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    Sequel to Breathing Room

    Ilya Rozanov has spent five years holding Shane Hollander at arm’s length - not because he didn’t love him, but because he loved him too much to ask him to risk everything for something that could fall apart. He was good at that: the careful distance, the walls that looked like indifference, the way he’d learned to be close without being close. He’d had a lot of practice.

    What he didn’t have practice for was what came after he was done lying to himself. He didn’t have practice for this - for something warm and bright and absolutely terrifying. Something that fits in the spaces between games and cities and the distance between Boston and Raleigh. Something that makes Ilya think, for the first time in a long time, that maybe the risk is worth it.

    He just needs to figure out what to do with it all before their careers swallow them whole

    He doesn’t get the chance to think about it for very long.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander just wants junior year to be simple...win hockey games and maintain his gpa. Maybe finally try to date someone new. When a mysterious invitation shows up in his apartment, and Ilya Rozanov shows up across the hall, all his plans go out the window.

    Or…Shane and Ilya are contentious college hockey teammates in New Orleans who end up living across the hall from each other and things get mysterious and *very* horny.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    Shane Hollander is on vacation.

    This is, objectively, a great idea. There is sun. There is a private villa. There is Luca, who fits into Shane’s life with the ease of something long-established. Brotherly, familiar, and currently eyeing the entire resort like it’s a personal challenge.

    There is also Ilya Rozanov.

    This was not mentioned. This was not in the plan.

    It’s fine. They’re fine. They’ve always been fine. Years later, different lives, perfectly capable of sharing a beach, a drink, and conversation that slips a little too easily into something familiar.

    Fine enough not to think about it.

    Around them, things stay uncomplicated. Luca is already making decisions Shane will have to deal with later. Marley is encouraging him. Svetlana is watching like she already knows how this ends.

    And Shane, who is absolutely, completely fine, starts to realize something mildly inconvenient:

    nothing else ever really measured up.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    ~And from your lips, he drew the Hallelujah

    Ilya Rozanov leaves Boston and signs with Ottawa, trying to fight a slow slide into emptiness and find meaning in his life again. Shane Hollander is a lonely, struggling artist who lost his spark. When they meet by chance, they both have to decide what's worth living for.

    Or…Shane never gets the chance to become a pro hockey player, so they meet a little later in life. Basically, they’re both sad boys, but the healing will be worth it. More baggage, fewer hangups.

    ~You see I used to live alone before I knew ya.

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    “So maybe we would have played together,” Ilya said.

    “Yeah. Maybe we would have been rivals,” Shane said, and that got a grin out of him. He couldn’t quite imagine it, but he thought that would have been fun, facing off against Ilya Rozanov. In another life.

    Ilya nodded slowly. “And yet here we are, meeting anyway. Maybe we were meant to.”

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    08 Jun 2026

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    After the Tuna Melt Incident, Shane and Ilya gradually started drifting apart. Texts became more scarce, hook-ups less frequent and feelings pushed aside until, in the moment of absolute panic, Shane ghosted Ilya fully.

    Now, three years later, Shane Hollander and Rose Landry are engaged. Shane's life finally seems to be going in the right direction. No distractions, great girl, lots of hockey.

    And then the new season starts and trades between teams happen.
    And Ilya Rozanov, whom Shane promised himself to forget, is suddenly on the same team.
    And, worst of all, he becomes the Alternate Captain.

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    05 Jun 2026