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When Shane was born an ocean away from her homeland, Yuna Hollander, who did not pray, whispered into the world: Let every door open for him, my son.
OR: Yuna Hollander learns to appreciate Ilya Rozanov, one step at a time.
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24 May 2026
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Judges by a_good_soldier
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
30 Dec 2025
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Ilya tries to breathe. Shane is the one who panics. In fact, Ilya has been so calm over the past hour. So, so calm. Soooooooo so so so amazingly calm that maybe Shane will reward him with a very nice blowjob later. Ilya has been calm because Shane needs a rock to lean on, but Shane is gone and now Ilya is panicking. This is his only chance to rectify the first, shirtless impression he made on Shane’s father.
“Do you still read New Yorker?”
OR: Ilya, on the confluence of Shane with David, Yuna, and Svetlana.
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- English
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Bookmarked by Miserable_Ecstasy
24 May 2026
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Ilya is a young man in America. Here he is in the off hours.
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24 May 2026
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slow days, fast company by babyteeth (friday)
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
09 Jan 2026
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After his second Cup win, Shane had stared down the gaping maw of August stretched open before him and, for the first time, the thought of spending it fishing and birding at his cottage, alone, without anyone to make him a sandwich or press his head into the space beneath their chin, was unbearable.
Thus, Los Angeles.
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24 May 2026
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Dial Drunk by Palomarosee
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
23 Mar 2026
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The line connects and Shane is met with a chaotic jumble of noise. Loud music and voices
“Hello?”
“hmm, hello”
Shane freezes
The voice is deep and familiar but there’s something different about it, something heavy and a bit slurred
“Rozanov? Are you—are you drunk right now?”
Or: Shane sends a risky text, Ilya does not take it well
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23 May 2026
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So Shane Hollander is, how do you say in English, a dirty little thief. A clothing thief, to be precise. Ilya can't say he saw that coming, but he also can't pretend he's all that mad about it.
His shirt looks good on his Shane. On Shane. On Hollander.
Right. His shirt looks good on Hollander.
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- Part 1 of my heated rivalry anon fics
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- 10,692
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- 3/3
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23 May 2026
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meet me halfway by moonysbookshelf
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
10 Dec 2025
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“She was filming a movie in Montreal,” Ryan reads from his phone, “and they two hit it off right away.”
“Christ,” Vincent shakes his head, “I can’t imagine hitting it off with Hollander.”
Ilya can. He can imagine hitting it off with Hollander right away, he can imagine getting off with Hollander right away. What he can’t imagine, is sitting across from Shane at dinner.
It’s disgusting how much Ilya wants it.
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23 May 2026
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It’s nothing more than a convenient arrangement. Ginny just needs a room for the night. Harry just needs a break.
It’s a one-time only occurrence. One that they both agree will be forgotten the moment they leave the next day.
But both of them should have learned by now that even their best ideas never exactly go to plan, and rules are made to be broken…
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23 May 2026
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“Shane doesn’t want to take something from Ilya that he enjoys. And he doesn’t want to plant the seed of resentment. He’s already asked Ilya to give up so many things for him. He’s asked Ilya to always come back to him in the end, and Ilya always does and always will. That has to be enough for Shane. It doesn’t matter what Ilya does with other people. It’s just sex.”
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When Ilya offers Shane an open relationship during The Long Game, Shane assumes that’s because Ilya isn’t willing to be monogamous. Ilya has always been with other people. Why would that change now?
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23 May 2026
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Shane should be here right now, should be in Ilya’s house. Ilya should be teasing him about being picky while going through delivery options for food on his phone. Shane should be discovering that Ilya has ginger ale in the fridge and the protein bars Shane mentioned liking in an interview in his pantry. He should be making out with Shane on the couch, sneaking a hand into his pants, teasing him about whether they can beat the deliveryman and arrive before he does. Shane was supposed to spend the night tonight, the Montreal team not set to leave until tomorrow afternoon because of potential bad weather in the morning. Shane should be fed and showered and ready to curl up in bed with Ilya tonight.
But Shane is in a hospital.And Ilya is here.
He pulls up Jane in his phone again. He presses call.
“Hey, you’ve reached Shane Hollander-”
Ilya closes his eyes and lets Shane’s voice roll over him.
(canon divergence in which shane getting injured happens during a game in boston) (...which means shane then gets to go home with ilya to recover)
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22 May 2026
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I'll be Jane by gurlsrool
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
27 Jan 2026
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It’s not going viral because Jane’s true identity was exposed—or even because Ilya was blatantly sexting in public. That part’s as expected as Shane doing yoga or any human being on earth breathing.
No, the texts are going viral because no one can believe how bad this “Jane” is at sexting.
The women of the world are outraged. The men of the world are baffled. No one can understand why Ilya Rozanov, whose abs have their own fan club, is wasting his time on ‘a piece of cardboard that wished to be turned into a real girl’ (this particular joke has 300k likes and counting).
Or: After a social media trend mocks Shane's sexting skills, he tries to improve them. It goes about as poorly as you'd expect.
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22 May 2026
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he turns off the big light by gurlsrool
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
31 Mar 2026
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Ilya knows firsthand that the world isn’t comfortable. It’s loud, bright, demanding, a harsh place in direct opposition to everything he’s recently learned about autism.
Is it so wrong that he wants Shane to feel safe here? To carve out a space where, even if only for a few hours, he doesn’t have to grin and bear anything? He can just be?
Or: Ilya Rozanov has a lot of good ideas. Telling his fuck buddy that he should consider getting an autism diagnosis isn’t one of them.
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22 May 2026
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ballad of the bisexual terminator by pressuretoparty
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
18 Apr 2026
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Partying and pining in New York, situationship-era flirting, and semi-ironic marriage pacts.
Just a day in the life of Ilya Rozanov.
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Bookmarked by Miserable_Ecstasy
22 May 2026
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Ilya was good at noticing things about people, and he was good at understanding them. Shane was not. That was okay. Shane had developed his own way of getting to know Ilya. It involved a lot of inane questions and, more importantly, no longer involved condoms.
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22 May 2026
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Ilya had never denied himself anything. He liked to feel good, and usually wanting felt good.
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22 May 2026
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No Way for Me to Go Back by happinessofthepursuit
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
15 May 2026
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A kitchen table. A public pool. A boy's bedroom. A gay club. A hook-up app. Another gay club. A bad news announcement. A good news announcement. A bad news announcement. A night with friends.
Or, a study of Ilya Rozanov's queer identity.
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22 May 2026
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Ilya doesn't just move teams; he moves cities. Ilya finds more surprises along the way than he expected, but Shane watches over him along the way.
Or: a loose series of vignettes of Ilya's first few months in Ottawa.
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- Part 4 of the ottawa-verse
- Part 8 of anon hr fics
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22 May 2026
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Been waiting on that sunshine (I think I need that back) by photographer_of_thoughts
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
12 May 2026
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“But we have always kissed, we -”
“I know.” Shane says, face blushing crimson. “But like I said, I don’t want to do that anymore. We can still see each other, because I like what we do, but we have to keep that part out of it. Please.”
Ilya breathes in and out. He tries to be rational. Shane’s requesting that something change in their arrangement. It should be a simple answer. Yes. Of course. If that’s a boundary he wants to set, then Ilya should obey it.
But the feeling of loss is so overwhelming he can barely stomach it.
or, after Vegas, Shane doesn't let Ilya kiss him anymore when they hook up. Ilya doesn't take it very well.
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21 May 2026
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Shane’s hands rest on Ilya’s shoulders like they often do and he lets out a long breath. “I'm sorry. I don’t know why I -”
“Shh. Is okay. Just don’t run away.” Ilya catches his gaze and holds it. “I don’t want you to go.”
For the second time that day, Shane nods and quietly says, “Okay.”
or, Shane stays at Ilya's house rather than running away.
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21 May 2026
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crawling back to you (ever thought of calling when you’ve had a few?) by sinesolesileo
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
25 Feb 2026
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Ilya does not have time for this. It’s almost incredible, and frankly humiliating, how fast his anger has been extinguished by burning worry. Shane’s right, he should be furious. But that’s not Ilya’s priority, now. ‘’Hollander, are you listening, yes?’’, Ilya insists. He confusedly stares at his reflection on the window. When did he even got up from the couch? ‘’Where are you?’’, he repeats, stressing on every word with a careful pause.
Shane seems intentioned to ignore Ilya’s bleeding questions like’s a sacred mission. Just to make his heart dry out from paranoia, probably. The silence is broken by a sniff, followed by a gulp. Shane sounds now far from the phone:
‘’Rose. Rose, he’s mad’’, he moans in a strangled whisper.
Ilya’s body freezes.
Or, Shane and Rose break up, and they’re up to celebrations. Rose decides it’s time for Shane to distract himself for a night. It absolutely doesn’t go as planned.
Bookmarked by Miserable_Ecstasy
20 May 2026