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    It's the anniversary of Mary's death, and Neil finds comfort in an odd place.

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    10 Apr 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 35

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    Kevin had been Riko's shadow for a decade and as much as he was happy and relieved to be free of him he also felt an empty ache like a chunk of himself had been removed, spliced and severed from him leaving a bloodied gash in its wake. knowing that Riko no longer existed outside of his head made his chest tighten, it wasn't longing but it was a complete dissection from what he felt was possible. Of course he had known that logically Riko was only a man but that didn't change anything really. Riko was still untouched, a figure leaning over Kevin waiting for him to fault.

    There were a million things Aaron could say that might actually be productive. That it made him irrationally angry that now even Andrew put him behind someone else, that he felt like Neil had stolen his family, that Neil had shown up and he and Kevin understood each other in a way he never could. That they all didn't hate Aaron because he was difficult or dysfunctional but because of who he was, because they all loved Neil. That somehow Neil never tried at school and his GPA was only .0023 lower than Aaron who killed himself studying. That Andrew was the only thing he might've considered home and Neil took him.

    Maybe things change.

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    10 Apr 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 16

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    He felt like a child again, alight with curiosity, but filled with the shame and embarrassment of a teenager. What was he going to do, anyways? Ask Andrew for his favourite colour? What he wants to be when he’s older? What kind of girls he likes? What sort of movies he watches?
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    Aaron hears Andrew laugh for years but never actually hears him happy. This is a story about how forgiveness truly starts from joy.

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    09 Apr 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 16

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    “Do you ever feel left behind? Like there's more you could be doing, but can't.”

    Aaron's response was immediate, “Not really, no.”

    “Fuck you,” Kevin mumbled, wondering why he even bothered asking, “I knew this was stupid.” He turned to leave but was stopped by a hand on his chest, fingers clumsily gripping his shirt.

    “Wait, no, I meant if you want to do more, then just do it.” Aaron lightly pulled him back, away from the door, and Kevin followed, unsure of where this was going. “You’re literally going to be a millionaire, Kevin. Think about it, what are your favourite places to go?”

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    09 Apr 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 80

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    Nicky convinces his cousins to join him on a trip to Germany to visit Erik.
    Neil and Kevin are also going with them, of course.

    Cue some misunderstandings and a full schedule of things to do, including visiting Erik's family, going on day trips and possibly even falling in love with your (best) friend.

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    09 Apr 2026