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And if I Burn it All Down (Who's Standing There Beside Me?) by hezekiahwakesup
Fandoms: Six of Crows Series - Leigh Bardugo, Shadow and Bone (TV)
23 Feb 2026
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A few years down the line, Jesper has worked on his gambling addiction and is making another attempt at University. He has more support and a better understanding of his own brain this time around, but it's not enough to keep him from spiraling when he starts to struggle.
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I procrastinate my own schoolwork by writing a thousand words of Jesper experiencing all of my problems. Cause, yknow, I love him.
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victory lap by Ccainao3
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 Feb 2026
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I like beating you, Shane had said, once, half-drunk on pleasure in a rumpled hotel bed. I like it– afterwards, when you’re–
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18 Aug 2026
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those who wait by Ccainao3
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 Apr 2026
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That next time, Shane had thought to get ahead of it.
It had been— difficult. Doing it himself, without Ilya there to monitor. And then he had knelt apologetically at Ilya’s feet, confessing shamefacedly that he’d done it again, he’d come when he wasn’t supposed to. And Ilya’s face had changed— not to anger, it was never anger, even when he pretended at it, just a kind of electric anticipation, his lips curling back over his teeth like he was trying to taste Shane in the air— before Shane had blurted out I ruined it, though. He’d sat up a little straighter.
A pause. Ruined it, solnyshko?
Shane had nodded.
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- Part 2 of those who are patient
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18 Aug 2026
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"Is okay, Hollander," said Rozanov. "I will help you. You are," he paused. "Stunted. I looked up this word."
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Or: teenage Ilya billets with the Hollanders. He and Shane stumble into what eventually becomes an intense, obsessive, codependent d/s dynamic that escalates wildly for years after. Special mentions to denial, repression, pining-while-fucking, Minnesota, sexting, eternal soulmate love, and being unbelievably horned up at every single moment of the day.Not a teen fic I promise! They are adults after chapter two.
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- Part 1 of Not to Abolish, but to Fulfill
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30 Jul 2026
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marcescence by fornevertash
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
16 Jul 2026
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mar·ces·cence /mɑːrˈsɛs.əns/ noun
The phenomenon where a plant retains its dead, withered leaves through the winter instead of dropping them in autumn. The state of un-shed foliage losing its colour, drying out, and breaking apart under harsh elements while remaining rigidly attached to the branch.
*No one can know Shane's an omega, and no one can know he's slowly falling apart. So Shane puts his gear on, locks his trembling knees, and steps back onto the ice.
His mate doesn’t want him. His mate doesn’t want him. Ilya doesn’t want him.
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25 Jul 2026
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I hope that I pass and I get reborn by shovels21
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers | Heated Rivalry - All Media Types
16 Jul 2026
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364 days since the death of Ilya Rozanov, Shane Hollander has done little to pick up the pieces of his life. Feeling stuck and hopeless, he tries in the only way he knows how to reunite with Ilya. He closes his eyes at 12:00 AM on the one-year anniversary of the accident, hoping that one way or another, he won't have to face another day alone. He wakes up in his Montreal apartment in 2016, grappling with a realized prayer: a redo.
Deciding to do things differently a second time around, Shane quickly discovers that a past he has already lived is surprisingly difficult to predict. Every choice he makes sends out unintended ripples, and no one is harder to read than Ilya himself, leaving Shane to question if his own rewritten steps are altering the man he died for.
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23 Jul 2026