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    “He looks so happy,” Jackie said, joining him at the railing. She rested her head against his shoulder, wrapped an arm around his waist. “It’s really nice to see.”

    “Yeah, it really is,” Hayden said. He sighed heavily. “Fuck. I’m gonna have to start liking Ilya Rozanov, aren’t I?”

    Jackie giggled, rubbing his back in a placating manner. “I’m afraid so, babe.”

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    5 times Hayden started understanding Shane and Ilya's relationship, and the 1 time he finally told Shane he did.

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    Ilya clicked his tongue, feeling lightheaded. “No, no. Pants stay on.”

    Hollander’s jaw tightened. His flush was past pink now, bordering on a scandalized red. It had crept down his neck and was visible underneath the open collar of his shirt. “You can’t be serious.”

    Ilya shifted so that his foot was planted more firmly against the mattress, offering leverage. “They are ruined already.” Then, leery, “Get on my lap, Hollander.”

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    "Baby," Ilya coos, moving his hands to guide Shane's hips. "You need to slow down, or you are going to come like this."

    "No," Shane whines. "No, I'm not. M'fine… just give me a minute." The words come out mushed, slurred together and obscured by Shane's heavy breathing. "We're gonna, we're gonna have sex. I need you inside me."

    "Okay," Ilya says, disbelieving.

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    A drunk, handsy Shane chases his release on Ilya's lap

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    “You fainted,” Ilya says. “You barely eat. And now you are-“ He gestures vaguely at the mirror, at Shane, at everything. “Explain.”

    Shane swallows. His heart is pounding again, but this time it’s not dizziness, it’s fear. Real, gut-deep fear.

    “I didn’t mean for it to happen,” he says. “I just… I needed to get better.”

    Ilya’s brow furrows. “You are the best center in the league.”

    Shane laughs weakly. “Yeah. On the ice.”

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    Shane struggles with the hate he’s receiving online. He limits his eating, he overworks, trying to prove to the world, and himself, that he deserves Ilya.

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    Shane swallowed hard, tears still slipping down his face, but he managed another breath. Then another. Each one shaky. Each one fragile. But they were coming. Ilya kept his hand steady against his back, the other still lightly holding his forearm.

    “You’re okay,” he repeated quietly. “I’m right here.”

    Shane’s voice came out broken and small. “I'm sorry. I couldn’t- I tried- I needed-”

    His words dissolved into another shaky inhale, frustration and shame mixing with the remnants of panic. Ilya didn’t press him to explain. He knew Shane’s mind was still tangled in whatever storm had triggered this.

    Right now, breathing mattered more than understanding. “You don’t have to say anything,” he said softly. “Just breathe.”

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    The pressure gets to Shane and he has an anxiety attack mid-game.

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