t look up. “And?”
“And I find that deeply intimidating.”
She shook her head, lips betraying her despite herself. “You’re not funny.”
“I’m hilarious,” Fox whispered. “You’re just immune.”
They returned to silence after that, but it was easier now. Looser. The kind of quiet that allowed for shared space rather than enforced solitude.
When they finally packed up, the light outside the window had shifted. Late afternoon slipping toward evening, shadows lengthening across the quad.
Dana checked her watch and frowned.
It was later than she’d intended.
The realisation should have irritated her.
Instead, it left her with a strange, unsettled awareness of time passing without friction, of company that did not feel like a distraction.
She didn’t comment on it.
Neither did Fox.
But as they stood and gathered their things, something unspoken settled between them, light and tentative.
Not an agreement.
Not a boundary crossed.
Just the quiet understanding that something had begun moving, slowly, deliberately, in a direction neither of them had named yet.
Coffee happened the same way everything else did.
Accidentally.
It slipped into place without announcement, without decision, without the kind of internal debate Dana usually subjected herself to before doing anything that might complicate her carefully maintained equilibrium.
Fox stopped near the café counter as if the idea had just occurred to him.
“You drink coffee?” he asked, glancing at the chalkboard menu with exaggerated seriousness.
“Yes.”
“Black?”
She arched a brow. “I’m not a masochist.”
Fox laughed, warm and unguarded, the sound carrying just enough to turn a few heads. “Good. Neither am I.”
She should have said no.
She knew the script. No, thank you. I have work. Another time. She could feel the familiar impulse to disengage rising, neat and disciplined and safe.
Instead, she stood beside him.
The café smelled like burnt sugar and steam and something vaguely nutty that claimed to be espresso. The floor was sticky near the counter. Someone’s music bled tinny through cheap speakers overhead. Fox leaned his forearms on the counter and argued politely with the barista about whether burnt beans counted as flavour or negligence.
Dana watched him from the corner of her eye.
He wasn’t performing now. There was no audience to win over, no laugh to land just right. He spoke with easy courtesy, his tone mild, his humour restrained. The barista rolled her eyes but smiled anyway.
Fox paid. Dana opened her mouth to protest.
He shot her a look. “Don’t.”
She closed it again, irritated by how easily he anticipated her.
Outside, the air was cooler. Evening had crept in while she wasn’t paying attention, the sky dimming to a bruised blue, campus lights flickering on one by one like a slow constellation. Their breath fogged faintly as they stepped away from the café doors.
Walking happened next.
Not planned. Not suggested. They just moved, cups warm in their hands, paths winding beneath bare trees whose branches clawed softly at the sky. Leaves crunched underfoot. Somewhere nearby, a radio played too loudly from an open dorm window. Laughter spilled out and then faded again.
They didn’t talk much at first.
The silence felt different here, less controlled than the library, less charged than the lab. It stretched comfortably, like something shared rather than imposed. Dana found herself aware of small, unfamiliar things: the way Fox adjusted his pace to match hers without comment, the way he kept his hands occupied so he wouldn’t gesture too much, the way he didn’t look at her constantly, only occasionally, as if checking in.
Eventually, without quite deciding to, they ended up on the cold stone steps outside her dorm.
The stone leached chill through her coat. Steam curled from their cups, dissipating quickly in the air. Their shoulders were close enough to register warmth, not close enough to demand interpretation.
“So,” Fox said, breaking the quiet, kicking his heel lightly against the step below them. “Friends?”
Dana frowned, the word landing with more weight than it had any right to. “That’s not how this works.”
“How does it work?”
“You don’t just announce friendship,” she said. “It’s not… procedural.”
Fox considered this with mock gravity. “Okay. Then I’m requesting friendship.”
She laughed before she could stop herself. “You’re unbelievable.”
“Strictly platonic,” he added quickly, holding up a hand. “Minimal emotional risk. High return on sarcasm.”
She turned her head to look at him fully. “You flirt too much.”
Fox smiled, unapologetic. “I flirt strategically.”
“Stop.”
“With you?” he asked. “Or in general?”
“With me.”
He didn’t argue. Didn’t deflect. Didn’t tease her for it.
He nodded once. “Okay.”
The simplicity of the answer unsettled her more than any joke would have. She felt the reflexive need to push back, to reassert distance, to clarify terms.
Instead, she said nothing.
They sat there for a while, watching people drift in and out of the dorm, friends calling to each other, doors opening and closing, the night settling into its quieter rhythms. Dana became aware of the steady hum of the building behind her, the faint vibration of life continuing uninterrupted.
She realised, distantly, unwillingly, that she was enjoying herself.
Not the way she enjoyed a well-organised argument or a solved problem. This was different. Softer. Less defined.
That frightened her more than attraction ever had.
Over the next few weeks, the pattern settled with a kind of quiet insistence.
Coffee after class.
Walks that took longer than necessary.
Sitting together without needing to fill the space.
Nothing dramatic marked the transition. No conversation named it. It simply became the shape of her days.
Fox still flirted, because Fox, but it changed. The teasing softened into something responsive, something that waited. He learned the timing of her reactions, the moments when she was receptive and the moments when she was not, and he adjusted accordingly.
“You’re smiling,” he’d say, glancing sideways.
“I’m not.”
“You are.”
“Stop looking at me.”
“Impossible.”
She rolled her eyes.
She laughed anyway.
The laughter surprised her every time, how easily it came, how little it cost her. She found herself lingering instead of leaving, finishing her coffee instead of abandoning it half-full, walking just a little slower than she needed to.
And for the first time since she’d met him, Dana Scully stopped trying to categorise Fox Mulder.
She stopped slotting him into columns: privileged, careless, temporary. Stopped testing each interaction for proof of a theory she’d already decided on.
She simply let him be there.
And Fox, who had spent years perfecting the art of being easy to dismiss, of making sure people never looked too closely, began to realise that Dana Scully was not merely tolerating him.
She was choosing him.
He didn’t say that out loud.
Not yet.
But he felt it in the way she waited.
In the way she listened.
In the way, she didn’t leave.
And somewhere between the accident of coffee and the inevitability of habit, something solid and dangerous took shape, quiet, unannounced, and already impossible to undo.
Friendship, Dana learned, did not announce itself.
It arrived sideways.
It slipped in through habits and shared silences, through moments that did not demand attention but accumulated it anyway. It showed up in the way Fox stopped asking questions designed to provoke and started asking ones meant to understand: quietly, carefully, like he was testing the weight of each word before letting it land. In the way he learned which of her silences were deliberate, inviolate things, and which could be nudged open gently, like doors that stuck only because no one had ever bothered to try the handle.
It showed up in routine.
Coffee after class became expected, not scheduled, not discussed, just assumed. Dana would pack her notebook with the same decisive motions, and Fox would already be there by the time she reached the café, leaning against the counter as if he’d always been meant to occupy that exact square of space. He learned which place brewed the strongest cup without scorching the beans, which barista didn’t water it down, which mornings required caffeine before conversation and which afternoons he ran on restless energy alone.
Dana learned his rhythms, too, though she refused to name them that way. She learned the days his jokes came faster, sharper, like a shield polished for use. She learned the days he was quieter, eyes tracking the world rather than engaging it, and how those were the days he listened best.
They sat across from each other more often than beside each other now. It was a subtle shift, but she felt it immediately. Across meant eye contact was easier to avoid and harder to escape. It meant the line of sight was always there, waiting, a tension she pretended not to notice as she read or annotated or sipped her coffee too slowly.
Fox still flirted.
But it changed.
The flirting softened into something quieter, more deliberate. Less like a challenge thrown across space and more like an offering set gently on the table to see if she’d pick it up.
“You know,” he said one afternoon, watching her over the rim of his mug, eyes intent in a way that made her skin prickle, “if I didn’t know better, I’d think you actually enjoy my company.”
Dana didn’t look up. She underlined a sentence with more pressure than necessary. “You don’t know better.”
“I’m learning,” Fox replied easily.
She turned a page, the paper whispering in the café’s low hum. “Slowly.”
He smiled, not wide, not smug, just warm. “You noticed.”
She had.
The awareness settled uncomfortably in her chest.
They walked together too, back across campus, around it, sometimes without purpose at all. Dana discovered that Fox had an instinctive sense of pace. He matched hers without thinking, never rushed her, never lagged behind. When she slowed to think, to catalogue something she’d just remembered or reconsidered, he slowed with her. When she stopped outright, he stopped too, as if movement itself were a shared decision.
That felt dangerous.
The steps outside her dorm became a habit. Cold stone leaching through denim. Shared coffee cooling between their hands. The low murmur of passing conversations that never quite touched them, as if the world bent slightly around the space they occupied together.
Fox talked more there.
Not about anything important at first. Stories about baseball trips gone wrong, about buses that broke down in the middle of nowhere, about teammates who took themselves too seriously. About professors who lectured like they were auditioning for immortality. About dorm food that defied basic chemistry and all known laws of taste.
Dana listened. Occasionally corrected him.
He took it well.
“Actually,” she said once, dry, “that’s not how probability works.”
Fox grinned. “I like it better my way.”
“That doesn’t make it correct.”
“True,” he said. “But it makes it entertaining.”
She shook her head, but there was no bite behind it.
“You’re smiling again,” Fox said one night, the lamplight catching the edges of his face, softening it.
She frowned automatically. “I’m not.”
“You are,” he insisted gently. “Right there.”
He lifted his hand and tapped the air near her mouth, careful, always careful, not to touch her.
The absence of contact made her acutely aware of the space between them.
She rolled her eyes. “You’re imagining things.”
“Possibly,” Fox said. “But I’m very good at pattern recognition.”
She huffed a laugh before she could stop herself, the sound escaping too easily, too honestly.
Fox’s smile softened, not triumphant, not teasing. Just pleased. Quietly, unmistakably pleased.
That, more than the flirting, unsettled her.
Because it wasn’t about winning.
It wasn’t about proving anything or pushing boundaries for the sake of it.
It was about proximity.
About the way he leaned just close enough that she could feel the warmth of him without feeling crowded. About the way his gaze lingered a beat longer than necessary and then withdrew, giving her space to breathe, to choose. About the way her awareness of him sharpened not into alarm but into something warmer, heavier, threaded with a tension she refused to name.
Dana told herself this was friendship.
She told herself the heat that curled low in her stomach when he smiled at her like that was incidental. A trick of circumstance. A reaction she could catalogue and dismiss later.
But as she sat there on the cold stone steps, shoulder brushing his when neither of them moved away, she felt the quiet recalibration happening inside her, the sense that something had shifted from optional to inevitable.
And that frightened her.
Because inevitability did not care about discipline.
And Fox Mulder, with his careful distance and infuriating patience, was becoming something she could no longer pretend was harmless.
Over time, Fox stopped performing even in the smallest ways when they were alone.
It wasn’t sudden. There was no clear moment where the persona dropped away. It thinned instead, worn down by repetition and proximity, by the simple fact that there was no one to impress in the quiet spaces they now shared. The jokes came less often. The restless energy that once seemed to propel him through rooms settled into something contained, inward-facing. He moved like someone conserving energy instead of dispersing it: measured, deliberate, aware of his own edges.
Dana noticed the stillness first.
She noticed it in the way he listened now, head tilted slightly, eyes intent without being invasive. In the way, he stopped filling silences with noise and let it exist as its own thing. In the way he grew thoughtful rather than performative, as if thinking had become something private again instead of an act.
One evening, as they walked back from the library, the air had turned sharply cold. The kind that slipped under collars and made breath visible, that sharpened the edges of everything it touched. Leaves scraped along the path, brittle and dry. The campus lights cast long, fractured shadows across the pavement.
Fox walked with his hands shoved deep into his jacket pockets, shoulders drawn inward, posture subtly closed against the chill. His gaze stayed forward, unfocused, like he was walking through a place that existed mostly in his head.
“You’re thinking,” Dana said.
It wasn’t a question.
Fox blinked, pulled back into the moment. “That obvious?”
“To me.”
The admission surprised them both.
He huffed a quiet laugh and exhaled, a cloud of breath blooming in the cold. “That might be a problem.”
She glanced at him sideways. “Why?”
“Because,” he said lightly, but not joking, “you notice things I don’t always want noticed.”
Dana slowed, then stopped altogether.
Fox stopped with her instantly, as if tethered. No hesitation. No impatience.
“That’s not an accusation,” he added quickly, sensing the shift. “It’s… an observation.”
She studied him in the lamplight. The planes of his face looked sharper in the cold, the shadows beneath his eyes more pronounced. He looked tired in a way that sleep didn’t fix, like someone who carried things with him instead of setting them down.
“You don’t have to tell me anything,” Dana said carefully.
“I know.”
“And I’m not here to fix you.”
“I know that too.”
The ease of his answers unsettled her. They came without defensiveness, without charm, without the instinct to turn the moment into something lighter. He accepted her terms as if they were self-evident, as if he had already learned where the lines were and chosen not to cross them.
Fox smiled faintly, a brief softening at the edges of his mouth. “You’re very clear about your boundaries.”
“They matter.”
“They do,” he agreed. “I like that.”
She frowned, uncomfortable with how close the words came to praise. “That sounds dangerously close to admiration.”
He didn’t deny it.
Instead, he shrugged, shoulders lifting beneath his jacket. “I admire lots of things.”
She resumed walking, boots crunching softly on the path. “That’s not reassuring.”
“It’s honest.”
That word again.
It followed them for the rest of the walk, unspoken but present, settling into Dana’s thoughts like something that refused to be dismissed. Honesty. Not as confession, not as absolution, but as a state of being: quiet, unadorned, sometimes uncomfortable.
She realised then that Fox was no longer trying to be liked by her.
He wasn’t trying to impress her or provoke her or win anything from her at all. He was simply… there. Showing up as he was in those moments, letting himself be seen without demanding interpretation or forgiveness.
That frightened her more than the charm ever had.
Because charm was easy to catalogue. Performance could be dismissed. But this, this quieter version of Fox, the one who stopped when she stopped, who accepted limits without resentment, who trusted her attention even when it exposed him, this version left marks.
Years later, she would recognise the pattern instantly.
She would hear the same careful cadence in his voice when he said You notice things, the same resigned acceptance when he acknowledged truths without trying to soften them. She would see the same way he stood under harsh lights, hands in pockets, shoulders drawn in, not defensive, exactly, but guarded in a way that spoke of long practice.
Standing across from him again, older and sharper and carrying qualifications instead of textbooks, she would remember this walk without knowing why it mattered.
Only that it did.
But here, now, Dana simply walked beside him through the cold, aware of the quiet shift taking place between them.
Fox Mulder was learning that honesty did not always cost him something.
And Dana Scully was learning that noticing, really noticing, came with its own kind of responsibility.
Dana found herself thinking about Fox when he wasn’t there.
Not in the sharp, irritated way she once had, those thoughts had been easy, abrasive, something to push against. This was different. It came in softer increments, slipping into the spaces between tasks, into moments that should have been occupied by formulas or reading lists or sleep.
She wondered if he’d eaten.
If he’d slept.
If he’d gone to practice or skipped it entirely, claiming a headache he didn’t bother to explain.
She noticed the questions forming before she could stop them, quiet and persistent, like water wearing down stone.
She did not like that.
She told herself it was curiosity, not concern. An academic habit. Pattern recognition applied too broadly.
But curiosity didn’t usually tighten her chest the way this did.
One night, sitting on the steps outside her dorm, the stone cold even through her coat, Fox leaned back on his hands and tipped his head up toward the sky. The air was sharp enough to sting her lungs, each breath visible now, fogging faintly in front of them before dissolving.
The sky was clear. Too clear. Stars scattered thin and distant, indifferent.
“You ever think about who you’re allowed to be?” Fox asked.
The question landed without preamble, his voice calm, almost casual, like he was asking about the weather.
Dana stiffened anyway.
“That’s vague,” she said.
Fox smiled faintly, eyes still on the sky. “Humour me.”
She hesitated. The sensible response would have been to deflect, to narrow the question until it fit neatly inside something manageable. Instead, she considered it despite herself, turning it over slowly, feeling its weight.
“I think about who I need to be,” she said finally.
The words felt solid. Reliable.
Fox nodded, a small movement. “Yeah. That tracks.”
She glanced at him, surprised by the lack of commentary, the absence of challenge. The quiet acceptance unsettled her.
“And you?” she asked, before she could stop herself.
The question hovered between them, fragile.
Fox was quiet for a long moment. Long enough that she wondered if she’d pushed too far, misjudged the space she’d been allowed.
“Most days?” he said at last. “I think about who, or what, people expect.”
His voice was steady, but something underneath it was strained, like a note held just a beat too long.
Dana watched him carefully now, the way his jaw tightened slightly, the way his fingers flexed against the stone as if grounding himself. “And what about what you want?”
He smiled, but it didn’t reach his eyes. The expression was familiar to her now, the practised curve that covered something else entirely.
“That’s… complicated,” he said.
Dana felt it again, that subtle internal shift, the sense of standing too close to something unstable, a fault line she hadn’t meant to approach. The ground beneath her assumptions felt thinner here.
She chose her words with care, placing them deliberately. “You don’t have to be complicated with me.”
Fox turned his head then, really looking at her. The lamplight caught in his golden-green eyes, stripping away the easy distance he usually kept.
“You say that like it’s an invitation,” he said quietly.
She met his gaze, steady, unflinching. “It’s permission.”
Something in his expression softened, not gratitude exactly, not relief as a release, but relief as recognition. Like he’d been holding a door shut and had just realised he didn’t have to brace himself so hard.
“I don’t talk about certain things,” he said.
Dana nodded once. “I figured.”
“But,” he added, voice dropping just a fraction, “if I ever did… it’d probably sound like this.”
He didn’t explain what this meant.
He didn’t need to.
Dana didn’t press. She didn’t ask for clarification or timelines or proof. She didn’t reach for solutions or reassurances. She understood restraint. Understood the gravity of confession even before it was named.
Her faith had taught her that some truths demanded witnesses, not absolution.
Her upbringing had taught her that loyalty was not loud.
So she stayed.
She stayed seated beside him on the cold stone steps. Stayed silent when silence was what the moment required. Stayed present, even as the air cooled and the night deepened around them.
Fox exhaled slowly, breath fogging in front of him. The tension in his shoulders eased by a degree she might have missed if she hadn’t been paying attention.
They didn’t touch.
They didn’t need to.
Dana realised, with a flicker of unease she did not yet have language for, that this, this staying, this choosing not to turn away, was already a form of commitment.
And Fox Mulder, who had learned to expect disappearance the moment things grew heavy, noticed that she was still there.
That she hadn’t asked him to be simpler.
That she hadn’t walked away.
Weeks passed.
Not marked by dates or milestones, but by accumulation, by repetition that softened into familiarity, by shared time that stopped feeling borrowed and started feeling earned. The friendship settled into something that surprised Dana with its durability. It held weight without demanding definition. It was sturdy enough to lean on, yet fragile enough that she handled it with care, instinctively aware that one careless move could fracture it.
Fox was still Fox.
He still flirted, but Dana learned the difference now. She could feel it in her body before she could articulate it, the way intention carried differently when it was stripped of performance.
When he said, “You look tired,” it wasn’t an opening line or an invitation to tease. It was said quietly, eyes already softening, as if he’d been noticing for a while.
When he said, “You’re important,” it wasn’t delivered with a grin or a shrug, wasn’t softened into something dismissible. He said it plainly, like a fact he’d already accepted and didn’t need to defend.
And when he said nothing at all, when he walked beside her in silence, when he sat across from her with his coffee cooling untouched, his fingers absently brushing his earlobe, turning the small gold hoop as his gaze drifted outward instead of landing anywhere specific, she learned to listen anyway.
She learned the language of his pauses.
Dana began to recognise the moments when he was holding something back, not because he didn’t trust her, but because he was measuring the cost of letting it go. She noticed the way his humour thinned when he was tired, the way his shoulders tensed before he redirected a conversation, the way he sometimes looked at her as if confirming she was still there.
She didn’t call him on it.
She didn’t need to.
In return, Fox learned her rhythms too.
He learned when her silence meant concentration and when it meant retreat. He learned the precise tone that signalled she’d had enough for the day, and the subtler one that meant she wanted him to stay but couldn’t ask. He learned the way her jaw tightened when she was overwhelmed, the way she pressed her thumb into the edge of her notebook when she needed grounding.
And, crucially, he respected it.
That was what shifted everything.
Dana realised one afternoon, sitting with him in the library as rain streaked down the windows in uneven lines, that she trusted him. Not in the abstract way, she trusted systems or protocols, but in the living, breathing way that involved vulnerability. She trusted him with her time. With her attention. With the parts of herself she usually guarded most fiercely.
The realisation startled her.
She had not meant to let that happen.
Fox noticed the moment she did, not because she said anything, but because she stilled, eyes unfocusing as if she’d just stumbled upon an unexpected truth.
“What?” he asked gently.
“Nothing,” she replied too quickly.
He didn’t push.
Instead, he smiled, not teasing, not triumphant. Just quietly there.
That recognition passed between them more often now: small, charged moments where they saw something in each other that felt unsettlingly familiar. Like standing across from a mirror you hadn’t expected to find, one that reflected not just what you were, but what you carried.
Dana began to understand that whatever Fox bore beneath the mask wasn’t carelessness.
It was weight.
The kind accumulated early and carried alone. The kind that reshaped you over time, taught you which parts of yourself were safe to show and which ones had to be protected at all costs. She saw it in the way he chose his words, in the restraint he exercised when it would have been easier to deflect, in the patience he showed her even when she pushed him away.
And she had the quiet, unsettling sense, one that lodged beneath her ribs and refused to leave, that when he finally let that weight fall, if he ever did, it would not be contained.
It would change the shape of everything between them.
Perhaps everything after.
For now, though, they stayed where they were: sitting on cold steps, walking under bare trees, sharing coffee and silence and glances that lingered just long enough to acknowledge what neither of them was ready to name.
They were recognising each other.
And in that recognition, something deep and irrevocable was taking root.
The night it happened was unremarkable.
That was the danger of it.
No dramatic weather. No thunder to break the moment open, no rain to justify staying close. Just cold air, a clear sky stretched thin and indifferent above them, and the familiar weight of stone steps beneath their bodies. The campus had settled into its late-night quiet; the kind that wasn’t silence so much as a thinning-out of sound. Footsteps came and went at long intervals. Somewhere, a door closed. Somewhere farther away, laughter flared and died.
Dana had brought her coat this time.
Fox noticed.
“You’re learning,” he said, a trace of amusement threading his voice.
She didn’t look at him. Her gaze stayed forward, on the path where lamplight spilled in pale circles. “Winter is predictable.”
“Liar,” Fox replied easily. “You brought it because I told you you’d freeze last time.”
She glanced sideways, the corner of her mouth lifting despite herself. “That doesn’t make you right.”
“It absolutely does.”
She shook her head, a quiet breath of laughter slipping out before she could stop it. The sound hung between them for a second, fragile and real, before dissolving into the cold.
They sat in silence after that, coffee cooling between their hands. The cups radiated a faint warmth that felt almost unnecessary now, their fingers already numb from the air. Dana was aware of her breath, of the rise and fall of Fox’s chest beside her, of the way their shoulders aligned without touching.
The world narrowed.
Not dramatically, just enough that everything else faded into background texture. Lamplight. Stone. Breath.
Fox shifted beside her.
Not closer.
Just… differently.
The movement was small, but Dana felt it immediately, the way she felt changes in pressure or rhythm. His posture tightened, then loosened again, like he’d thought better of something.
“You’re restless,” she said.
Fox huffed a soft laugh, more exhale than sound. “You really do see everything.”
“Not everything,” she replied. “Just patterns.”
“That’s worse.”
She turned toward him fully then, studying his profile. The lamplight caught the edge of his cheekbone and briefly, the small gold hoop at his earlobe, throwing a soft glint against the faint shadow beneath his eye. He looked tired in a way that had nothing to do with the hour.
“What’s wrong?” she asked.
He didn’t answer right away.
Fox stared straight ahead, jaw working slightly, as if he were testing words in his mouth and rejecting them one by one. His hands were wrapped tightly around his cup, fingers tense, knuckles pale. The lid creaked faintly under the pressure.
“I don’t usually do this,” he said at last.
Dana felt the shift, the unmistakable gravity of confession. It settled over them like a held breath, heavy and precise. She set her coffee down carefully at her feet, movements slow and deliberate, as if sudden motion might fracture something fragile.
“You don’t have to,” she said gently.
“I know,” Fox replied. His voice was steady, but it cost him something. “That’s not why I’m doing it.”
He glanced at her then, quick and searching, eyes flicking to her face and back again, like he was checking whether she was still there, whether she’d changed her mind.
She hadn’t.
She met his gaze and held it.
Fox exhaled slowly, the breath leaving him in a controlled stream.
“I had a sister,” he said.
Dana’s breath caught, not in surprise, but in recognition of something heavy. The weight in his voice carried its own explanation.
“Her name was Samantha,” Fox continued. “She was eight.”
He swallowed. The sound was audible in the quiet.
“I was twelve.”
Dana didn’t interrupt. She didn’t nod or offer encouragement or soften the silence with reassurance. She stayed exactly where she was, hands folded loosely in her lap, her attention complete and undivided.
“She disappeared,” Fox said. “One night. Out of our house. Just — gone.”
The word fell flat and final between them.
His voice remained steady, but something beneath it strained, like a cable pulled too tight for too long.
“They told me it was a kidnapping,” he went on. “Then they told me it was probably planned. A runaway. A misunderstanding.” His mouth twisted faintly, a reflex he didn’t quite suppress. “She was eight.”
Dana felt something cold and sharp settle in her chest.
“I was supposed to be watching her,” Fox said quietly.
The words landed with devastating simplicity.
“She wanted to play outside. I told her no. Then I told her yes.” His grip tightened on the cup again. “I went back to my room to watch TV.”
He paused.
“I fell asleep.”
Dana’s fingers curled into the fabric of her coat without her realising it.
“When I woke up,” Fox said, “she was gone.”
The night seemed to hold its breath around them.
“No one ever really believed me,” he continued. “Not about what I heard. What I saw. They said I was imagining things. That I was confused. Traumatised.”
He let out a quiet, humourless laugh. “Which is a great way to make a kid stop trusting his own mind.”
Dana’s throat tightened, the words lodging there.
“My parents…” Fox shook his head slowly. “They didn’t survive it. Not together. Not separately, really. Everything in our house became about absence. About blame.” His gaze dropped to the stone steps. “Mostly mine.”
Dana shifted closer, just enough that her shoulder nearly brushed his. She didn’t touch him, not yet, but the proximity mattered.
“That’s not true,” she said quietly.
Fox smiled, small and sad, the expression barely there. “You sound very certain.”
“I am.”
He looked at her then, really looked. The easy charm was gone. The mask she’d spent months studying lay discarded at his feet.
“I don’t talk about this,” Fox said. “Ever.”
Dana felt the weight of the words settle between them, sacred in its own way.
“I know,” she replied.
“I learned early that caring makes you vulnerable,” he went on. “That if you let people see what matters to you, they can take it. Or tell you it’s not real. Or make it your fault.”
Dana understood confession.
Not academically. Not theoretically.
She understood it as a ritual. As trust. As something that could only exist if someone stayed on the other side of it without flinching.
So she stayed.
“I figured out it was easier to be the guy who didn’t care,” Fox said. “The guy everyone underestimates. No expectations. No disappointment.”
Dana swallowed. “That’s a heavy thing to carry.”
He nodded once. “It’s lighter than grief.”
The words struck her hard, a clean blow that knocked the breath from her lungs.
Dana shifted again, closer now, her sleeve brushing his jacket. He didn’t pull away. Didn’t tense. He leaned into the contact without quite acknowledging it.
“You were a child,” she said. “What happened to your sister was not your fault.”
Fox’s breath hitched, once, sharp and involuntary.
“That’s what people say,” he murmured.
“What do you say?” Dana asked.
He didn’t answer.
She let the silence do the work instead, trusted it to hold what words couldn’t.
After a long moment, Fox exhaled shakily and leaned back, eyes fixed on the dark sky overhead.
“I don’t know why I’m telling you this,” he said.
Dana didn’t hesitate. “Because you’re tired of carrying it alone.”
He closed his eyes briefly, lashes shadowing his cheeks. “Yeah.”
They sat like that for a long time, the cold seeping through stone and fabric alike. Dana didn’t move away. Didn’t reach for him either. She knew better than to crowd something this fragile.
When Fox finally spoke again, his voice was quieter, almost uncertain.
“You don’t look at me the way everyone else does,” he said.
Dana turned her head slightly. “How do I look at you?”
“Like I’m real,” he replied. “Not a joke. Not a problem. Just… a person.”
Something ached behind her ribs, deep and insistent.
“That’s because you are,” she said.
Fox laughed softly, disbelief threading through it. “You make it sound simple.”
“It isn’t,” Dana said. “But it’s true.”
He studied her face like he was memorising it, every line, every expression, committing it to a place he could return to later.
For the first time, Fox Mulder felt seen.
And for the first time, Dana Scully understood that what she had taken for indifference had been armour, carefully constructed, meticulously maintained, and devastatingly effective.
She understood something else, too.
That once someone trusted you with the truth, you didn’t get to walk away unchanged.
They didn’t touch.
They didn’t need to.
The distance between them had already closed in every way that mattered.
The world did not rearrange itself afterwards.
That surprised Dana most.
There was no rupture. No dramatic recalibration of gravity. No sense that something irreversible had announced itself with thunder or consequence. The campus looked the same the next morning, the same brick paths damp with dew, the same indifferent sky stretched thin and pale overhead, the same students rushing toward classes with paper cups of coffee and low, habitual complaints. The lab smelled the same: antiseptic and metal and faint ozone. The lecture hall hummed with its usual low mechanical breath, fluorescent lights flickering into wakefulness.
And yet everything felt different.
Not louder. Not sharper.
Quieter.
Dana noticed it in Fox first.
He arrived on time. That part wasn’t new. What was new was the way he paused in the aisle before sitting, eyes flicking briefly toward the door as if orienting himself, not to the room, but to her. When she slid into the seat beside him, he didn’t grin. Didn’t lean back. Didn’t say something designed to loosen the moment.
He simply nodded.
“Morning,” he said.
“Morning,” she replied.
It should have felt awkward. Like the aftermath of something too intimate to be folded neatly back into routine.
It didn’t.
They listened through the lecture without whispering commentary, without the low, habitual friction that used to spark between them. Fox took notes, real ones, not the half-legible shorthand he used when he expected not to care later. Dana noticed his handwriting was smaller than she’d imagined. Tidy. Controlled. Margins respected. Headings underlined once, not twice.
That unsettled her more than it should have.
She wondered how much of him she’d never bothered to look at properly.
When class ended, they packed up together. No rush. No choreography. Just the quiet economy of shared motion, not synced, but aware.
“You okay?” Fox asked quietly as they stood, voices swallowed by the scrape of chairs and the shuffle of bodies.
Dana met his eyes. Really met them. “Are you?”
He considered that for a beat longer than strictly necessary. “I think so.”
She nodded once. “Good.”
They walked out together, not quite side by side, not quite separate. The space between them had changed, less charged, more deliberate. Not absence. Choice.
It was the kind of distance that came from knowing where the edges were and trusting them not to move.
Over the next few days, Fox didn’t flirt.
Not really.
The teasing softened into something gentler, more careful, like he was testing the weight of his words before letting them go. When humour surfaced, it did so briefly, almost shyly, and then receded again.
“You don’t have to look so worried,” he said once when she glanced at him too quickly during lab. “I’m still me.”
“I wasn’t worried,” Dana replied automatically.
Fox smiled faintly. “You were checking.”
She didn’t deny it.
That silence, her refusal to correct him, felt like its own small admission.
They studied together now without pretext. No accidental coffee. No incidental walks framed as coincidence. Just quiet hours in the library, sharing tables and silence. Fox didn’t interrupt her focus. He didn’t fill pauses for the sake of hearing himself speak. When he did talk, it was to ask something precise, thoughtful.
“Can you explain this again?” he asked one afternoon, tapping the margin of her notes. “Not the formula, the reasoning.”
She did. Slowly. Thoroughly. With care.
He listened like it mattered.
That was new too.
Dana found herself watching him in moments she hadn’t before, when he frowned at a problem, lips pressed thin in concentration; when he leaned back and closed his eyes to think, fingers drumming once against his knee before going still; when his humour flickered on instinct and then dimmed again, like a light turned low to save power.
She noticed how often he deferred now, not out of uncertainty, but out of respect. How he waited for her assessment before offering his own, not because he doubted it, but because he valued alignment.
He wasn’t lighter after the confession.
But he was quieter.
And somehow, steadier.
Dana realised, slowly, reluctantly, that she was adjusting her own orbit in response. She lingered a few seconds longer after class. She stopped packing the moment a question occurred to her, instead of filing it away for later. She let herself meet his eyes without immediately cataloguing the reasons she shouldn’t.
The bond didn’t announce itself.
It accumulated.
In shared glances when a lecture landed somewhere interesting. In the way Fox handed her a book without comment when she forgot hers. In the easy silence that no longer felt like something to endure, but something to inhabit.
Dana had spent her life believing that closeness required vigilance, that intimacy was something you managed, controlled, rationed carefully so it wouldn’t compromise the work.
What unsettled her now was the growing sense that this, whatever this was, didn’t pull her away from herself.
It anchored her.
And Fox, who had spent years perfecting distance disguised as charm, seemed to understand it too. He didn’t reach for more. He didn’t test boundaries she hadn’t offered to move.
He stayed.
And in that staying, in the quiet, unremarkable continuation of days, something between them deepened, not with urgency, but with trust.
The kind that didn’t demand proof.
The kind that changed you anyway.
One evening, sitting on the steps again, Fox broke the silence.
The stone was cold beneath them, leaching heat slowly through denim and wool. Dana had tucked her hands into her coat sleeves, fingers curled against her palms. The air smelled like frost and old leaves, the kind of night that carried sound farther than it should: distant laughter, a door slamming somewhere down the quad, the low hum of campus lights.
“You didn’t try to fix it,” Fox said.
His voice was quiet. Not tentative: measured. Like he was naming something he’d been turning over for a while.
Dana turned her head toward him. “Fix what?”
He didn’t look at her at first. His gaze stayed on the dark stretch of lawn ahead, the lamplight catching the edges of his face.
“Me.”
She frowned slightly, instinctively. “That would be inappropriate.”
Fox huffed a small laugh, breath fogging. “I figured you’d say that.”
“And?” she asked.
“And I appreciate it.”
That stopped her.
She shifted, angling her body toward him without quite realising she’d done it. “You don’t need solutions,” she said after a moment. “Not everything is a problem.”
“No,” he agreed softly. “I just needed someone not to leave.”
The words landed without drama. No emphasis. No self-pity.
That made them heavier.
Dana felt the familiar reflex rise in her chest, the urge to step back, to define the moment, to reassert boundaries that felt safer when they were clean and sharp. Instead, she stayed where she was, her shoulder nearly brushing his, aware of the heat that lingered there despite the cold.
“That’s not nothing,” she said.
Fox glanced at her, eyes searching. “It’s more than I’m used to.”
Something tightened low in her chest, not fear, exactly. Recognition.
They sat like that for a while, close enough to feel each other breathe, far enough to pretend it didn’t matter. Dana could feel his presence beside her in small, undeniable ways: the steady warmth of his arm through fabric, the faint scent of soap and winter air, the way his knee angled just slightly toward hers.
The flirting returned eventually.
Not all at once. Not recklessly.
“You know,” Fox said one afternoon as they crossed the quad, sunlight slanting low between buildings, “if I didn’t respect you, I’d definitely be flirting right now.”
Dana arched a brow. “That’s your idea of restraint?”
“It’s heroic,” Fox replied. “You just can’t see it.”
She shook her head, but the corner of her mouth curved despite herself. “Careful,” she said. “I might start expecting consistency.”
Fox grinned, eyes warm. “I make no promises.”
But he did, in ways that mattered.
He stopped vanishing into performance when it was just them. Stopped cushioning every serious moment with a joke. When he laughed now, it came from somewhere deeper. When he went quiet, it didn’t feel like retreat; it felt like trust.
Dana became aware of him in new ways, unsettling ones. The way his gaze lingered a fraction too long before he looked away. The way his voice dropped when he said her name. The way her pulse picked up when he stood close, not touching, never touching, but present in a way that felt deliberate.
She didn’t pull away.
She didn’t move closer either.
The tension lived in that space between them, humming quietly, patient.
One night, as they packed up in the lab, the room mostly empty and echoing, Fox paused by the door. The fluorescent lights cast sharp lines across his face, stripped of softness.
“Hey,” he said.
She looked up from her bag. “Yes?”
“Thank you,” he said simply.
“For what?”
“For not turning me into a case study.”
Something in her expression softened before she could stop it. “You’re not a problem to be solved.”
Fox smiled, real, unguarded, almost disbelieving. “You say that like it matters.”
“It does,” Dana replied.
He nodded, stepped aside to let her pass first.
As she walked out into the night, Dana felt the quiet shift inside her, the sense that something had changed shape, that a line had been crossed without being broken. She felt steadier for it. Anchored in a way she hadn’t expected.
Behind her, Fox Mulder lingered a moment longer, watching her go.
For the first time, the mask wasn’t heavy.
It wasn’t necessary.
And Dana Scully, disciplined, careful, resolutely in control, was beginning to understand that some connections didn’t weaken you.
They grounded you.
And some forms of closeness, once allowed, changed the way you stood in the world forever.