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    With the first overall selection of the 2010 NHL draft, the New York Admirals are proud to select Shane Hollander.
     

    “Ah, New York! New York is nice, yes?”

    “Uh, yeah, I guess. I haven’t really spent much time there. Yet, I guess.”

    “I am also moving to New York.”

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    On the night of the NHL draft, Shane Hollander goes to the gym. Ilya Rozanov may not be a hockey player, but somehow he is there, in Shane’s orbit, in New York, under his skin.

    Or, how more proximity can turn a fuck buddy into a best friend, but falling in love is always hard.

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    30 Aug 2026

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    “I cannot talk about this anymore,” Ilya says. Hiccups. “Unless you have read somewhere there’s a magical sex position that cures hiccups, I—”

    Shane makes an interesting sound. Ilya’s head snaps up. Shane is making intense eye contact with the wall next to them, and he’s pink - pinker than he would usually be from being pressed against a door and kissed. And, crucially, he’s gone rock hard against Ilya’s thigh. Ilya is fucking delighted.

    Hollander,” he says. Thrilled. “There is a sex position that cures hiccups?”

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    Ilya Rozanov gets fingered.

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    28 Aug 2026

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    I love the premise of this story, and it's very hot and thoughtfully characterized

  3. Public Bookmark 94

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    Of course, Shane wished that he was the one still playing right now. Obviously, he would shove his own mother out of the way to trade places with Ilya on the ice, and Mom would dust herself off and tell Shane to go get 'em. But of all the ways that everything could have ended up, this wasn't so bad.

    After getting eliminated in the first round by Ottawa, Shane goes to Centaurs/Admirals Game 3. But first he has to contend with sorting through his baseball cap collection, ignoring Hayden's thoughts on WAG jackets and the part where Tanner Dillon doesn't know how to get pucks in the net.

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    27 Aug 2026

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    Shane has a scar on his left shoulder. It’s small, barely an inch of raised skin. It isn’t recent. In fact, it is very old – Shane has had it as long as Ilya has known him.

    Ilya can't help but wonder how Shane got this scar. And why it haunts him so deeply that he can't talk about it. Not even to Ilya.

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    24 Aug 2026

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    “I can’t tell you anything.”

    ”Oh, come on!” She whined and Shane couldn’t help but laugh. “When have you ever been able to talk to a friend about the hot guy you’re seeing?”

    ”We’re not see—“

    ”Or not seeing.” He could practically hear her eyes rolling. “Semantics. Answer the question.”

    ”Never. Obviously.”

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    Ilya is finally at the cottage. He’s beautiful in the mornings. He scratches his tummy when he’s sleepy. Shane is so enamored and he needs someone to know. So what if that text message Shane received from Rose wasn’t the only one?

    Moments at the cottage you missed, the text messages Shane sends about a mystery guy to the only other person who knows he’s gay, and the one text he sends to the wrong person by accident.

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    23 Aug 2026

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    Ilya and Shane host a party for the start of this year’s Irina Foundation camp.

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    “The man doesn’t have any shame, that’s the thing." Marly grins, arm draped over Roz’s shoulders. “Therefore, it can’t be done. Rozy can’t be embarrassed. My money is safe.”

    “Nobody has ever won? Really?” Shane asks, smiling.

    Roz stares across at his husband then shrugs. “You are bluffing. Is fine, go ahead. There is nothing anyway, you can’t win.”

    “Well, I was just thinking,” Hollander says, “that the guys might be interested to hear that you...have a type?” Marly could swear Shane’s eyes glanced in the direction of Scott Hunter. Could swear too that Roz tracked the movement.

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    Shane gets competitive. Scott Hunter learns more than he bargained for. Marly is determined to be a really fucking good bro.

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    21 Aug 2026

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    Very entertaining

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    Ilya does not plan to warn Shane because as much as this is about providing a weird, but thoughtful, gesture, he is also doing this to mess with Shane.

    No heads up, just a box showing up at his door addressed to Jane [NoLastName] from Lily <3.

    Ilya waits, follows his routine and Shane's calendar, and tries not to give anything away. The date of delivery was listed as five days after purchase, but Ilya gets a text three days after that sends him into a fit of giggles.

    My Jane: What the hell is this?
     

    or a 5+1 crack fic

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    19 Aug 2026

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    Very fun

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    "Sometimes I really don't understand you two," Scott says. And Ilya thinks, well, of course not. No one ever does. 

    During Ilya and Shane's second season together in Ottawa, Shane stays home with a separated shoulder and Ilya goes on a road trip. There's a misunderstanding about Medusa, the stripper that Ilya put through nursing school, a lifetime contract with gay and a rookie with a secret. All that, plus Scott Hunter wants relationship advice.

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    19 Aug 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Thoughtful and entertaining and fun with just a tinge of bittersweet Ilya introspection.

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    It starts—like most things in his life, apparently—with Rose Landry. More specifically, it starts with Rose Landry drunkenly informing him that Shane was actually, really, really good in bed (for a gay ex-boyfriend, that is).

    This is information Ilya did not expect to receive from her of all people. Unfortunately, now he can't stop thinking about it.

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    Or, Five Times Ilya Rozanov Thinks About Getting Railed and One Time Shane Put Him Through a Mattress

    IT'S BOTTOM ILYA, FOLKS.

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    18 Aug 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    An instant favorite in the bottom!Ilya genre. I don't need convincing, but for bottom!Ilya/top!Shane skeptics, I feel like the switch is really well earned in this story. Also it's very hot and fun and thoughtful.

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    to celebrate their first wedding anniversary, Shane gives Ilya the most dangerous gift imaginable: for the next twenty-four hours, Shane's answer to every request will be...

    YES.

    the first few requests are exactly what Shane expected.

    the others...

    not so much.

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    16 Aug 2026

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    Michael Zhang makes his palms itchy, the back of his neck clammy and cold. The world’s going to be hard on you, he thinks, and watches the kid watch the floor, his mouth flooding with the bitter metallic taste of blood before he realizes he’s bitten down. Learn to take a hit already. He feels a kind of repulsion that he doesn’t want to be feeling, a part of him that instinctually wants to flinch away, like you would from something old, or sick.

    This is what it's like, seeing your reflection.

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    16 Aug 2026

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    In an AU where Shane joins the Montreal Metros the same year he's drafted, Ilya stays in Russia and Shane is pretty pissed off about it. He's released to go to the 2010 World Junior Championships in Helsinki, Finland because he wants his rematch, damn it, and because he wants to try to convince his rival to get to the MLH as soon as possible and make things interesting.

    When Shane discovers Ilya may not have stayed in Russia of his own free will, he puts together a crack team of idiot teenagers international hockey players to achieve one goal: get Ilya Rozanov to Boston.

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    15 Aug 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Highly entertaining and thoughtful romp. Shane is young, determined, and ready to accomplish his very specific goal. Great story for seeing Shane's leadership style in some high stakes shenanigans. Ilya's attitude toward Shane evolves over the course of the story, from absolutely closed off and angry, to cautiously open, to willing to follow him anywhere.

    Great cast of characters, very fun with just enough suspense, tension, and sweetness.

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    Ilya goes through maybe the worst twenty-four hours of his life.

    Then he does it again.

    Or: instead of Shane's canon injury, there's a time loop.

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    14 Aug 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Another great take on the time loop

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    When I set out to write an article about the complicated history of bisexual men in sports I thought my research would take me all over the place, to different leagues, generations, cities. I was prepared to spend my time cobbling together stories to create a mosaic of an experience that not many people are willing to talk about. I thought I’d have to really get deep in the weeds with my editor to make this the kind of story that anyone was willing to print. Instead, I spent most of my time in Ottawa, of all places, because when it comes to bi athletes, all roads lead to Ilya Rozanov. 

    (ilya rozanov and the gay magazine profile he so dearly deserves)

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    13 Aug 2026

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    Simulacrum (n.) /sɪm yəˈleɪ krəm/ ​​"an object possessing merely the form or appearance of a certain thing, without possessing its substance or proper qualities; a specious imitation or likeness.”

    Or, Ilya finds out.

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    13 Aug 2026

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    “I do love you, you fucking weirdo,” Shane says. He pulls back in time to see Ilya’s lip quiver a little, and he blinks, alarmed. “What? Are you okay?”

    “Yes,” Ilya says immediately, and he swallows and looks down, almost like he’s nervous. “Shanya, I love you so much it feels like it must always have been true. That I have loved you my whole life.”

    He says the words with such solemnity, slow and perfect. He never calls Shane Shanya unless he’s feeling particularly tender, vulnerable, broken open. It is a name saved for the very good days and also the very bad ones. For a moment, Shane’s brain stalls out, hunting through his mental calendar. It’s not their anniversary…

    “Sometimes I feel that way too,” he says gently. “You’ve always been… I don’t know. I don’t know who I am without you being such a big part of things. Since the start.”

    “Most of our lives,” Ilya says, and his smile widens into a proper grin. “I made calendar reminder to tell me. It went off this morning when you were in the shower. Today is the day.”

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    12 Aug 2026

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    Sometimes you want to read something unbearably sweet, and here it is.

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    He was playing the game of trying to imagine what the headlines would say.

    Shane Hollander V. Tyler Bratchen In Shocking Fist Fight!

    Has Hollander finally lost his cool? Read more.

    Tempers fly in downtown Montreal between these two NHL players 👀

    He’d managed to dodge scandals for years because he just…didn’t do anything scandalous. Aside from being in love with Ilya Rozanov, which he supposed was ironic. His first negative public debacle, all because one idiot couldn’t keep Ilya’s name out of his mouth. Funny how things worked now.

    Or: a measure of Shane’s devotion, seen through a very public, very messy bar brawl.

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    12 Aug 2026

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    Ilya's father wakes him at four in the morning to tell him that he never had dementia, and that Ilya must leave Russia, right now, permanently. Forty-something hours later Ilya is standing in a township office in rural Ontario, marrying Shane Hollander for citizenship. Everything after that — the lawyer, the joint account, the wills, the drive up to the cottage — was never part of the plan.

    Alternatively: In the summer of 2016, Ilya must flee Russia, never to return. Shane makes a brilliant plan: marry Ilya to get him Canadian citizenship. It’s only after the wedding that they realize citizenship law doesn’t really work that way.

    Alternatively x 2: My inversion of the “married for citizenship” trope.

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    11 Aug 2026

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    When Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollanders’ eyes meet for the first time in Saskatchewan, they realize they can hear each others’ thoughts. Unfortunately they are both still deeply emotionally repressed and think in different languages, so the events of Heated Rivalry ensue anyway.

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    10 Aug 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov is many things—a pain in Shane Hollander’s ass, hockey’s biggest playboy, a better chirper in his second language than most people are in their first, the only player who can challenge Shane for the title of “best of his generation.” But when Shane and Ilya get stuck next to each other on a long-delayed flight to the MLH Awards, Shane realizes something else about him: Ilya Rozanov is hot.

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    Shane and Ilya never hooked up at the CCM shoot. Seven years later, they end up on the same flight from New York City to Las Vegas.

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    08 Aug 2026

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