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    “Who are you talking to?” Sveta is looking with a raised eyebrow, at Ilya’s delighted face.

    “Ah, I am talking to my catfish.”

    “What do you mean, your catfish?” Ilya angles the phone so Sveta can see the shirtless picture on the screen.

    “This guy is pretending to be Shane Hollander on Grindr. It’s pretty funny. He’s cropped the face out, but he’s using pictures from the billboard next to my apartment.”

    Or: Ilya Rozanov is sure he's being catfished- why would the real Shane Hollander be on Grindr, talking to random university of Ottawa students? But the more he talks to Wayne, the more he starts to like him, and the more he wishes Wayne would just come clean so they can finally be together.

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    27 Jun 2026

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    He figures Ilya would be pretty surprised if he showed up to his house out of the blue. Surprised enough to be put off, probably. Shane is way too bad of a liar to think of any plausible excuse. If this is really happening, if Shane is actually by some miracle getting another shot at this, then he’s going to have to play this smart. His impatience to see Ilya again will have to be tempered. He’s not sure how time travel works, but he has the sneaking suspicion that one wrong move could unravel everything.

    Ilya is alive.

    Just the thought of it is enough to make Shane crack his first smile in a year.

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    AU in which Ilya dies in the Centaurs' plane crash. A year later, careless with grief, Shane drives his car into a blizzard and wakes up in Boston, in 2016. When faced with the opportunity to do it right this time, and keep Ilya for good, Shane knows that every decision he makes will be crucial. It's terrifying, but Ilya once told him that he's brave. Now it's up to Shane to prove it.

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    18 Jun 2026

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    "I think we should start gaslighting everyone.” Shane looks at Ilya to see his reaction.

    “I don’t understand.”

    “No statements, no plans, of course we’re still doing the charity, but let’s just act like we already came out to everyone.”

    Ilya smirks. “Gaslight them?” Shane nods.

     

    or Shane comes up with the idea of gaslighting everyone into thinking they already came out. Ilya and Shane proceed to go out to lunch, and go on first dates slowly gaslighting their friends and the world.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    Ilya Rozanov-Hollander woke up on the sixth anniversary of the day he told his husband he loved him for the first time, and thought: I want Shane to fuck me.

    Shane, tucked under his arm and snoring softly into his armpit, warbled on unaware.

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    01 Jun 2026

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    At twenty-five, Shane works from home in cyber security. He gets all his groceries delivered. He avoids the outside world whenever possible. Finally—finally—he caves to his parents’ insistence that it’s time to purchase an omega.

    Ilya is supposed to be difficult. That’s what the auction house warned him, anyway. They aren’t wrong. Between the language barrier, the violent mood swings, incessant noise, and feral behaviors, Ilya is nothing like the obedient omegas Shane is raised to expect. Half the time, Shane can’t tell if the man hates him, fears him, or is losing his damn mind. Probably all of them, all the time. The other half of the time, Ilya watches him like he’s waiting for Shane to spring a trap. News flash: there isn’t one.

    Shane doesn't have any inkling of what he’s doing. He’s never shared space with another human being before. Let alone an omega who doesn't understand personal space. As the walls crack between them, Shane notices things he never questioned before. He realizes there is something deeply troubling in the world he grew up in.

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    27 May 2026

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    "As long as you want. It's your birthday after all."

    "And what if you're, like, doing something?"

    "Well, lyubov, I don't really have plans of doing anything except making it the best day ever," Ilya laughed. "But if I am busy... it doesn't matter. It's your gift – you get to decide when to use it."

    "Oh," is all Shane said again.

    Ilya's gift to Shane this year is himself. He really shouldn't have been so surprised that Shane would go above and beyond to make it his best birthday yet.

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    12 May 2026

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    “Mr. Hollander.” Ilya swallows. “Is a pleasure to meet you, sir.” Pleasure is an understatement, but he can’t parse through English definitions fast enough to find a better word.
    “Congratulations.” Mr. Hollander holds up his glass and nods towards Ilya. “No one deserves it more than you, kid. Your work ethic…” Mr. Hollander shakes his head, eyebrows raised, and lets out a low whistle. “You’re hungry. It’s impressive.”

    Ilya Rozanov is the best damn rookie the NHL has ever seen. Shane Hollander, captain of the Metros and three-time Stanley Cup winner with over 700 career goals (not that Ilya is counting, thank you very much), just wants to help him celebrate.

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    18 Mar 2026

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    ”Shane Hollander of the Montreal Metros has been accused of homophobia after making an insensitive joke regarding gay marriage. This is especially hurtful due to its timing — following a shutout game against the New York Admirals, where Captain Scott Hunter resides as the only openly gay player in the MLH. Our insider source confirms this is not the first time Hollander has expressed his negative opinion on the LGBT+ community.
    Our team has reached out to Hollander’s representative staff and is awaiting a response.”

     
    Or: Five times Hollanov tries to come out only for nobody to believe them, and one time it sticks.

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    14 Mar 2026

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    “You are not… hole. You are” Ilya gestures emphatically to encompass Shane and his entire body “You are… whole!” He frowns. “English is stupid.”

    They’ve tried virtually everything together at this point, or at least everything they care to try, and it’s all been good, great, bordering on perfect, so why does this feel different?

     

    Or, musings on the social significance of sexual roles, internalized homophobia/misogyny, and Ilya’s perfect butt.

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    02 Mar 2026

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    Worried about how much of a sensitive ‘quick shot’ he is—and convinced he’s not satisfying Ilya enough—Shane turns to the internet for advice. He tries repeatedly to stave off his orgasms: squeezing himself, thinking about taxes, even telling a confused Ilya to slow down during sex. It’s inevitable, though, that he still ends up coming helplessly all over himself.

    He eventually has to explain his insecurity to Ilya who condescendingly agrees with him and indulges Shane by:

    1. Making him wear a cock ring, and
    2. Letting a determined Shane control the pace—cooing at him while he slowly rides him—and later mocking him for still having no self control as he rams up into him

    Shane thinks he cums too fast. Ilya knows he can make it faster.

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    26 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander is inexperienced when it comes to dating men. He's been out for a while and wants to build his confidence, so he meets up with Ilya, an escort, per a friend's recommendation. Ilya is an excellent teacher and all the things Shane could want in a man, but this is Ilya's job. Shane needs to decide what to do about the feelings he has for Ilya; stick things out and ultimately get his heart broken or break it off now before he gets in too deep.

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    16 Feb 2026

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    Married Shane woke up to rookie Ilya by his side... Good thing it's off-season and they had time to figure this out. Rookie Ilya learned more about his career, his relationship, his future husband and his body, and got a little jealous of his future self. Shane's a happily married freak who rode rookie Ilya till he cried and gave him his first proper aftercare. Sexual tension and smut with feelingsss
    Part 2 (married Ilya & rookie Shane) and Part 3 (rookies post time travel) both posted!!

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    04 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander is a confident dancer at a club that's gotten darker since Ilya Rozanov bought it three months ago however Shane thrives on the edge.

    What he doesn't notice is that his new boss is completely obsessed with him.

    Ilya tests the waters methodically: coffee ordered just to watch Shane work, conversations that linger too long, gifts chosen with unsettling precision. Shane interprets it all as the mark of a meticulous employer. It takes threats, violence, and Hayden spelling it out in brutal detail before Shane finally understands: Ilya doesn't want his labor.

    He wants him.

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    27 Jan 2026

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    Ilya finds himself Friday afternoon walking across campus to the giant building he’s probably been in twice during the last three years. He’s lucky he even remembers the way. He goes straight to the elevator and presses the button for the quiet study floor that he recognized from the pictures and waits, impatiently. When the doors open and he sees Shane Hollander sitting alone, Ilya almost cheers and pats himself on the back. He might be a genius. He psyches himself up and walks to the table. He’s ready to turn up his charm and ask Shane if he can sit down next to him, and then maybe to coffee, or dinner, or to his bedroom.

    This is where things start going wrong.

    or - Ilya experiences love at first sight but fumbles his way through seducing campus nerd Shane Hollander

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    24 Jan 2026

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    Shane Hollander is just trying to survive NYU biochemistry, hockey practice, and the graveyard shift at 7-Eleven. He's too exhausted to notice that his new regular customer is Russian mafia, or that Ilya's interest in him goes beyond terrible coffee and cookies.

    When Ilya hands him a $10,000 designer scarf and matching gloves, Shane doesn't panic. He sells them for next month's rent. Any normal person would be terrified. Instead, Shane uses the leftover money to buy a Hello Kitty watch, pastel pink, childish, utterly incongruous with the danger circling him. He wears it to his next night shift without irony or apology.

    Ilya notices immediately. He is fascinated.

    (Currently under major editing. Can still be read.)

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    24 Jan 2026

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    “Shane…”

    “Who the fuck do you think you’re calling Shane?”

    “Sweetheart,” Ilya corrects, tilting his head down against Shane’s grip on his hair to try to catch his lips. “Please.”

    “I can do everything she can,” Shane says. “But you’ve been a bit too naughty today. I’m tying you up first.”

    “Oh, no,” Ilya says, voice going high and breathy. “That’s terrible.”

    Or - The jealous Shane/pathetic top Ilya fic where Shane makes Ilya beg for it

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    23 Jan 2026

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    “Ilya,” he clarified, wincing as he swallowed, his throat feeling like he’d eaten a fistful of glass. “I need to call Ilya.”

    He fumbled around for his phone, desperately needing to hear his fiance’s voice. Together, they could figure this out. They’d make a plan. Ilya could drive with his parents from Ottawa and–

    But Ilya wasn’t in Ottawa. He was in Russia.

    No.

    No.

    They’d kill Ilya in Russia. They’d kill him, or arrest him, or– or–

    Oh god, they’d kill him.
    __________________________________________________________________________

    A family emergency means Ilya is in Russia when Hayden's FanMail video ends up on Twitter, outing them to the entire world. It, predictably, ends horribly.

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    18 Jan 2026

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    'This is what happens when the social media manager for the Ottawa Centaurs just finished rewatching the entirety of The Office for the 3rd time'

    “What a fucking nerd,” Ilya laughed, his eyes following Shane across the ice. The camera swung between them before eventually landing back on Ilya.

    “I want to eat him,”

    Luca blinked at him, horror slowly etching onto his face.

    “Like...sexually or...literally?

    Behind the camera, Harris cleared his throat to remind them of his presence. Ilya’s eyes never left Shane, who was still berating Troy by citing some charts from his clipboard.

    “Yes,” 

    Haas looked into the camera in utter fear.

    Alternatively, The Office Fic

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    17 Jan 2026

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    “If I didn’t know better,” Ilya had drawled, mostly teasing, as Shane pressed adoring, apologetic kisses into his shoulder, after a hard night out a few months back. “I’d think you were embarrassed to be with me. A first for me. I will try not to let it wound my pride.”

    “You’re pride is fine,” Shane griped out of habit and then had nuzzled closer, held Ilya tighter because he hated that he could make Ilya feel that way. “I’m sorry. I know I do it. It’s hard for me after so long. I love you so much, it scares me shitless sometimes.”

    Shane's working on letting go of the control that's kept him and Ilya safe for the past ten years. The fact that he's Shane Hollander means that he's got a plan. The fact that he's with Ilya Rozanov means that plan involves fucking him stupid. And for once, Shane's kind of ready to be the one who drives Ilya out of his mind.

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    16 Jan 2026

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    Lily: How many times can you come in an hour?

    Shane doesn’t know. But he’s happy to test it.

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    15 Jan 2026

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