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You Can't Love Someone Back To Life by forget_i_even_existed
Fandoms: The Social Network (2010)
12 Jun 2017
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Eduardo changes up one little thing this time and wonders if it will matter.
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The more he looks, the more he finds. Severed file pathways, corrupted syntax, improperly shelved archives. Needles in a haystack, with the amount of data a mech like Ghost carries around. He should delete the films he’s found and leave the rest to gather dust, stop rifling through his caches and spare his hardware the processing strain.
He doesn’t. He saves the scraps he finds in a private, local directory, and he watches them while he charges, or during transit, or low-power stasis. Starts to feel a bit shameful about the whole thing, as if they’re not his to watch. As if he hasn’t got the clearance to remember his own life.
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19 Nov 2025
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What the fuck.
Soap brings his hand closer to his face, squinting hard. Making his already pounding headache worse. This isn’t real. Has to be a prank. For some reason, Gaz must’ve sneaked in here. Funny guy.
He’s heard—even seen it, once—the stories. It’s rare, but real, or at least an elaborate hoax, spanning countries and hundreds of years.
People brought together, Fate intervening. Everyone is supposed to have one, a red thread leading and binding them to the person they’re supposed to spend their life with, though Soap isn’t sure how true that is. No one falls in love once. But it’s not just for love, as he heard it. Maybe this is that. He’s not in love with Ghost. Wants him, sure, crushing…not something he wants to admit to in the cold light of day, but okay.
It’s not love.
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In those last split seconds before it ends, there is intimacy.
In that shuddering gasp between stability and unimaginable force, a glance shared with another man - all those conversations you wanted to have but didn’t, all that useless yearning directed at nothing - his hand instinctively presses to the front of your kit in a pale echo of wish, of a boy’s last cry for his mother. Or a pat for a job well done; an impotent display of brotherhood at the edge of reality.
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Simon and John struggle to lean on each other after their mutual discharge, navigating their trauma, feelings, and what it means to be intimate with another man.
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16 Jun 2025
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A thousand lives, spiralling out around him, all full of possibilities...but Simon lived in this one.
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Ghost slowly learns how to be in love, and in doing so learns how to stop wishing for a different world and start living in the one he's got.- Language:
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14 Jun 2025
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Ghost huffs, a small glint of what Soap dares to call amusement in the golden light of his eyes. “Are you so afraid to die?” Ghost asks. He sounds curious, inasmuch as his flat voice can show emotion. Soap has heard him exasperated and annoyed and even fond when he’s speaking to his mount, but the curiosity is new.
“I’m no’ afraid of death,” Soap spits, baring his teeth. “I’m just no’ done livin’ yet.”
“Oh? What is there in life you’re not done with?”
And isn’t that the question. Ghost must take Soap’s silence for hesitance, as he adds, “You wake up. You fight. You bleed. You eat. You sleep. What else is there?” He’s asking like he’s desperate to know, challenging Soap and everything that he is, and Soap has no serious answer to give him.
I live because I want to live, he senses, would not satisfy Ghost as an answer.Bookmarked by forget_i_even_existed
12 Jun 2025