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    Shane is heavier than he used to be; his weight bears down on Ilya in a new way. He’s put on pounds of muscle since Ilya last touched him like this. Ilya flattens his palms, skims them under Shane’s undershirt, feels the flat solidity of his abs, the bulk of his lats, the swell of his chest. It’s the same and it’s new, this body; it’s the boy he couldn’t stop thinking about when he was 18 and the man he loved enough to let go at 26 and the person who somehow always comes to find him when he’s lost.

    A stranger, and the love of his life.

     

    or, Ilya's father doesn't die in 2017; Ilya breaks up with Shane instead of confessing his love. They get older, but not any less stupid about each other. Shane gets a boyfriend; Ilya gets on medication; they work on becoming whole people. And they always find their way back to each other.

    OR a story for those who love Shane and Ilya's baby love but ALSO think it's hot when people in their thirties make active choices about who they are and what they want in their partner!!

    Note: the "cheating" tag refers to the relationship between Shane and his aforementioned BF, not to Shane and Ilya cheating on each other.

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    28 Aug 2026

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    Moscow, 2007. Ilya's junior hockey team gets a new assistant coach for the summer - and a new temporary teammate. The tension starts building the second Shane Hollander steps onto the ice, and Ilya is fascinated.

    Sure, two months feel like a long time when you're sixteen, but they shouldn't matter in the grand scheme of things.
    Right?

    *****

    Or: The thing with Ilya's coach's son, but it's Shane.

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    28 Aug 2026

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    Shane Hollander works at a coffee shop, plays hockey, keeps his head down, and doesn’t ask questions he doesn’t need the answers to.

    So when a new regular starts showing up—quiet, watchful, Russian-accented, and conducting invitation-only meetings in the back—Shane notices. When that same man takes an unsettling interest in Shane’s closing shifts, his routines, and his safety, Shane does what feels sensible: he adjusts his behavior and keeps his mouth shut.

    Ilya Rozanov orders an Americano. He reads, but only in Russian. He worries when people work late alone.

    They are operating with very different definitions of danger.

    If he didn’t ask questions, he couldn’t be lied to.

    The rules were simple.

    1. Do not ask questions you don’t need the answer to.
    2. Do not share personal information freely.
    3. Do not be alone with Ilya Rozanov.
    4. Do not give him a reason to think you’re afraid.

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    28 Aug 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

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    “Oh, I love it. I love ugly, brutal things. But you make it beautiful, too, Shane Hollander, with the way you play, and that is what I have come to watch. You are so light on your edges, so crisp and graceful. You are dancing on knives, and everyone else is trying not to fall.” He pushed himself away from the pillar, and Shane held very still, frozen, as Rozanov reached out to cup his chin, gripping it so hard Shane’s lips parted. “Beautiful,” he said firmly.

     

    Or: Shane Hollander, Gold Medallist, encounters Ilya Rozanov, leshy.

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    23 Aug 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    fantastic, in all senses.
    i would call the ending hfn with a strong dash of the bittersweet, but lovely.

  5. Public Bookmark 78

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    On what he thought would be a fairly routine drug bust, Ottawa PD deputy Shane Hollander finds himself exposed to an even darker circle of a crime syndicate.

    His "training" is to be handled by Rozanov, who, unbeknownst to Shane is making his own case against the syndicate—a job that just got significantly harder as he fights to get himself and Shane out alive.

    But escaping the trafficking ring is one thing. Living through the aftermath is another.

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    25 Aug 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    tbr with trepidation!