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    "Shane inhaled shakily. 'We failed her,' he whispered.

    Ilya shook his head, gently pulling Shane into his body. He cradled his head to his chest, gently playing with his hair. 'No. We made mistake,' he corrected."

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    shane and ilya's daughter gets her period.

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    28 Mar 2026

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    hollanov fics but we talk about bottom prep a bunch <3 yay <3

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    28 Mar 2026

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    Shane’s heart drops into his stomach. “Ilya,” he breathes. His vision goes blurry, throat tight. He tries to swallow it down and focus, shove his swirling thoughts into a neat little box, but it’s impossible. He feels—he might throw up, actually. “Are you seriously telling me you tried to fucking kill yourself?”

    “Yes,” Ilya agrees blandly, “It did not work.”

    Ilya calls Shane from the hospital. Shane handles it very normally.

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    27 Mar 2026

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    Somewhere behind him, Ilya hears his husband saying something. But the waves crashing loudly between his ears forbid him from being able to hear any of his words.

    All Ilya can hear are the thoughts hammering right into his brain. 

    Why would you do this?

    Why did you hurt him?

    Why did you enjoy hurting him?

     

    or; Ilya spanks Shane during sex. And then, he drops. Hard, fast, and like he never has before.

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    26 Mar 2026

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    'Shane turns to Ilya and frowns. “What?” Shane twists the condom in his hand, fiddling with the foil edges. “Hollander –“

    “What if we didn’t use this?” He bites down on his lip, his whole face a gorgeous shade of pink. “Like… we haven’t been with anyone else in months, right?” Ilya nods, his heart hammering in his chest. Is Shane serious? “We should be good… shouldn’t we?”'

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    AKA - Shane and Ilya have sex without a condom for the first time! :D

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    26 Mar 2026