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    “Where are you going with this, Johnson?” Ilya asked. He was tired of beating around the bush. Especially now.

    “I’m saying that if you need a good fuck, I can hook you guys up for a night. I’ve got this girl in New York that messaged me on Insta, and I like, really want to fuck her. I promised him a good knot, and I mean, you could give him that, yeah?”

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    Shane Hollander has been hooking up with another player on the Boston Raiders team. It doesn't mean anything, it's just sex. But when Ilya Rozanov enters his life, nature takes its course.

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    19 Mar 2026

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    Shane Hollander is tired of wanting someone he cannot have, and he’s dying as he waits for someone who will not stay. Someone who doesn’t want to stay, not when there are so many others waiting for him. Fun of another variety, Shane left a treat amongst many.

    It’s humiliating. It’s distracting. And it feels like shit.

    He wishes he could erase his feelings, move on as easily. In an effort to gain back control over the ‘situation’ that has become his romantic attraction to a notorious player, Shane attempts at imitating Ilya Rozanov’s methods until he perfects them and becomes as good as keeping it light and casual as his rival.

     

    Or Shane tries to Hoe Phase himself into a self discovery journey to choke and kill his feelings for Ilya Rozanov. Ilya is not the only who suffers from it, but he sure feels like he’s being choked and killed.

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    Story ends after chapter 6 but I keep writing bonus because the hyper fixation doesn’t end.

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    18 Mar 2026

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    "Hi, I'm Matt," the man said. His gaze swept over the table, and when he met Shane's eyes, he winked. "Great to meet all of you. I'm a big hockey fan."

    Shane flushed bright red. Because he recognized that voice, and he remembered that name, but there were billions of people in the world, and Shane had never considered the possibility that his old vacation hook-up would make a reappearance.

    "You're a fan?"

    In which Shane and Ilya (and a few friends) run into Mexico top (iykyk) at the Kingfisher.

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    16 Mar 2026

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    Out of all Ilya’s terrible vices, repeatedly hiring the same escort might be the stupidest one he’s ever picked up.

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    15 Mar 2026

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    He’s breathing the same air as Shane Hollander. Carbon dioxide is passing from Hollander’s lungs to his. You should be mine, he thinks of commanding, on the off chance Hollander will obey. You’re the center of my world and you should be all mine.

    In which Ilya has a habit, and an obsession.

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    15 Mar 2026

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    “I am out for the season?”

    “Probably."

    “Are you by any chance looking for a trophy husband?”

    “Ilya.”

    “Yes? No?”

    “It’s one season, Ilya, we’re not—it’s bad because you’re hurting, not because—I’m not letting this fuck anything up for us, okay? We’ll figure something out,” Shane says, resolutely.

    or, you know what they say about the best laid plans

    ilya’s first year in ottawa looks a little different than originally planned, maybe sort of because he ends up spending it recovering a broken leg in his boyfriend’s apartment, but probably mostly because he meets jackie pike

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    13 Mar 2026

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    He couldn't find it anywhere, dread rolled over him with the fear of possibly dropping it on his walk, and now he definitely couldn't make it back to Ilya's. Fuck Stupid, why can't my brain work fucking normally for one day.

    In self destruction he once again yanked at his hair, and used the other hand to pick up his phone, his body forcibly finding the "Lily" contact automatically and pressing call.

    or..

    Shane Hollander drops HARD, after a quick departure from Ilya's house in Boston after some tuna melts, and sex, followed by an emotional overload of first name basis.
    Ilya is not feeling any better himself, however pulls himself together pretty quick after calling Shane to remind him of his forgotten wallet, and instead hears the state of Shane's sobbing.
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    An angst to fluff fic. But first heavy angst, but then pillow, fluffy fluff

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    21 Feb 2026

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    Canon retellings through a sub top ilya lens!

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    21 Feb 2026

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    “You lie to yourself, Hollander. Not to me.”

    “What, because you know me so well?”

    “Yes. I do. Don’t I?”

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    19 Feb 2026

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    “I like it,” he says weakly. “I like it, I like you holding me like this.”

    “Like what?”

    “Like you own me.”
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    or; They're falling in love. They can't have it, even if they can have each other, just for a little while.

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    20 Feb 2026

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    All fics in this series are standalone and may be read independently or in any order.

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    16 Feb 2026

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    “Shane…”

    “Who the fuck do you think you’re calling Shane?”

    “Sweetheart,” Ilya corrects, tilting his head down against Shane’s grip on his hair to try to catch his lips. “Please.”

    “I can do everything she can,” Shane says. “But you’ve been a bit too naughty today. I’m tying you up first.”

    “Oh, no,” Ilya says, voice going high and breathy. “That’s terrible.”

    Or - The jealous Shane/pathetic top Ilya fic where Shane makes Ilya beg for it

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    15 Feb 2026

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    08 Feb 2026

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    "Ilya had loved him through his worst moments. Ilya had helped him find a therapist when he’d collapsed on the floor of their hotel bathroom after losing a particularly brutal game, scratching at his chest. Ilya had held him, even when Shane yelled at him because there was panic crawling under his skin and he felt as though it might claw its way out. Ilya had told him it was okay; that it didn’t make him a bad player to resent the spotlight sometimes, that it didn’t make him a bad teammate to hate the team when they were too loud and too drunk and too physical, that it didn’t make him a bad person to need space to breathe. Ilya saved him.

    And look what you give him in return. You’re a shitty husband, Shane Hollander.

    You don’t deserve his last name."

     

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    content warnings: discussion of mental health, depiction of a panic attack, depiction of invasive medical procedure, depiction of violence (generally non-graphic), use of hate speech, depiction of a hate crime

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    08 Feb 2026

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    “Mic’ing us up? Did I hear that right?” Hunter questions.

    “Someone in PR thought it would be funny to hear the three of you during all of your games,” Coach LeClaire explains, “The idea got out and spread like wildfire.”

    “Huh,” Hunter responds.

    “It would be funny to hear me,” Ilya corrects, “I am funny. The other two are boring.”

    He hears Hollander huff out a laugh and bump shoulders with him as Hunter continues to ask questions. Casually glancing over to the other man, he sees a small smile playing at his lips. His eyes, though, there was a gleam that he hadn’t seen before. He wasn’t certain what it could mean, but it couldn’t be good for Ilya.

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    Or what if Shane had stayed with Ilya that night in Boston?

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    08 Feb 2026

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    “I can’t believe you're here.” Shane says, blushing like he's embarrassed.

    “You said you wanted me to be.” Ilya shrugs, trying to be cool. “And you do not seem like someone who asks for things very often when you need them.”

    or, in the summer of 2016 when they don't normally see each other, Ilya gets a text from Shane that changes everything.

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    02 Feb 2026

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    01 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander has been called boring for a lot of his hockey career. He resents that sentiment, but he knows it's not exactly wrong. He's quiet, calculated, and really fucking good. Not quite predictable, but boring.

    Shane decides to reject that bullshit and take control of his life.

    For once, Shane wants to do what he wants.

    And of course that fucking thing he wants to do is kiss fucking Ilya Rozanov.

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    01 Feb 2026

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    Shane will never complain about having sex with Ilya. Even when he thinks he might. Even when his brain lines up all the reasons it could go wrong, all the ways it might be uncomfortable or inconvenient or just not worth the effort.
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    "Mmm, so wet, Hollander. Because of the shower, yes? All the, fuck, all the water.” Shane managed to huff out a ‘fuck you’ while Ilya played with the swollen slit at the head of his dick.

    "Look down, Shane. C'mon, are you looking?” Tears began to form in Shane's eyes from Ilya's hands, from the words spilling from his mouth. “Are you — fuck, Hollander — are you thinking about the water, mmm? Is too cold? Too hot?” 

     

    Shower sex? Shane might be too on the spectrum for that.

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    31 Jan 2026

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    Shane’s boyfriend just couldn’t fuck him right, fortunately his ex could.

    So Shane invites his ex over to fuck him while his boyfriend watches and learns. It’s purely educational. Totally not about the unresolved feelings that they both don’t have

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    31 Jan 2026

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