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    Aftershocks by

    Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983), The Outsiders: The Musical - Jamestown Revival & Levine/Rapp  

    08 Mar 2025

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    Ponyboy Curtis didn’t do drugs– or at least, he hadn’t before. Or maybe he still hadn’t, and all the fuzziness and blankness and distance between himself and the rest of the world was something else. Something… not drugs.

    'Right,' Pony thought, his hand gripping a railing on a staircase he didn’t recognize, in a house he had never stepped foot in, 'but this is probably drugs.'

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    Months after the almost-murder of Bob Sheldon, Ponyboy has mostly gotten back to normal. Johnny is fine, he's fine, the not sleeping is fine, the fear of cold water is fine: he just has to convince everyone else of these facts, too.

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    01 Apr 2026

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    Temporary by

    Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983)  

    01 Dec 2024

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    “I don’t mean for this to sound harsh.” Darrel said, turning back to look at Ponyboy from the doorway. “But this won’t be your permanent home. It's nothing personal. We just can't afford another mouth to feed long term.”

    Pony nodded. That made sense. Why would anyone want to keep him for longer than they absolutely had to?

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    or: the AU where foster kid Ponyboy is placed to temporarily live with Darry and Soda. But it's just temporary...right?

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    11 Mar 2026

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    i ponder of something terrifying by ,

    Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders: The Musical - Jamestown Revival & Levine/Rapp, The Outsiders (1983)  

    03 Feb 2026

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    "Soda's chest tightened painfully and he doubled over as the weight of it all settled squarely on his shoulders. If he didn't act soon, very soon, the pole would give way entirely, and Pony and Darry would both be flattened under the full weight of the semi. He would lose them both. He had to choose.

    He had to choose.

    How could he ever choose?"

    xxx

    A car accident leaves Sodapop Curtis faced with an impossible choice. One he's not sure he can bring himself to make.

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    05 Mar 2026

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    dreams don't just come true (but now there's you) by

    Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983), The Outsiders: The Musical - Jamestown Revival & Levine/Rapp  

    21 May 2025

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    Darry folded the paper, not unkindly. “Just don’t hide it next time. You don’t gotta act tough with me, savvy?”

    That was when the words almost slipped out – I love you.

    He wanted to say it. He really did. But his throat closed up around them, the same way it always did.

    Instead he said, “Thanks for comin’ to get me. I know – I know it ain’t easy. Sorry”

    Darry just shrugged. “Don’t worry ‘bout it. Told Bill my kid was sick and he let me off with no fuss.”

    Pony blinked at him.

    And maybe Darry hadn’t meant to say that – my kid. Maybe he had. Either way, it settled over Pony like a warm blanket.

    He didn’t say anything else.

    Didn’t have to. They’d both already said it.

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    5 times Ponyboy couldn't bring himself to say I love you + the first time he did.

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    25 Feb 2026

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    i can't hide from you (like i hide from myself) by

    Fandoms: The Outsiders - S. E. Hinton, The Outsiders (1983), The Outsiders: The Musical - Jamestown Revival & Levine/Rapp  

    24 Nov 2025

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    Darry never means to call Ponyboy his kid—not out loud, not where anyone could hear, least of all Ponyboy. But the word keeps slipping out anyway: in grocery store aisles, late-night emergencies, quiet moments when he isn't careful enough to guard what he feels. Pony hears every one of them. And eventually, Darry says it on purpose.

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    He stopped too late. The word was already in the air between them.

    Pony’s breath caught.

    “You… you said it again,” he whispered.

    Darry’s hands froze where they rested on Pony’s shoulders.

    “Did I?” he said, even though he knew damn well he had.

    “Yeah.” Pony looked at him carefully, like the wrong answer might shatter what little ground he’d found here. “You called me your kid.”

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    24 Feb 2026