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  1. Public Bookmark 44

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    Ilya’s bisexuality and various conquests have always been an immense source of insecurity for Shane, regardless of their current relationship status.

    At the start of the season Ilya’s new team, the Ottawa Centaurs hire a social media and strategic initiatives manager. She’s a complicated individual, living her life in the gray area between right and wrong, and her reckless and borderline sociopathic behavior often wreaks havoc on those around her.

    Driven by mixed motivations she’s focusing on the guarded Russian and she’s doing nothing to hid it - Ilya has never encountered someone like her, and he’s finding himself irrevocably captivated by her.

    Heartbreak is often inevitable in life, not everyone gets a happy ending – not every love is meant to survive. And often there is an extreme personal cost when you covet someone that you really shouldn’t and abandon the one who loves you most.

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    03 May 2026

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    Shrugging one shoulder far more casually than he possibly feels, Ilya says, “I like both. Is secret, okay?”

    “Okay,” Hollander says, voice cracking.

    He doesn’t say anything else. The air’s so heavy around them that it feels like being in the middle of a scrum, the weight and heat of all those bodies pressing down on you. Danger always feels like hockey; it’s the most dangerous thing Ilya knows, except for this. Everything dangerous in his life involves men’s bodies and just how close he can get to them. Closer than he probably should.

    A year after mysteriously dropping out of the 2009 draft, Shane Hollander is signed by the Boston Raiders, right behind Ilya Rozanov. Having the two biggest stars in the league on the same line is great for Boston — but playing alongside their worst rival was never exactly in Shane or Ilya's plans. Especially not when staying away from each other starts to feel just as impossible as getting along.

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    28/28
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    29 Apr 2026

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    2014: Ilya Rozanov shocks the world and breaks Shane Hollander’s heart by disappearing without explanation, and without a goodbye kiss.

    2024: A devastating injury forces Shane to retire early, so he moves to a small town to coach girls hockey and figure out what the hell to do with the rest of his life.

    When recently divorced Ilya Rozanov walks into the rink with his twin girls, Shane has to decide if he’s brave enough to risk a second chance on a broken heart, and a rekindled romance with the first and only boy he ever loved.

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    “So.” Ilya cleared his throat. “Should we tell the girls their Papa and their coach used to date?”

    “We didn’t date. We hooked up a few times, then you disappeared.” Shane looked away to hide his heartbreak as he lied, “It doesn’t even matter. It’s not like I loved you or anything.”

    “No, of course not.” Ilya tried to smile through a lie of his own, “I didn’t love you either.”

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    15/?
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    27 Apr 2026

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    The Toronto Guardians trade Troy Barrett one game into the season to the Ottawa Centaurs.

    Troy's new team hates him, and his new captain, Ilya Rozanov, has no interest in him. However, when Ilya realizes that Troy barely talks and has been struggling on the ice for weeks, he begins to investigate. But the more Ilya learns about Troy and the Toronto team, the worse it gets for Troy.

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    26/?
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    26 Apr 2026

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    When Rose asks to come over the second week they are in the cottage, Shane and Ilya have no idea how much their lives are going to change. For better or for worse... that's for them to decide.

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    “You said both times were terrible.” Here, Ilya side-eyes Rose, “No offence.”

    She snorts, “None taken.”

    “Then how did you say… make baby?”

    They both look at Shane, who fidgets under their gazes. He splutters. He sighs. He runs his hand through his hair. Then, he sighs again.

    “The first time when I managed… to…” He talks to the cushion in his lap as he says this, “I was thinking of Ilya. It worked too well, I guess.”

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    22 Apr 2026

  6. Public Bookmark 26

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    In 2015 Ilya Rozanov is injured badly enough that it ends his career. In 2016 his brother and his wife die in a car crash, leaving behind their four year old daughter Maria. Since Ilya is the only remaining relative capable of caring for his niece, he takes her under his wing and tries to raise her to the best of his ability. His situationship with Shane Hollander ended when his career did, but with the little girl now in his care Ilya didn’t have the time to be hung up about it. Mostly.

    In 2016 Shane Hollander makes peace with the fact that he will never hear from Ilya Rozanov again. At least that’s what he tells himself.

    In 2019, Ilya Rozanov enrolls his niece at a hockey summer camp for kids. Unbeknownst to him, it is the same hockey camp Shane Hollander is set to coach at.

    Neither of them expects to ever see the other again. But what happens if they do?

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    3/?
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    20 Apr 2026

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    After the Tuna Melt Incident, Shane and Ilya gradually started drifting apart. Texts became more scarce, hook-ups less frequent and feelings pushed aside until, in the moment of absolute panic, Shane ghosted Ilya fully.

    Now, three years later, Shane Hollander and Rose Landry are engaged. Shane's life finally seems to be going in the right direction. No distractions, great girl, lots of hockey.

    And then the new season starts and trades between teams happen.
    And Ilya Rozanov, whom Shane promised himself to forget, is suddenly on the same team.
    And, worst of all, he becomes the Alternate Captain.

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    28/?
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    18 Apr 2026

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    shane gets outed by a sports news paper reporter. what will happen, how will people take it, how will he take it.

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    22/?
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    16 Apr 2026

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    Shane Hollander, hockey enthusiast and licensed massage therapist, is an expert in helping athletes keep their bodies in tip-top shape. Working with the Boston Raiders should've been his career milestone.

    One Ilya Rozanov makes things much, much more complicated. Relentless on the ice and unreadable everywhere else, Ilya unsettles Shane in ways that have nothing to do with hockey and everything to do with proximity, restraint, and the dangerous pull of something unspoken.

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    Shane is a sports therapist that starts working with the Boston Raiders.

    Strong hands shifted to the back of Shane’s head, to the nape of his neck. That’s when time began to blur, seconds melting together until they barely existed at all. That’s when Rozanov leaned in – and when Shane followed. Like the strike of flint against wood. They existed in that moment, and in the wildfire that followed.

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    14/?
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    10 Apr 2026

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    I think I will run until I am too exhausted to panic. Then, and only then, will I go to the hotel. I’ll tell Hayden I was working out, overdid it a bit, then shower and go to sleep. I’ll delete Il–Rozanov’s–number, find a nice girl to date…It will be fine. It will be just. Fucking. Fine.

    That’s the last thought I have before I feel a flash of pain, and then darkness.

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    Or: After running away from tuna melts and an uncomfortable level of vulnerability, Shane is hit by a car. A targeted hit-and-run by a Boston fan leaves Ilya alone to face the prospect of coming out to their teams, the MLH, and Shane’s family.

    Ilya will do anything to be by Shane’s bedside.

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    16/?
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    09 Apr 2026

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    “Maybe love is not enough anymore Shane … I am tired”

    “What do you mean ?”

    “I think we need a break to think about what we want ...”
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    But his eyes snapped open when a picture of his ex-boyfriend, Ilya Rozanov got onto the news. Shane blinked hard, maybe he was hallucinating. But no it was Ilya's face. He was involved in a car accident earlier this morning.
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    Or : Ilya and Shane broke up 9 months ago. Shane has a new boyfriend. But Ilya got injured. Shane need to see if he is fine.

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    Chapters:
    13/13
    Comments:
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    24,822

    09 Apr 2026

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    "Do you ever wonder-"

    "Oh god, yes," Ilya blurts out before he can even register the words leaving his lips. "Literally all the time."

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    AU where Ilya does cut things off before the cottage and Shane lets him.

    He watches Shane’s life and career from a safe distance, secretly looking forward to any games when they’d share the ice.

    Years on, Shane publicly comes out and transfers to the Ottawa Centaurs out of necessity.

    A story of repair. Eventually.

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    Chapters:
    20/20
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    07 Apr 2026

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    The first note was recorded at 2:13 a.m. in a Boston kitchen, three nights after Las Vegas. Ilya told himself it was a one-time thing.
    He made a second one the next evening.
    This is the archive of everything Ilya Rozanov said to Shane Hollander in a language Shane doesn't speak, in files Shane was never supposed to hear... and what happens when one of them finally gets sent.

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    Chapters:
    7/7
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    609
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    2,027
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    564
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    32,966

    07 Apr 2026

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    They think Ilya did this to Shane and are trying to rip him away, but what they apparently don’t know – or don’t care about – is that Ilya is only protecting Shane, holding his head away from the ruthless cold of the ice and pressing a firm hand over the cut on Shane’s face trying desperately to staunch the bleeding.

    There’s so much blood.

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    Chapters:
    9/9
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    68
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    935
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    23,233

    06 Apr 2026

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    Shane gets a call that would change his life after practice. He subsequently goes on leave for a couple of weeks. He has a secret. What id he going to do?

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    Shane become a single dad one day after practice and Ilya becomes kind of obsessed with both of them.

     

    (Takes place in like 2013, Shane and Ilya are 22.)

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    Chapters:
    19/19
    Comments:
    241
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    06 Apr 2026

  16. Public Bookmark 79

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    Photos of Shane and Ilya are posted earlier in their career and everyone is wondering why the two rivals are together after a game. Que the commissioner calling saying that he doesn't care what they're doing but they need to be smart and crush any rumors that could "ruin their careers". Shane, still not comfortable with his sexuality, agrees, and Ilya goes along with it because he cares about Shane and, well Russia.

    The two go on their separate ways not talking outside of chirping on the ice and in interviews. Ilya still transfers to Ottawa because he wants to start new after leaving Russia behind following his father's passing.

    Shane continues to hide himself and is playing hard for Montreal to avoid his problems- to avoid thinking about Ilya. That's until he takes a hit on the ice that changes everything. His career is over and all Shane wants is more time.

    Shane is wallowing in his own pity when Ottawa calls. They want him to help coach the team. The only problem is that's where Ilya Rozanov is and Shane never stopped loving him.

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    Chapters:
    9/?
    Comments:
    23
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    79
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    7,467

    04 Apr 2026

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    Spoilers for The Long Game. Post-Canon.

    The start of Ottawa's season feels like a promise. Ilya finally has all the people he loves in one place, a team that can keep up with him, the whole world knows he and Shane love each other, and they have the sweetest, most perfect dog. So why is he so nervous about their first game against Montreal?

    AKA Protective Ilya Rozanov momentarily forgets his husband is still the hockey prodigy he fell in love with at first freckle in Saskatchewan.

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    Words:
    31,496
    Chapters:
    4/4
    Comments:
    849
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    11,685
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    3,728
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    04 Apr 2026

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    04 Apr 2026

  19. Public Bookmark 39

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    “Ilya, your phone,” Shane mumbled into Ilya’s chest.

    “It’s fine, if it’s important, they’ll call back” he replied as he snoozed his phone. Ilya turned back over and smothered kisses on his husband’s face.

    “Rozanov, answer your goddamn phone,” Shane protested.

    “Or what Hollander, you’ll divorce me? Really?” he said as he turned over to grab his phone. Shane hit his arm and then peered over his shoulder kissing behind his ear. Ilya grabbed his phone while looking at the caller id. He froze.

    “Sveta? Chto sluchilos'?” Ilya asked.

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    Or: How Ilya and Shane started their family.

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    Chapters:
    7/10
    Comments:
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    5,169

    03 Apr 2026

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    “What’s going on?”
    Sveta took a breath, and he knew her well enough to picture her expression: head bowed, eyes closed, one hand pressed to her forehead.
    “I’m pregnant.”
    Fuck.

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    Language:
    English
    Words:
    64,825
    Chapters:
    35/36
    Collections:
    1
    Comments:
    869
    Kudos:
    1,081
    Bookmarks:
    236
    Hits:
    44,580

    03 Apr 2026

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