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    Ilya grew up in a wonderful, supportive family. Irina is alive and knitting. Yuna died. David is distant, demanding. They meet when they are 17. Shane really needs a hat and a hug.

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    13 Jun 2026

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    Chapter 2

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    After being a witness to an horrible accident on the ice, Shane Hollander, riddled with PTSD, surprisingly retires from playing hockey for the NHL in 2015. The reasons for his Retirement are kept confidential and vague, the official statement only mentions an career ending injury.
    He needs years to even manage to set foot into an ice rink again but eventually manages to become an assistant coach for the Ottawa Centaurs, to reconnect with his beloved sport in some way.

    Ilya Rozanov had dealt with his fathers death and the final fallout with his brother alone. He feels lost and lonely in Boston and never wants to return to Russia. To secure permanent residency in Canada, he approaches a trade to Ottawa, shocking the entire hockey community.
    He won’t admit it to anyone but after Shane Hollander disappeared from the NHL and his life almost 3 years ago, a part of him disappeared too. The Centaurs are currently still the worst team in the devision but something about playing in the hometown of Shane Hollander draws him there.

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    12 Jun 2026

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    Chapter 6

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    He shook his head. The runaway idea was stupid—there’s no way they’d be able to pull it off and even if they did, there were just so many things that could go wrong. He didn’t know if he could pull off a convincing scheme like this, he knew he’d leave some kind of sign (but what if he was careful)? Plus he had no idea if Ilya would actually be ok with dropping everyone and running—also what about Svetlana, would she be ok with doing all of that? He already felt like he asked Ilya to give up too much despite his reassurances and this would just be another thing he’d be asking Ilya to leave.

    There was just no way that would work—right?

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    Shane and Ilya don't come out to Yuna and David. Instead, they leave everything behind. Currently (trying to be) updating weekly on Wednesdays.

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    10 Jun 2026

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    Chapter 7

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    In late October, Ilya picks up some kind of freakish Canadian flu that dogs him into November.

    It is the weirdest shit. He has to duck out of practice because his nose starts bleeding twice in one week and he wakes up in a hotel in Columbus with another one that leaves stains on the pillow. On the flight back to Ottawa, Hazy drops into the seat next to Ilya midflight and asks, "This isn't, like, a cocaine thing, right?"

    Ilya laughs so hard it's probably a little rude.

    They have a plan. Ilya's body has a different plan.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    Chapter 3

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    It’s Ilya who brings it up. He’s in his kitchen, making himself some kind of soup that Shane is already searching for recipes of—it’s called rassolnik. Leaning with one hip against the counter, he asks, “What about your sex dungeon?”

    “I don’t have a sex dungeon,” Shane says, both grossed out and intrigued by the idea.

    “The apartment, moya lyubov,” Ilya replies, fondness sheathed in annoyance. He slurps loudly, laughing when Shane makes a face at him over their video call. “What will you do with the apartment?”

    “Sell it, maybe.”

    --

    Or, Shane doesn't sell the secret-sex-apartment building. He starts renting it out, and somehow ends up with a gaggle of Russian tenants-turned-friends, several stray cats, and one very spoiled hamster.

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    09 Jun 2026

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    Chapter 3

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    He did this to you?” His voice was smooth Russian velvet as he glanced towards Tommy’s withering form.

    Shane swallowed hard. “N-no , I-I’m fine.”

    The alpha’s eyes darkened slightly at the lie.

    Behind him, another man approached quickly. Similar features. Older. Scar across his jaw. “Pakhan,” he said quietly in Russian before glancing toward Shane. “We should leave.”

    Pakhan.

    Boss.

    Shane’s stomach dropped.

    Everyone in Boston knew whispers about the Russian Bratva operating through the city.

    About the Rozanovs.

    Especially after Alexei Rozanov had died last year. The power vacuum afterward had filled the streets with nothing but blood and torture.

    The alpha still hadn’t looked away from Shane. “What is your name?”

    “…Shane.”

    “Shane.” He repeated it carefully, like tasting something expensive. “Ilya Rozanov.”

    The name hit like ice water.

    Oh God. Oh God.

    Ilya noticed the recognition instantly. A faint smile touched his mouth. “Do not look so frightened,” he murmured.

    Or The Mafia Omegaverse Mpreg you’ve all been waiting for ;)

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    08 Jun 2026

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    Chapter 2

  7. Public Bookmark 26

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    Ilya spent the entire vegas night, avoiding any sort of feelings to breakthrough. Little did he know that keeping shane at arm's length would just end up getting Shane hurt. And Shane Hollander has finally had it. This was the last straw of his patience. But,then Ilya Rozanov showed up at his door in the middle of the night offering..cuddles?

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    06 Jun 2026

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    Chapter 3

  8. Public Bookmark 40

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    Svetlana is already invited to the wedding, and Shane assumes his conversation with Ilya means Sasha will be included as well, the wedding still being over a month away.

    Or, Ilya’s childhood friends arrive in Ottawa earlier than expected and are unexpectedly helpful with wedding planning.

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    06 Jun 2026

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    Chapter 3

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    “Oh, c’mon! You don’t need a date night with Ilya. Without kids, every night can be date night. Jackie and I have been planning this outing for 3 weeks. I just forgot to call the babysitter until today, and now she is busy,” Hayden had that tone again. The one he used whenever talking about Ilya and Shane’s relationship. “Can’t you skip date night or move it to Montreal and take the kids with you?”

    Shane wasn’t sure how to respond. His first thought was just to say ‘no’ outright, but he knew that would result in making Hayden mad at him. “How about Ilya and I check our schedules and try to come out to babysit next week? We have a few nights next week where we will be in Ottawa before we leave on the road for 4 games.”

    Or Shane Hollander finally realizes Hayden is not a great friend.

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    04 Jun 2026

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    Chapter 9

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    After tuna melts and their first night actually sleeping together, Ilya asks Shane for more. Shane agrees, not knowing that this was Ilya's way of asking him out.

    Comination of written fic and texting fic.

    The text scrolls!

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    04 Jun 2026

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    Chapter 8

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    Ilya houses three new rookies for the Boston Bears. Three idiots from Briar University...Larry, Moe, and Curly...or whatever their names are. What could possibly go wrong?

    Or the Heated Rivalry/Off Campus cross over no one asked for

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    03 Jun 2026

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    Chapter 5

  12. Public Bookmark 25

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    It was handwritten in curly letters and had foreign stamps and international postmarks. It didn't look like fan mail. He looked closer and saw it had Russian stamps. Ilya stopped breathing. Suddenly, he recognized the handwriting. Slowly, he turned the letter over and opened it with shaking fingers. He unfolded the paper, which was written in Cyrillic. His heart hammered against his chest as he began to read.

    "Ilya...."

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    Ilya is miserable after the tuna melt when he gets a letter from his father that changes everything. For once, Grigori makes Ilya brave.

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    02 Jun 2026

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    Chapter 2

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    Shane loses something he didn't even know he had until it was already gone. It breaks him. Ilya walks away.

    --and then, eventually, they communicate like adults and end up together before 2017!

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    01 Jun 2026

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    Chapter 10

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    Then like an anomaly in one of his datasets, a green OPEN tag appears next to one of the restaurants. Shane squints his eyes, having difficulty seeing properly without his glasses.

    Irina's Kitchen
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    Shane doesn't bother reading them. He taps on the website and waits for it to load. Only to be met with error.

    Sighing he exits the page and keeps on scrolling. Nothing that is open catches his interest and the rest are closed. He's wondering how stale celery would taste dipped in pickle juice when his eyes land on Irina's Kitchen once more.

    There's a phone number under the address. Shane bites his lower lip and wonders if he should call.

    A woman with an accented voice picks up after the 5th ring.

    “Hello?”

    “Uh, hey, are you guys still open?”

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    30 May 2026

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    Chapter 6

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    Stealth trans, autistic Shane Hollander faces his own personal nightmare when a sudden period outs him to his hockey rival/secret crush Ilya Rosanov.

     

    TLDR: Shane and Ilya stay in a hotel, and there's only one bed! Menstruation, coming out, smut and feelings follow!

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    27 May 2026

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    Chapter 6

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    The first time Shane had sensed it, they’d been three goals up, winning a game they didn’t really deserve to win.

    ‘Rozanov - ‘ something on his face must have given away how truly terrible he feels, because Hollander is stepping closer, a look of concern etched over his features. He bites back his words - Ilya sways, just barely, dizzy all of a sudden - and Hollander gets out ‘Ilya,’ the name low and far too intent. Hollander smells worried, rain-charcoal-loam, a thick miasma. 

    Ilya chokes back a noise of pain as his stomach cramps, deep pain low in his pelvis - another wave of heat flushes over his cheeks - and it’s then that he feels the first trickle of slick and realizes, horribly and suddenly, what must impossibly be happening. What has been happening.

    He's going into heat.

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    27 May 2026

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    Chapter 4

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    What happens when intimacy is turned into a spectacle?

    Ilya Rozanov and Shane Hollander believed the greatest challenge to their relationship was the distance between them and their mutual expectations, but they were wrong. Trapped in a cinema that defies all logic, they find themselves forced to watch their own history—a television series based on their lives—projected before an impossible audience: family, loved ones, friends, bosses, coworkers, and total strangers.

    However, this is not the version everyone knows. It is an expanded, raw, and brutally honest cut, constructed from unaired scenes, internal monologues, and hour-long intermissions that only serve to unleash chaos among the spectators.

    In this theater, the cinema cease to be entertainment and becomes a legal proceeding. The theater is a courtroom, their friends act as attorneys, their coaches as judges, and the audience—now a jury—scrutinizes every frame. With the projector as the only evidence, what is on trial is their love: a bond that does not seek to deliver a verdict or point fingers at the guilty or innocent, but rather to set a precedent that will change the world of hockey forever.

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    26 May 2026

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    Chapter 12

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    Shane has been hiding his designation for his entire NHL career. It's been hard, but its been worth it.

    Then a single moment makes everything come tumbling down.

    (Updates on Tuesdays)

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    27 May 2026

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    Chapter 10

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    Shane Hollander gets outed on video a day before the draft. As his draft position keeps falling, an unlikely team makes a blockbuster trade back into the first round to select him and create the MLH's next big dynamic duo.

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    Never regret thy fall,
    O Icarus of the fearless flight
    For the greatest tragedy of them all
    Is never to feel the burning light.

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    26 May 2026

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    Chapter 2

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    Shane is violated, his world shattered, and he can't tell Ilya. But Ilya knows something is wrong and will burn himself to make it right, consequences be damned.

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    26 May 2026

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    Chapter 6

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