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    After Shane comes out, the Metros become convinced he might be attracted to them.

    Shane corrects this assumption with devastating precision, accidentally describes Ilya Rozanov in the process, and somehow turns the entire locker room into a deranged pageant of heterosexual insecurity.

    Edit: Bonus scene added 19/06/2026

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    21 Jun 2026

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    “Hi Milana,” he murmured, voice gentle. “I’m Ilya, your father’s brother. Did your mama tell you I was coming over?”

    Milana nodded and pulled her bottom lip into her mouth, gaze contemplative as Ilya held out a hand to her. He didn’t touch her, didn’t broach the barrier of the doorframe, just held his palm out, a gesture of vulnerability, exposing soft skin. When he’d been a child, listening out for the sound of his father’s footfalls down the hall, trying to guess at what mood the man was in that day, if today was a day he would likely be hit, those gestures of vulnerability–upturned palms, tears on cheeks–had been the only thing he’d trusted. The wounded animal in his sternum reaching out for comfort, seeking safety in the fragility of others. Proof that he wasn’t the weakest one.

    Or: After spending Christmas with the Hollanders Ilya realises he has unfinished business in Moscow; namely, saying goodbye to his mother's grave and recovering the pieces of his history. Before meeting Shane at the cottage for their second summer together - and before upending his life and moving to another country once again - Ilya decides to return to his home city and attempt to lay his past to rest.

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    20 Jun 2026

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    “The doctor said it’s retrograde amnesia. He doesn’t remember the game, or . . . any of the last few years, really. He remembers his draft, but not World Juniors the next year, so . . .” Pike shrugs helplessly.

    Mind racing, Ilya thinks through the math. Their second World Juniors had been in 2009, 8 years ago. That’s 8 years—or more—of Shane’s life, of Ilya’s role in it, just gone. 8 years of teasing texts and hotel room hookups, tuna melts and Tampa and 'I don’t think I can keep pretending I don’t like you anymore.'

    Blyat.

    . . .

    When Marleau's hit leaves Shane missing his memory of the last 8 years, Ilya chooses to walk away. After Shane unexpectedly trades to the Ottawa Centaurs three years later, they are thrust back into each other's lives. Ilya struggles against his feelings that never disappeared. And Shane? He's confused about why so many things about Ilya Rozanov, his years-long rival, feel so familiar...

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    19 Jun 2026

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    “I feel really good about this kid, I think he could be great on your wing, he just needs some help settling in. Someone to show him the ropes.”

    “Yes.”

    The line went silent for a moment. Ilya wasn’t really sure why his coach felt the need to run this by him.

    “Rozanov,” his coach said at last. “I want him to live with you.”

    Ilya blinked, then nearly shouted into the phone. “What?”

    * * *

    or, Ilya stays in Boston, gets a rookie, and tries to figure out how to make a secret long distance relationship work while there's a Russian teenager in his house

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    18 Jun 2026

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    It happens in an instant.

    Over Ilya’s shoulder, Shane sees the doctor and Wiebe give each other a look, and in a sudden bout of impatient anxiety, Shane ends up saying the words that come to ruin everything.

    “Don’t touch me.”

    The effect is instantaneous. Ilya’s hands fly to his sides, and Shane gets a front row seat as Ilya’s heart breaks before his very eyes. Eyes dimming and lips trembling in slow, painful technicolor.

    It causes Shane’s heart to break, too, and he vows, immediately, never to see such a look cross his husband’s face again.

    OR Shane embarks on a mission to heal his husband’s heart, one PDA at a time.

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    17 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander is a hockey legend known as "The Golden Alpha of Canada:" and Captain of the Montreal Voyagers. To the roaring crowds, he’s cocky, dominant, untouchable Alpha they want in a hockey star. Yet, behind every goal, Shane hides a secret that could destroy everything he's built up. He isn’t an Alpha at all. Born Omega in a world where Omegas are sidelined from traditional "Alpha" sports, Shane’s entire career is built on a lie: daily suppressants, fake scent, relentless self-control. The cost is soul-deep exhaustion and the constant fear that a single mistake will cost him not just his trophies, but his identity.

    Enter Ilya Rozanov, known as “The Dirty Russian” by fans and foes alike, a brutal, magnetic Alpha who’s battled his own demons to make it on the Voyager team. Growing up in the shadow of an abusive father who threw him into sports to "make me fucking rich", Ilya learned to survive by being harder, meaner, and utterly unbreakable. Hockey is his way out, but family obligations and old scars still chain him down..

    When a chance encounter lets Ilya see Shane for who he truly is, both men are forced to confront the walls they’ve built, around their histories, their bodies, and their hearts.

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    17 Jun 2026

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    Shane had it all, he was living his dream. Until one night changed his life, crushing everything he had worked so hard for.

     

    or Shane didn't know he was pregnant until he gives birth on Ilya's bathroom floor.

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    14 Jun 2026

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    Shane wants to figure out if he's gay before he gets drafted—and no, the way he felt when Ilya Rozanov smirked at him with a cigarette between his lips in Saskatchewan has nothing to do with it. Unfortunately, the random guy he hooks up with to try and make sure one way or another takes a picture, and Shane gets outed before the draft. In the ensuing scandal, he goes seventh overall, to Ottawa.

    It turns out, having the worst thing you can think of happen to you when you're seventeen years old can end up being pretty liberating. And land you an unexpected best friend.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    Ilya refused to break his eye contact. He saw Shane’s anger, the fire behind his eyes, it was all too familiar. Shane continued talking, “I need you-” He pointed at Ilya, his hand just inches from Ilya’s face. Ilya flinched aggressively but refused to break eye contact.

    “Do it,” Ilya said through his teeth, cutting Shane off.

    Shane faltered, “What are…” his eyes scanned Ilyas face. Realization hit him like a truck. He quickly stumbled back away from his husband.

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    Shane doesn't realize how Ilyas PTSD affects him and takes a fight too far

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    12 Jun 2026

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    Ilya had told Shane to leave because they needed space - they needed some room to catch their breath so they could talk about things properly. So they could say sorry and fix the mess they had made. But one day apart stretched into two, into three, into a week, and suddenly Shane was on the other end of the phone, saying, ”Maybe this isn’t going to work, Ilya.”

    At least Ilya is good at that part; he’s an expert in being left behind.

     

    (Or, Ilya and Shane breakup. Then the Centaurs’ plane almost crashes.)

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    12 Jun 2026

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    Rose Landry’s iCloud account is compromised in a series of targeted hacks and her locked folders become a topic of intense discussion. And wait, is that Ilya Rozanov’s dog?

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    12 Jun 2026

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    In the beginning, suggesting Ilya move to Ottawa seemed to be a bridge over a previously unpassable body of water. It felt like a lifeline, a breath of air after drowning for years upon years. Maybe it was, at first. Shane got to have it all, everything he wanted. But despite his willingness to go along with whatever Shane wants, he can tell it’s been weighing on Ilya. He’d given up everything, and Shane can feel how lonely he is. He can see his bright eyes dimming, his laugh growing hollow; he’s withering away while Shane is emptying everything he has into a sport that can never love him back the way Ilya does.
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    Two years after Ilya moves to Ottawa, Shane decides he's worth more than anything Montreal can give him. He won't let Ilya be the only one who makes sacrifices for their relationship. But he doesn't know that Ilya has been struggling, secretly and in silence. And now the only question is if Shane is too late.
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    An alternative version of Shane changing teams and deciding to move to Ottawa willingly, on his own accord, without being outed. He and Ilya are honest with each other - but not before a bit of angst ensues.
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    12 Jun 2026

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    “Hey,” Hollander’s voice changes to something low and soft. He moves quickly, and Ilya realizes suddenly that Hollander is sitting right fucking next to him on the ground.

    “Rozanov, it’s okay. It’s okay.”

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov met at the Prospect Cup when they were seventeen. Ilya doesn't play in North America, he plays in Moscow. Five years later, Shane and Ilya reunite at the Sochi Olympics. Ilya is not doing well.

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    12 Jun 2026

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    What happens when Shane leaves post tuna meltdown? Ilya starts writing letters to “Jane”.

    What happens when Ilya’s cleaner finds a stack of letters and sends them out?

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    11 Jun 2026

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    After Ilya is injured during the All-Star game, Harris decides to throw him a surprise party.

    Unfortunately, no one tells Shane.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    It's 2018 and everything has been going right for Yuna Hollander. She has her family, her career, and Shane, well Shane seems the happiest he's ever been. She knows her son is keeping secrets from her, but she also knows that with Shane, she's just going to have to wait it out for when he's ready to speak up. But then she gets a phone call from the Ottawa Centaurs telling her that their new staring center, Ilya Rozenov is in the hospital with a concussion, and that she, of all people, is listed as his emergency contact.

    (tldr) alternative timeline where Shane and Ilya do not get caught by David in 2017. And for an entire year Shane hasn't been able to come out to his parents. Ilya gets a concussion, and Yuna gets a call.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    On June 17th, 2017, Ilya Rozanov is declared dead following the crash of Air Canada Flight 11040.

    On June 24th, he comes back to life.

    Shane spends the intervening week on a silent retreat, more or less.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    “Well, they had pretty good steak, but I don’t know if they’d have anything you would like,” Hayden says, and kicks off his shoes. He falls onto his bed with a contented sigh, then looks over at Shane, who hasn’t said anything yet. “Shane? You good?”

    Shane means to say he’s fine, but what comes out instead is: “Rose is having a baby.”

    Hayden sits up abruptly.

    “Whoa,” he says. “You’re serious?”

    “Yeah,” says Shane. “She just called me. She took three tests.”

    “Been there, brother,” says Hayden, his eyes wide. Shane puts his head in his hands again.

    ~

    A few weeks after Rose and Shane split up, Rose discovers that she's pregnant. Overwhelmed by the prospect of fatherhood, Shane puts off confronting Ilya about his feelings, and they never hook up at the All-Stars Game. They find their way back to each other anyway.

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    11 Jun 2026

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    What if David walked into the cottage unannounced and saw something much more embarrassing for everyone involved than kissing?

    Canon divergence set during their second summer together

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    10 Jun 2026

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    “Ya loobloo ty—” Shane tries to repeat the Russian phrase that Ilya has told him more than once in the last five minutes but Ilya cuts him off abruptly. 

    “I love you.” 

    The numbers on Shane’s heart monitor skyrocket, so much that Yuna is tempted to call a nurse, or maybe take the elevator to the roof and scream until her throat is raw because this can’t be the real world, this must be some weird, crazy dream her mind must have come up with after too much wine.

    Ya tebya lyublyu,” Ilya says again. “Means I love you.” 

    After Marlow’s hit, in his confused state, Shane begs the trainers to tell Ilya that he is okay but they think Shane wants Ilya to come to the hospital with him, so they get him. And Ilya… goes.

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    10 Jun 2026

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