16 Bookmarks by Jens_thread

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    “Why did you want me to meet you here today?” Shane asked. When he’d heard the request, he’d had the same thought as Jared. Was he trying to rub it in? One last chance to retaliate for a long ago rejection?

    Shane had almost made it to Rozanov’s room that night in the hotel in Toronto. But when the elevator doors opened, Shane’s feet had stayed glued to the ground.

    He’d been so afraid of ruining everything, only to have it ruined for him barely a year later.

     

    Shane does not hook up with Ilya in Toronto. Six years later, his hockey career is long over and he has found a new calling that puts his media training, and his pretty face, to good use.

    Consider this a remix of sorts.

     

    Content warnings: homophobia and associated use of slurs

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    25 May 2026

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    The team goes out afterward and drags Shane with them. He has to, objectively. It's a running tally in his head all the time: if I leave dinner thirty minutes early, I owe a night out. If I skip a night out, I owe brunch the next away game. The season is still young, and Shane wants to rack up his social savings before he gets truly tired and has to beg out of more than two things in a row. His phone buzzes in his pocket as he shrugs on his coat. They're going out in their pregame clothes, men with harsh faces and sharp bodies that know they look good because they are wearing money. Money makes the most broken nose look sexy in a violent sort of way, and the evening has an undercurrent of violence running through it from the start.

    The game was choppy, fast, mostly due to Shane and Ilya pushing the pace past what anyone was conditioned for this early in the season, and his teammates make him pay for it in chirps that cut a little. Shane doesn't mind it too much. He can handle the chirps about the hockey. That's a reflection of himself that is good and clean and known. He can't handle the ones directed at the unknown part of himself that swirls in his chest and bites back.

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    21 May 2026

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    After winning the cup two seasons in a row, Shane Hollander is inexplicably traded to a west coast team just two days before Montreal and Boston are to meet for the first time of the season. Shane reaches out, Ilya doesn't reply. Then Ilya reaches out, Shane ignores him.

    What now?

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    17 May 2026

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    ~And from your lips, he drew the Hallelujah

    Ilya Rozanov leaves Boston and signs with Ottawa, trying to fight a slow slide into emptiness and find meaning in his life again. Shane Hollander is a lonely, struggling artist who lost his spark. When they meet by chance, they both have to decide what's worth living for.

    Or…Shane never gets the chance to become a pro hockey player, so they meet a little later in life. Basically, they’re both sad boys, but the healing will be worth it. More baggage, fewer hangups.

    ~You see I used to live alone before I knew ya.

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    “So maybe we would have played together,” Ilya said.

    “Yeah. Maybe we would have been rivals,” Shane said, and that got a grin out of him. He couldn’t quite imagine it, but he thought that would have been fun, facing off against Ilya Rozanov. In another life.

    Ilya nodded slowly. “And yet here we are, meeting anyway. Maybe we were meant to.”

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    13 May 2026

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov fell in love in 2008. Just because their love story has to remain behind closed doors, doesn't mean they have to pretend it's not happening.

    a fix-it from the beginning, where they actually get their cute romance.

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    13 May 2026

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    "I'm calling it 'Adopt a Stray,'" Cliff announced, pacing the rug. "Tomorrow night. Boston vs. Montreal. We announce a new 'tradition.' We say that Boston has noticed that not every team is as close as ours. We say we’re looking for 'strays'—players who aren’t really accepted by their team, always seem an outcast, that need a little extra team bonding or whatever. And the first 'stray' we’re adopting? Is Shane Hollander."

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    13 May 2026

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    selbindery (on ao3 and instagram!) has fic bound this entire series and it is so, so wonderful, please go check out their beautiful work of art here:

    https://www.instagram.com/p/DWhgjfuFsVr/?igsh=MTlmbDBvbDBmMG55bQ==

    (fic binding is only ever acceptable for personal use! do not attempt to sell or monetize fanfiction!)

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    03 May 2026

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    Wiebe could tell he was wearing Ilya down, but he still looked nervous. "Ilya," Ilya stilled. To his team he was always Rozanov or Roz or Rozy, never Ilya. "You're our guy. There's nobody I'd rather be our captain, to lead this team to another Stanley Cup. It's clear you don't like the guy, but we both know how good this could be."

    Ilya jerked his head in a nod. "We will destroy everyone, this is true." Wiebe seemed satisfied. Ilya stood to leave and delivered one last look at Wiebe "But I do not have to be happy about it."

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    Shane and Ilya are estranged for years after Tuna Meltdown. Then Shane confuses everyone by signing with the Raiders.

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    29 Apr 2026

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    What if Shane Hollander got on his knees in a dirty club bathroom in LA, and got more than an orgasm out of it? What if he also made a friend who helped him stand up for himself?
    What if Ilya Rozanov had his very own pet dinosaur?
    What if Scott and Kip met differently?
    What if the queer NHL hockey players found each other sooner, and had each other's backs?
    What if they didn't have to navigate self-discovery, queer love, and homophobia on their own, and what if they all got to come out on their own terms?
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    A funny, sweet, and (briefly!) angsty story about unexpected connections and the power of queer friendship. Told through characters' POVs and text history.

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    28 Apr 2026

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    After coming out to Rose, Shane decides he doesn't want to lie anymore, even if he isn't sure coming out will mean he gets happily ever after with Ilya. When coming out to the Voyageurs leaves him wondering what his future in Montreal might look like, he lets himself be a little selfish, he lets himself wonder if there might be somewhere else he might be happy. If Montreal wants to get rid of a generational player, he's not about to stop them, especially if it means he can get a little closer to joy.

    --

    Or: Shane Hollander leaves Montreal in search of something better.

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    26 Apr 2026

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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov, love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    17 Apr 2026

  12. This has been deleted, sorry!

    07 Apr 2026

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    All my Hollanov fics in one place, unrelated unless clearly stated otherwise

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    29 Mar 2026

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    The queer NHL players (begrudgingly) unite via group chats in the face of social media scandals.

    These stories take place on a (slightly loose) chronological timeline and make the most sense when read in order. However, they're all independent stories/scandals and can be read as standalones.

    All stories take place post TLG and include spoilers for the books.

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    27 Mar 2026

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    Sometimes life came at you with a clenched fist and Ilya had never figured out how to duck.

    So here he was, twenty-eight years old, single, dealing with the fallout from injuries given to him by the game he loved, and the second youngest assistant coach in the league to one of the worst teams. Stability was hard to come by, but he was managing.

    Then along came Shane Hollander to knock him on his ass, one more time.

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    26 Mar 2026

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    Now that they've locked it down, they're learning just how low everyone's opinions are of their respective husband. They've got to face loving each other and healing when there's no one else to turn to.

    AKA, Ilya stop throwing punches every time someone insults your husband. Shane stop trying to blow people up with your mind.

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    20 Mar 2026

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