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  1. Public Bookmark 26

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    “Hey,” a voice says when James answers the phone, soft and warm and instantly recognisable. James would know that voice anywhere these days. Pick it out in a crowd of fifty all talking at once. “It’s Ryan.”

    (Or: the one where Ryan reappears in James' life after months of going their separate ways, and things become a little complicated and real.)

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    07 Sep 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 38

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    [I have changed, Grace. Am not the same person I was when I committed myself to Adrian.]

    He pauses, drumming one claw against the mate mark on his carapace. [And I do not want to be.]

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    01 Sep 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 38

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    His ears are suddenly ringing. Three bourbons in and he can feel that warm weight settling low in his gut as he looks up at his friend and hopes the smile is welcoming. James knows it’s probably more than welcoming: slow and lazy, an invitation his friend won’t ever take, but. Sometimes he slips.

    At least 75 percent of the world is in love with Ryan Gosling. James doesn’t bother to lie to himself about whether he’s part of that category.

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    24 Aug 2026

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    “Grace?"

    Grace shakes his head, bringing himself back into the moment. “Sorry, Rock. What’d you say?”

    “What Grace want for birthday,” Rocky repeats himself, tone more insistent this time.

    “Y’know,” Grace says, deciding an unrealistic idea is better than no idea at all, “I think I want a hug from my best friend. If you can figure that one out, you’ll never have to get me another birthday gift again.”

    “Rocky will continue to get Grace gifts anyway.” Grace flushes at the declaration, which he does not want to address. Rocky is quiet for a moment after, tapping his claws on the ground in thought. And before Grace can tell him he was just joking, don’t worry about it, just make him some xenonite barbells so he doesn’t lose these muscles so fast, Rocky is perking up and skittering to leave the room again. “Rocky know how to get Grace gift! Will take some time. Late gift. Will make up for it next Earth year.”

    (Or, the one where Rocky's birthday present to Grace ends up getting a little out of hand.)

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    09 May 2026

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    Grace is repulsive.
    Grace is disgusting.
    Grace is a creeping horror made manifest.
    And Rocky wants Grace so badly it makes him look stupid.

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    03 May 2026