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    Tommy stares down into his coffee cup. He doesn’t have a problem with two guys kissing—obviously, he wouldn’t have agreed to this billet arrangement if he did—and he’s not surprised to see Shane and Ilya doing it—like everyone else with even a passing interest in hockey, he saw the FanMail—but, well, he’s maybe a little surprised to see that what they were doing in the FanMail was, apparently, just a casual kiss for them. Judging by this, anyway.

    When Shane and Ilya agree to become billet parents, they resolve to keep their (admittedly intense) sex life carefully confined to the bedroom, and out of earshot.

    They do an okay job of that. All the other parts of taking in a rookie? They do even better.

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    18 Jun 2026

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    “Is just the new routine, okay?” Ilya pleaded, his voice breaking. “The pills were working and now there is more stress so I just need to get used to it and will be fixed, okay?”

    “How bad is it?”

    “Shane, please.”

    “Ilya, you promised no more secrets, no more hiding. How bad?”

    He covered his face in his palms, his elbows resting on his knees, and took in a shuddered breath. “...bad.”

     

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    After Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander get married, Ilya discovers that his depression won't magically disappear just because he finally has love and a real family. He gets to live and work with Shane full time now that they are on the Centaurs, but it's becomingly increasingly difficult to hide his deteriorating mental health from his husband. He's haunted by dreams of his mother and the fear that his depression and the hockey world's eruption about their relationship is ruining Shane's life. He has to swallow his pride and begin taking SSRIs, navigate the side effects of medicating his depression, and learn to accept love and support from those he loves most. Will the shame eat him alive or can he finally learn that he's worthy of love even at his lowest?

     

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    15 Jun 2026

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    The truck comes to a stop a few meters to his side, and Shane can see the satisfaction in Harris’ eyes at the perfect shot.

     

    “Very recently, some of our team members had to be evacuated due to the underground gas leak in some areas of the city,” Shane dutifully explains, trying not to sound like he’s reading it off a card. He isn’t. He just tends to sound robotic sometimes and apparently, people think that’s funny. “Thanks to all the first responders of Ottawa, nobody was harmed and the leak was…” Shane trails off. “...fixed…”

     

    Currently, some of the hottest men he’s ever seen are spilling out of the firetruck and into their parking lot.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    Shane combs at his hair, trying to hide the gray by getting the rest of his hair to fall over it.

    Of course, Ilya notices Shane’s preoccupation immediately, and only a second later, his eyes lock on the hair.

    In the mirror, Shane watches a shit-eating grin spread over his husband’s face.

    “Don’t,” he warns.

    “Hollander, Hollander. No need to do this.”

    Shane frowns. “Do what?”

    Ilya comes to stand behind him, hands resting on his hips, chin dropped to Shane’s shoulder. “You are already better hockey player. No need to give Hunter competition for sexiest grandpa.”

    “Oh my God, fuck off.” Shane elbows him in the gut.

    Ilya takes the hit and doesn’t even move, just laughs in Shane’s ear before pressing a kiss to the hair. “Relax, sweetheart. Stressing only gives you more grays.”

    Or: Shane gets a gray hair, and he and Ilya realize they have different problems, these days.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    "Oh yeah, I can hold," Shane's voice is much less collected now, pupils wide even as he gives Ilya an incredulous but firm shake of his head.

    Ilya wants nothing more than to drop to his knees in front of him and do something about the thick, electric spark that seems to have filled the air between them in the last few minutes. But Shane would definitely kill him if he did; he would definitely—

    A different thought interrupts his attempts at reigning himself in, a new wave of desire rushing over him at the memory of another phone call just weeks ago.

    Going from their weeks at the cottage to being long-distance between Montreal and Boston for the 2017-2018 MLH Season sucks. Shane deciding to take this stupid phone call during a rare holiday weekend together sucks even more. Thankfully, Ilya has enough evidence to suggest his boyfriend might not really mind if he interrupts said call. 

    He never expected this result though...

    Aka: Trying your best to stay quiet while your boyfriend discusses home renovations and brings you off at the same time, The Ilya Rozanov Dilemma

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    12 Jun 2026