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  1. Summary

    Maldora — coming from the Latin root malus, meaning bad, evil or dark, and the Greek given name Dora, meaning gift.

    The story of my (eventual redemption) Paladin Dark Urge, Maldora, focusing mostly on her pre-canon life; how she was raised, the manifestation of the Urge, and her relationship with Gortash, leading to her "death" by Orin's hands.

    Typical Dark Urge trigger warnings, alongside rape, pregnancy and incest. Take this as a dead dove, do not eat.

    Pairings: Enver Gortash/Durge, Bhaal/Durge/Sarevok (non-con, dead dove), Orin/Durge (dub-con), Astarion/Durge (eventually)

    Chronological Order:
    • bhaal's waiting womb (WIP)
    • kindred spirits (WIP)
    • fantasies

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    All of my genderswapped fics complied into one place (unless explicitly stated they’re all unrelated)

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  1. Public Bookmark 22

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    Once upon a time, there was a pretty little mouse, who lived with her master - the cat - in his House. She was bound by article, section, and clause; and she slept every night within the cat’s claws. Until her father called, summoning his best, giving her some secret, some unknown quest. Night after night, into darkness she crept, thinking she was sneaky while her master slept, but as she tore through bloody muscle and bone, her master sat by the fire, waiting alone. For the cat always awoke as their bed turned cold, but the mouse could keep her silence - he had an agreement to uphold. Then one night, she didn’t come back, and though she’d been his darkness, his world turned to black. He thought he understood what she so frequently said - when her bloodlust stirs, she always dreams in red. He swore he’d find her and bring her back home, but the cat had to be mindful of her father's throne. When he finally found her abandoned and lost, he thought that the parasite was the only cost, but soon he realized her memories were gone, and with them, their past, their love, their bond.

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    29 Sep 2025

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    Balerion is determined to save his princess.

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    12 Feb 2023

  3. Rec 91

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    He wonders how much Helaena’s maidenhead would fetch on the auction block. More than any of the girls at any of the auctions he’s been to, surely. Maybe more than all of them combined. His sister is a Targaryen, a princess, and – if their grandsire’s machinations work – a future queen. Even the merchant-kings of Essos would balk at the price.

    It is a terrible burden, he thinks, being entrusted with something so valuable and easily broken.

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  4. Rec 9

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    He played at being a trapped songbird just like me, singing all the right things a girl would like to hear from her handsome prince. I’ve traded in one cage for another, one that’s decorated with enchanting, bold roses. The bars are still unyielding all the same.

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    Yeah this is how it happened. Or at least more similar than whatever the show tried doing

  5. Public Bookmark 13

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    This series is a continuation of my story "A multitude of choices", but it can also be read on its own. The seven stories give glimpses into the lives of Brienne and Jaime throughout the years from different character POVs.

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    25 Mar 2022