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Fandoms
- House M.D. (7)
- Grey's Anatomy (6)
- The Diplomat (US TV 2023) (4)
- The West Wing (2)
- Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling (1)
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and we called it love (might've fucked it up) by Elle Jay (lj_exists19)
Fandoms: Grey's Anatomy
07 Mar 2026
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Meredith could feel the scream building in her lungs, her anger thrashing against the restraints she’d fastened around it. Her body shook slightly as she slammed her face back down against her pillow, the scream heating the fabric beneath her face as she released it.
It had all been so fucking predictable, clear from the moment they met, she had been foolish to believe they had a chance at all. She still believed it, clutching any thread of hope that maybe, just maybe, she’d get her happy ending. Even if it was with the woman who was supposed to be her enemy.
When the scream finally died and left her choking on air she turned onto her back, dragging in breaths of air until her breathing steadied, anger falling away into horrible, encompassing, overwhelming, grief.
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Femslash February prompts for Cameron/Thirteen
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- Part 5 of Femslash February 2026
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I made promises I just can't keep by Elle Jay (lj_exists19)
Fandoms: Criminal Minds (US TV)
14 Feb 2026
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Femslash February prompts for JJ/Emily
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- Part 6 of Femslash February 2026
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Femslash February prompts for CJ/Donna
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- Part 1 of Femslash February 2026
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there's an oath in your eyes (and i know that i'm bound) by Elle Jay (lj_exists19)
Fandoms: Grey's Anatomy
09 Feb 2026
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Femslash February prompts for Meredith/Addison (spicy edition)
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- Part 7 of Femslash February 2026
- Part 3 of went to meet the devil (cause i heard she was pretty)
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Femslash February 2026 by Elle Jay (lj_exists19)
Fandom Criminal Minds (US TV), Grey's Anatomy, House M.D., Star Trek: Voyager, The West Wing
14 Feb 2026
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went to meet the devil (cause i heard she was pretty) by Elle Jay (lj_exists19)
Fandom Grey's Anatomy
09 Feb 2026
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Meredith/Addison smut one-shots
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Any Fandom Goes Bingo Cards by Elle Jay (lj_exists19)
Fandom Gossip Girl (TV 2007), Grey's Anatomy, The West Wing
25 Jan 2026
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it might take longer than we have (could you live with that) by Elle Jay (lj_exists19)
Fandom House M.D.
03 Aug 2025
- Words:
- 8,421
- Works:
- 6
- Bookmarks:
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No smut, fluff pieces about the sprouting relationship between three agents. Y/N, JJ and Emily finding themselves entangled as they navigate their developing relationship.
I'll take requests if you are looking for anything particular.
You could read them in any order… but the order now is accurate time wise and I recommend reading it in order!
- Words:
- 175,365
- Works:
- 36
- Bookmarks:
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Bookmarked by lj_exists19
23 Dec 2024
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I had the shiniest wheels, now they're rusting. by inmyfleabagera
Fandoms: Superstore (TV)
26 Mar 2023
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Garrett could beat him up easily. Maybe he should.
"Like you always say, the job sucks." He replied finally.
"So you decided to drown yourself in Amy's bathtub?"
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Jonah's thoughts throughout some life-changing events in his life.
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Rated T because of mentions of a suicide attempt, so please read with caution.
Bookmarked by lj_exists19
15 Dec 2024
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If only you knew(My Pain) (A Trans Peter Parker fic) by NicstheOboeGremlin
Fandoms: The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies), Iron Man (Movies)
30 Dec 2024
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Peter Parker was your average teen, except he wasn't. Peter Parker is Spiderman, Tony Stark's intern, and a trans guy. Come with Peter as he navigates Spidermanning, bullies, his mental health, dysphoria, and more. Also, Peter is autistic.
Mature for eventual self-harm themes and death.
I dont own any characters or Marvel. This is coming from some of my experiences as a Trans Guy, I am Pre-T however so I might get some of that stuff wrong, if you can let me know I will fix it! Updates will be random, but hopefully pretty often.
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- English
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- 2,164
- Chapters:
- 4/?
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- 1
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01 Dec 2024
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Spencer knew the facts.
He knew the statistics and he knew the signs of an abusive relationship.
This wasn’t that though, no Nathan loved him, he at least knew that much.
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He had tried to be as quiet as possible
Streaks of blood were running down his face and into his eyes.
But he didn’t dare move… not even an inch.He heard his name being yelled but what if it was a trick?
He had been tricked before…
The floor was covered in his blood and first when the figure crouched down in front of him, he dared whisper a name.
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Spencer wasn’t doing well, Derek had seen as much, but he didn’t expect to one day knock on his door and find a stranger with his blood on his hands.- Language:
- English
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Bookmarked by lj_exists19
05 Jun 2024
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Three years ago Buck left Kelly high and dry, moved to LA and never spoke a word about it to anyone. But what happens if he never actually moved past it, and when he accidentally wears a shirt with Kelly's name on the back he has to explain himself to everyone and realizes he's not as over it as he's been saying.
Bookmarked by lj_exists19
30 May 2024