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Zuko had scrubbed the smell of sex and blood of himself, but that didn’t stop it from clinging to the inside of his nose. Could the others smell it? Could they taste his shame in the back of their throats too?
Irrationally, Zuko wanted to crawl inside himself. Peel those watching eyes off him; don’t look at me! They knew, somehow. They could see it on him. Some kind of tell, some stain he couldn’t see or wash away.
What if they all knew? Laughing behind his back at what he’d given up just for a fraction of a chance to get his honor back.
What honor? Any scrap he’d had left after the Agni Kai was lost the moment he spread his legs for Zhao.
They could all see it, couldn’t they?
Zuko wondered if he could ever be rid of the things Zhao did to him.
Zuko deals with the aftermath.
He goes about it the same way he deals with every other shitty thing in his life: with gritted teeth, stubborn pride, and a whole lot of yelling.Series
- Part 2 of handgrenade hearts
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20 Apr 2026
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Frank knows exactly what’s wrong; Robby must too. He’s been practicing medicine as long as Frank’s been alive, he knows abuse as well as he knows anything else in emergency medicine. And Frank won’t call it that, not really, but he thinks it on the quiet nights. He thinks it when his boss looks at him like that. He thinks it when part of him aches from being grabbed too hard, pushed, maneuvered. When he gets home late not only so she won’t yell, but so she’ll be asleep before she can suggest anything. He won’t touch her in bed just so she doesn’t wake, doesn’t reach for him. Doesn’t make him say no, not tonight. Please, Abs, I’m too tired, just to be cut off by a kiss. Hips straddling his. His consciousness retreating inside him so he won’t have to be present for his body betraying his fear of her.
But he’s not at home in his bed; he’s not looking Abby in her murky hazel eyes he used to love. Frank is waiting for a case to take up more space in his mind than the fear.
The cycle has been going on this long, he thinks it can go on a little longer still.
Frank knows what abuse looks like, but it's a lot easier to ignore when it's you. Robby helps.
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16 Apr 2026
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Last night, Robby came home to find Frank Langdon in his living room—sick, shaking, unwell. When Robby wakes up in the morning, Langdon is gone. Robby spirals.
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- Part 2 of throw away my past mistakes
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03 Apr 2026
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Of course, a mass casualty event was not the time to disclose that to Robby. Of course, Robby was at capacity for how much he could lose. And of course, it had been the worst day of Robby’s life. For a moment, in his drug-induced selfishness, Frank pleaded for Robby to remember the little bit of good in him; to ignore the bad. When Frank watched Leah die from across the room, when he heard of Robby trembling against a wall in paeds, he did the only thing that made sense. He insisted that Robby see the abundance of bad in him; to ignore the good.
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26 Mar 2026
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“But- it is a big deal, that was-”
“It’s fine, really.” Langdon held his arms tighter, knuckled white where he gripped his sleeves.
Javadi frowned, “Are you sure?”
“I am.” Langdon looked around again, sighing and rubbing his brow, “Look, I appreciate the concern, but I really- I can’t risk causing anymore problems right now.”(PLEASE carefully read tags!!!)
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26 Mar 2026