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"Ilya had loved him through his worst moments. Ilya had helped him find a therapist when he’d collapsed on the floor of their hotel bathroom after losing a particularly brutal game, scratching at his chest. Ilya had held him, even when Shane yelled at him because there was panic crawling under his skin and he felt as though it might claw its way out. Ilya had told him it was okay; that it didn’t make him a bad player to resent the spotlight sometimes, that it didn’t make him a bad teammate to hate the team when they were too loud and too drunk and too physical, that it didn’t make him a bad person to need space to breathe. Ilya saved him.
And look what you give him in return. You’re a shitty husband, Shane Hollander.
You don’t deserve his last name."
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content warnings: discussion of mental health, depiction of a panic attack, depiction of invasive medical procedure, depiction of violence (generally non-graphic), use of hate speech, depiction of a hate crime
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28 Feb 2026
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Talk to anyone (I can't talk to you) by Taynado
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
17 Feb 2026
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Shane watches helplessly as Ilya is sent headfirst into the boards, spine twisting, skates lifting off the ice as his body folds under the force. The sound of impact is thunderous and wrong - echoing - louder than the crowd, louder than the goal horn, louder than the pounding of his heart against his chest, as Ilya’s body finally crumples into the ice.
Ilya had no time to brace, Shane knows he had no time to brace because Shane had no time to brace.
And he’s not moving.
“Ilya!”
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Or what it means to break, and come together again.
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28 Feb 2026
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Hayden knows something is wrong the moment Shane lets his coat drop to the floor, in a little pile by the front door, instead of neurotically hanging it up like he always does. How could a hookup with 'Boston Lily' leave him this distraught?
Or; an outsider perspective of episode 4, where Hayden has to pick up the pieces Ilya left of Shane after he storms out of his home in Boston.
01/18/25- EPILOGUE ADDED!
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- Part 8 of Hollanov
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24 Feb 2026
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How Will I Know (If He Really Loves Me) by dabforpalermo
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
25 Dec 2025
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Ilya Rozanov is a natural caretaker. Shane Hollander is a natural clutz who keeps getting into situations where he needs taking care of.
Or: 5 times Ilya took care of Shane, and 1 time the favour was returned.
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- Part 4 of Hollanov
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24 Feb 2026
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Shane Hollander is struggling to make ends meet. After his best friend Hayden sets up a dating profile for him on a sugar baby website, he learns that there are some men who will pay for anything - even companionship.
** EPILOGUE ADDED 02/20/26 **
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- Part 5 of Hollanov
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24 Feb 2026