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    There were four pictures in the tweet that ruined Ilya’s life.

    Or, a woman secretly takes explicit photos of Shane while she is hooking up with him and later vindictively posts them online, causing a shitstorm of a media scandal that just keeps getting bigger. Shane freaks out, of course, but somehow Ilya is the one who really feels like his life is ending.

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    28 Sep 2026

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    Caleb Berkes just wanted to play hockey, and now Shane Hollander was gay. Now Caleb is confused, and some his teammates are pissed off, but Hollander is still Hollander, and Caleb is wondering whether everyone, himself included, should just calm the fuck down.

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    27 Sep 2026

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    The world watched in horror when Shane Hollander left Metro 3 in 2019. Met with extreme public backlash and scrutiny, he shunned the public eye until he returned in 2022 with his debut self-titled album. Fans rejoiced, but many were left with more questions than answers. The subject matter of his new music was stark in comparison to his boy band years. What had happened behind closed doors? Where did he draw his inspiration from?

    In this episode of Behind the Music, get a backstage pass to the inner workings of Shane Hollander; musical beginnings; life before, during and after the Metro 3 days; and a track-by-track breakdown of his best selling album.

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    shane and ilya are in love, but somehow it always feels like it’s them against the world.

    in the years of 2020-2022, they record music, reconnect with old friends and family, and navigate moving on and growing together.

    this is the next chapter of their story, told in between the tracks of shane hollander’s confessional debut solo album.

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    19 Sep 2026

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    From this Tumblr post: https://www.tumblr.com/whitenoisefanfiction/822195613011787776/concept-yuna-hollander-is-actually-a-member-of?source=share There are no regularly scheduled updates, sorry! I'm not quite sure where this is going past the initial set up, so feel free to comment about direction. Tags to be updated as warranted. Thank you for reading!

    Yuna Hollander was a member of the Japanese Imperial family until she went to college in Canada and fell in love with a hockey player. With her parents' blessing, she renounced her status as a princess and became an average Canadian citizen and produced a son who is known as Hockey Jesus. Visits by the Hollander family to Japan are extremely low-key and most people tend to forget that she's the daughter of the emperor.

    Shane is a hot prospect for the MHL when his uncle, the Crown Prince, dies from pancreatic cancer. He doesn't even actually connect his relatives with the imperial family; he's so focused on hockey that almost everything else doesn't register and hasn't for a long time.

    The problem is that there are no remaining male heirs to the throne in his mother's generation and his aunts only have daughters.

    It's getting to be an issue.

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    16 Sep 2026

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    Hollander watched him through the screen, face flushed and dark eyes half-lidded, heavy from the powerful orgasm that had just rocked him on the other side of the country. “I guess I won’t see you until next season, then.”

    Ilya snorted, dropping the towel onto the floor. “I don’t have seasons. At least not the same ones you do.”

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    Ilya didn't regret leaving hockey behind. His life was his own now, inconsistent, frustrating, and difficult as it was.

    His fascination with Shane Hollander, then, was just that—a fascination, a curiosity about the world that could have been, a glimpse of the life that he might have had. But fascination could grow, when there was somewhere to take root.

    Shane Hollander was a garden.

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    05 Sep 2026