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    Shane Hollander meets Ilya Rozanov on this twenty-fourth birthday at The Ice Palace, the gay club where Ilya works as a bartender. Shane has never been to a gay club before, never kissed, and never been with a man before. He's shocked that it's seemingly this easy to pick up a shirtless, Russian bartender, with the most beautiful lips he's ever seen. That was the point of coming to the club, as a test of his homosexuality, but Shane leaves, alone, unsure as to whether he passed or failed.

    Ilya passed. He passed Shane a secret birthday message on a cocktail napkin. Shane doesn't know what it says, but he knows it's special. He doesn't know this meeting, that message, and a birthday gift that was already late will change his life either. He'll never spend another birthday alone though. Ilya will make sure of that.

    Set in the 1980's... and I promise there's a happy ending
    This is an EXPLICIT story for adults only.

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov had been household names for years, yet the media still treated them like gladiators thrown into an arena for public entertainment. Hollywood had never manufactured a rivalry this blatant before—and of course they were the guinea pigs. The blueprint. The cautionary tale in the making.
    The money was obscene. The roles were constant.
    And the studios? They were practically frothing at the mouth.
    If Shane landed a blockbuster, Ilya was mysteriously cast in a competing one within days. Rival studios loved the drama, the headlines, the built‑in war.

    And if Ilya was favored to win at the box office against Shane, well then, who was Ilya to complain about it?

    Boring Canadian: Got to go
    BC: Text you later?
    Ilya: Okay
    Ilya: Don’t get hard thinking of me blowing you
    BC: Fuck you!
    Ilya: You’re hard, aren’t you?
    BC: …
    Ilya: My good little slut
    BC: TURNING OFF MY PHONE NOW!!!!!!!!

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    Or Shane and Ilya have a complicated work-life relationship, and it becomes so much more than either of them could have ever imagined.

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    Welcome to 2025 MHL — where being gay isn’t a scandal, but having the Big Bad Russian Alpha Captain of Boston Raiders openly thirsting over the Pretty Omega Rookie of Montreal Metros definitely is.

    Nineteen year-old Shane Hollander just wanted to play hockey. After a viral scandal – collapsing on the ice and experiencing his first heat on national television during the International Prospect Cup – the Montreal Metros gave him a chance to rewrite his narrative. A life-changing entry contract. A media spotlight. And the title of the first omega in the MHL.

    Enter Ilya Rozanov: twenty-nine-year-old MHL veteran, Boston Raiders captain, and resident villain fans love to hate. An alpha who never forgets a pretty face once he’s seen it.

    And Shane Hollander has a very pretty face.

    A story for those who love confident, experienced Ilya courting a shy and overwhelmed Shane; who tries very hard to pretend he doesn’t enjoy it. Expect a ten-year age gap, primal tension, and an alpha taking care of his babyboy!shane in public and private. Potential daddy kink.

    Semi-omegaverse. No mpreg. No babies. (I don’t like babies, sorry, lmao.)

    Slow-burn progression.

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    In which Shane and Ilya retire and adopt a little girl from Russia

     

    Angst/fluff/domestic bliss/cute family bits

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    Ilya dug deeper into the bag and pulled out a sturdy, leather dog collar, dark brown and buckled. Quick as a wink, he held it up, dangling it directly at Shane’s neck. "You make cute puppy. Shchenok Shane."

    Shane glared, his face heating up instantly, and slapped Ilya's hand away. "Stop it!"

    Ilya advanced closer, his stance casual, yet dominating. "I am serious. Consider this gift. It says, 'I belong to Ilya Rozanov.'... Come on. Put it on. Be my good boy."

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    ​​What if Rose was a man?

    ​For seven years, Shane Hollander was the architect of their secrecy. He was so paranoid about protecting what he had with Ilya Rozanov that he bought an entire apartment building just to ensure no one saw them together. But fear makes you do reckless things—like running away the moment the secret becomes too real.

    ​Enter Christian Vance.

    ​Hollywood royalty. Open. Safe. Christian gives Shane the one thing Ilya never could: the courage to step into the light without burning. With Christian, there are no shadows, no shame, and no hiding. He is safe.

    But Shane misses the danger.

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    Hayden may be unobservant, but he's not stupid. After 10 years, he's figured out why Shane has hidden Lily for so long.

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    All Shane had wanted to do was watch his fiancé play hockey. But when Ilya takes a hit their secrets start crashing down around them.

    Yuna loves her son, she thought she knew everything about him.

    And Hayden is just along for the ride.

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    Shane Hollander loved Ilya Rozanov, so much that it was going to kill him. He has to make the most of the time he has left after the Olympics, before the roots really take hold.

    AKA your basic Hanahaki Disease fic, full of pining, mild body horror, sex, and eventually some well-earned comfort.

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    1,224
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    Shane had schedules to stick to, regimens to maintain, plays to study, drills to perfect.
    He needed to eat the same thing, every day. Train in the best way to keep his mind and body fit by keeping to strict programs. He needed to stick to his plan so that he could ensure that everything also went, well…to plan.
    He needed all of these things to fall in place otherwise— well he tried not to think too hard about the otherwise. He couldn’t let otherwise happen.

    Basically he’d treated his body like a fucking temple for majority of his life and had no problems with it yet— And then he turned 30.

     

    or

     

    Shane starts noticing changes after he turns 30— He doesn't bounce back the same way he used to and it suddenly sends him spiralling.
    Ilya is there to pick him up and kiss him better when he’s brought to an abrupt halt.

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    Shane shut his eyes, leaning back against the couch. 

    He was fine. He had to be.

    What am I meant to do, Shane thought desperately to himself, when I can’t remember why I was even recovering in the first place?

    or:
    shane relapses with his ed, no one has a good time

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    “Is someone chasing you?” Ilya drawls. 

    He turns, and yeah, this guy doesn’t look like much of a smoker. Ilya’s learned through time and experience that stoners come in all shapes and sizes, but it’s clear that he isn’t one: hair cut neat and short, straight-laced, brows furrowed into a scowl, shoulders all tight—too squared away. He’s probably not much of a drinker, either, if Ilya had to guess. 

    And he’s wearing a fucking suit, for Christ’s sake. 

    So boring, Ilya thinks, strangely delighted. He wants to take him by the collar and scruff up his hair, if only to see what he might do in response. 

    Or, Shane's struggling with anxiety. Hayden thinks his grumpy weed dealer might be able to help. 

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    Rozanov, Ottawa's captain, gets injured during a match against the Voyageurs.

    'Might' contain soft moments between Ilya and Shane as Ilya recovers

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    Early winter 2015. Montreal had just lost a home game to the Raiders. Ilya meets Shane at the back entrance to his building as usual, but Hollander’s a lot more tense than he normally is after a loss; Rozanov realizes he may need a little extra attention to fully relax.

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    "Get up here,” Shane barked. “... Please.” He added weakly. His face heated. He hated that knee-jerk reflex to use his manners. Ilya’s face split into a shit-eating grin at Hollander’s plea.

    “Good manners,” he crooned, taking the stairs two at a time, catching up with Shane. “I like when you ask nicely, Hollander,” he purred.

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    Winning their first game together should have felt simple.

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    June, 2000.
    Montreal, Canada.

    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov were both expected to go into the 2000 NHL Draft as the draft picks
    It was planned. It was inevitable. It was everything they wanted, right?

    What they didn’t plan for was the NHL benching them until their college years were finished with a promise waiting in Boston and Montreal once they were done.
    They’d play NCAA hockey. They’d make it to the NHL eventually.

    But somehow, cruelly, fate decided they’d do it at the same place.

    Stuck.
    Stuck at McGill.
    Same team. Same ice.

    Sharing a room with your rival.
    Fuck.

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    Shane felt a rushing in his ears as everything in him dropped. Ilya was hurt.

    The world tilted, lurched sideways, and he grabbed onto the sink for balance as his phone went clattering to the tiled floor.

    He couldn’t breathe. Something vice-like had clamped around his lungs and was compressing the air out of his body, closing up his throat. Someone somewhere was gasping, an ugly wet and rattling kind of sound that echoed in the high-ceiling room.

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    Ilya gets jumped outside the ep. 4 nightclub and Shane is Ilya's emergency contact. He doesn't handle it well. They both have a lot of feelings.

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    After their engagement, Ilya and Shane return to Russia under the cover of the Irina Foundation, knowing it may be the last time Ilya ever sets foot there. What waits for him is not closure, but grief, memory, and a past he learned to survive by becoming quiet and hard.

    As old wounds resurface and the cost of being seen grows clearer, Ilya struggles to keep his walls from rising. Shane stays—steady, patient, and unwavering—loving him through the fear, the flashbacks, and the choice that will change everything.

    This is a story about grief, survival, and choosing a future where home is no longer a place, but a person.

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    4/?
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    25
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    “Hollander.”

    Shane froze. Uh oh. He slowly turned to look down the hallway. The tall frame of a 6’2” Russian man stood in the doorway of his penthouse suite, face cloaked in shadows.

    It was at this moment that Shane knew he was fucked. Maybe if he didn’t move, Rosanov wouldn’t see him?

    Rosanov took another step, mouth open to say something else that would probably inspire equal parts fear and arousal in Shane, but he wasn’t sticking around to hear it.

    He bolted for the fire exit.

    ———

    a ‘shane sends the we didnt even kiss’ fic except ilya chases shane down

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