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  1. Public Bookmark 38

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    "Spock! I'm sorry! You don't deserve to have to go through all that!"

    "Y-Yet you believe that you do? You have this strong belief in empathy for others, though do not apply it to your own self."

    [Gender-Neutral-Reader x Spock comfort fic. Past trauma is not described, so specifics about reader are very vague/neutral hopefully allowing everyone to enjoy reading.

    Warnings and Disclaimers: This has in depth descriptions of mental health issues (a lot of negative self talk in early chapters that may be triggering), self harm (not anything heavy but still body abuse), and of panic attacks. These won't be experienced the same for everyone so this is just my take.

    As a sufferer myself, in no way when writing this am I meaning to romanticise or belittle mental health struggles. It is an ongoing battle that does not have a simple solution. I write about topics in hope that I can bring at least a little bit of comfort to others who are struggling with similar issues.]

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    15 Jun 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 29

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    Chris lay still for a moment, listening.

    One snore was deep, rumbling, and familiar—the kind that vibrated slightly through the mattress. Phil. Predictable. Reliable. Sounded like a warp core settling in for the night.

    The other—

    Chris turned his head slightly and blinked.

    Leonard McCoy was sprawled on his side next to Phil, one arm flung over a pillow, mouth slightly open, producing a sharp, offended little snort every few seconds—like sleep itself had personally insulted him and he was protesting.

    Chris bit his lip to keep from laughing.

    “Well I’ll be damned,” he murmured under his breath. “He does sleep.”

    Phil snored louder, as if in agreement.

    Chris shifted his gaze downward.

    Jim was awake.

    (Leonard and Jim are kids and survivors of Tarsus IV… Chris and Phil took in two very traumatized, feral boys… what the hell could possibly go wrong?? Oh… right… Klingons… and emotions.)

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    20 Apr 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 65

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    An Emotional Mess makes a logical decision and a Man of Science follows his heart. Everyone already knows about their Epic Adventures. This is the stuff that happened in between.

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    27 Feb 2026

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    From the 2009 Star Trek Kink Meme (I believe it was an anonymous request, but I no longer have the link):

    "Vulcans only mate when in Pon Farr (I realize that's not canon, but work with me here). But Spock, being half-human, experiences normal human sexual urges, thoughts, arousal. From a very young age, he is taught that his desires are unnatural, freakish, horrifying. Possibly he's punished for getting an erection, waking up with sticky sheets, maybe even when someone senses he's aroused (smell, touch telepathy, whatever).

    "So basically, Spock knows next to nothing about sex (except that it's Bad with a capital B) and is deeply ashamed of his desires. Cue some h/c in the form of K/S, yes? Yes."

    The kinkmeme was 2009-Trek inspired, the prompt did not specify a canon. This fic is TOS canon, with TOS characterizations and episode references.

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    03 Feb 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 28

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    Jim Kirk is a paper lion. Fragile as origami, folded by trauma and lies, labeled harmless or dangerous depending on who’s holding the file. But paper lions still have teeth. And when someone finally refuses to crumple him up or put him behind glass, he learns that being strong doesn’t mean being alone.

    Sometimes family isn’t blood or biology.
    Sometimes it’s a doctor who crawls into the vents after you. Or a Captain who understands what the word Father means. Or a Vulcan who learns showing emotion isn’t a short coming.

    And sometimes, even paper lions get to roar.

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    25 Jan 2026