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    Ilya is about to start his job as a senior attending in pediatrics, after cutting off his family and moving from Boston to Ottawa.

    Shane is coming to terms with his divorce, coparenting and being gay in his mid thirties. He wants to escape the noise in his head on a rare night off from the Emergency Department.

    They’re just two guys in a bar what could possibly go wrong?

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    Or: The Grey's Anatomy & The Pitt inspired Hollanov Au no one asked for.

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    28 Jul 2026

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    Hospital and kid

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    russianstallion messages hollabackgirl on Grindr for some fun, but then they keep showing up at the same places, conveniently right when Boston and Montreal have a game against each other.

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    Shane and Ilya, unbeknownst to each other, are sexting on Grindr while still being rivals on the ice.

    *SMAU that was previously uploaded to twitter is now on ao3 for ease of reading*

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    29 May 2026

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    “If it happened, you can complain,” Ilya reasons, “and I will listen. Like you did for me on the phone. And we can make list. And it will not kill you.”

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    11 May 2026

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    “Is my favourite thing.” Ilya murmurs.

    The rain has started to slow down a little. Barely any lightning strikes anymore. Soon, the sky will clear.

    “What is?” Shane asks.

    Ilya brings their joined hands up to his face and presses a small, tired smile to the back of Shane’s hand. “You and me.”

    (or: they’re best friends who go on a roadtrip together.)

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    26 Apr 2026

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    “I’m sorry,” Shane chokes, closing his eyes. Rozanov draws his hand, pulling Shane’s with it, to his face and wipes his cheeks.

    “There is nothing to be sorry for, любовь моя, it is okay,” Rozanov murmurs, tugging at Shane’s hair again. Shane exhales, letting him clean his cheeks. “You got overwhelmed, yes? It happens.”

    “I can’t be fucking normal,” Shane says quietly, whining, head falling back, pressing into Rozanov’s hand.

    “No, if you were fucking normal, you would not be my Shane.”

    // shane is a liar, and he's tired of it all. his life falls apart, and he finds that he doesn't actually mind.

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    05 Apr 2026