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Ilya has learned how to survive by staying small, quiet, and obedient. When he ends up on an auction stage, he expects more of the same. Instead, Shane Hollander buys him for a reason no one in that room understands. Now Ilya has to learn something far more difficult than obedience: how to believe he’s safe.
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18 Apr 2026
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The week before the 2017 All-Stars Game, Ilya Rozanov is placed on IR. Ten days later, he disappears from the league entirely. Boston says nothing, and for once, a notoriously fickle league closes ranks.
Every attempt Shane makes to find him hits a wall. In one last desperate, life-altering bid to reach him, Shane comes out to the world, only to be met with Ilya’s silence.
By the time the 2020/21 season begins, Shane has nothing left but hockey and regret. He builds a dynasty, guts his life, and pins the last scraps of his hope on the Metros’ newest transfer, the dangerously hot-headed Cliff Marlow.
Stepping back into the public eye after the worst three years of his life, all Ilya wants is to find some kind of purpose. Shane is done with him, he made that much clear. Ilya isn't about to try to convince himself otherwise. He just wants to prove he still has some use left in him.
Fortunately for both of them, they're still fucking stupid for each other.
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17 Apr 2026
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Billy is six years old when he heals his first person.
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16 Apr 2026
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Billy is familiar with bruises. Having them, giving them to others, pressing on them until they hurt.
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15 Apr 2026
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5 times the Party gives Billy a shovel talk after he starts dating Steve, and 1 time Max fixes the damage done by them.
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